ShutUpItsMine

Loyal Critic

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If the beat stops, who will feed the cats?

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what if this is the last?

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Who will take care of the cats?

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When she's quiet, her mind speaks loudly

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Just don't.

Iniisip ko bakit ilang araw na akong hindi nakakatulog ng maayos. Kung hindi half-sleep, parang lagi kong inaabangan ang ingay ng paligid ko kahit tulog ako.

At naisip ko, bakit nga ba ako hindi makatulog ng maayos? And it started nung umuwi kami sa bahay namin at nag away ang magulang ko.

When they fight, normally sagutan lang pero minsan may halong sakitan. Little did I realize na, lumaki ako sa ganung sitwasyon. Naging taga-awat and all.

When parents did fight in front of their child. I think they didn't realize how it affects them - regardless of they are grown man/woman.

Nakakapagod.

Nakaka-drained.

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treat them with silence. They know what they did

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Of course, not every day is roses and rainbows

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Beach. Beech.

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It is true. Once you loss someone dear to you, you can't do anything but to hope and grief.

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I can’t help but get jealous of everyone celebrating this season with their child. As everyone was preparing for Christmas, I was doing my lab tests. I know; I said I no longer want to have a child because of my continuous pregnancy loss. But I also know that, inside my heart, I’m still hoping that God sees me from above and see my heart’s desire. 

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“Your absence is so loud during this holiday season.” 

I thought we’ll be celebrating Christmas with a baby bump. I’m trying to survive this season, and I’m barely surviving. 

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I’m okay with anything.

A lot of people expect something with 2023.

As for me? I’m okay with anything. 

No expectation.

No goal.

None at all.

I mean, do we really need those when the world is right there. Ready to wreck you? 

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I know that having a child is not the definition of womanhood.

But I couldn't be sad and jealous of others.

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I think, people wouldn't understand the difference of, you not wanting a child and you just can't have a child.

I mean, fvck, right?

It's not that you don't want to, but because your body is not capable to.

It took years for me to love every part of me. And look what happened.

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I know he loves me more than anything, but I can't help to think that he will leave me in time because I couldn't give him a child.

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I don't know.

[quotefeeling]

“So, if you are too tired to speak, sit next to me because I, too, am fluent in silence.”

— R. Arnold