𝐤𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐚

(n.) the delusion of things being more beautiful then they actually are

[sidfeelzsick]

hi i am sid.

and this is my intro to my blog (which is long overdue)

I make music and like doing my makeup. I am a girls girl and a man hater ✊ (even tho i have a lovely boyfriend) i enjoy art and philosophy and you will often find me smoking cigarettes like it's my job. My cats are my babies and i cherish my friends.

tv shows / movies:

. mlp . corpse bride . fight club . 500 days of summer . death note . friends . analog horror .

. tokyo ghoul . batman .

. american pyscho.

games:

. silent hill . overwatch . minecraft . star dew valley . milk inside and bag of milk inside a bag of milk . needy streamer overload .

big kiss to all you lovely angels xoxo

- sid

[sidfeelzsick]

we have no right to call other species invasive, we are the most invasive species on earth.

[candiseal]

[sidfeelzsick]

i will haunt you.

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got my nails doneeee xxx

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do i dye my hair blue? everything i own tho is pink :/ but i just want blue hair so bad but i have brown hair now and i have bleached it sm i think it might fall out

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i feel so unbelievably replaceable, some how there is always someone better, funnier, prettier than me. and thats the basis of it doesn't matter if it's being someones best friend or someones girlfriend, it is a never ending cycle of being left behind like how the seasons change. 

[itscharliibby]

[sidfeelzsick]

I don't care

I'm lying through my teeth.

All i do is care

I drive myself insane,

with the words people

don't say,

and the words they do

and the way I walk and talk.

sometimes I think I'm to lazy

but I don't care

sometimes I think people hate me

but I don't care

sometimes I want to scream and cry

and yell out for help

to scream in the face

of someone I love

because they hurt me

and they tell me to do so,

all the opportunities I'm given to do so

and I don't

I hate it.

but I don't care.

[sidfeelzsick]

just played milk inside a bag of milk, inside a bag of milk. Holy tuff, if you struggle with mental illness you can relate some way or another. I personally LUVED playing it as I'm a sucker for a visual novel defo recommend!!

[sidfeelzsick]

glurp glurp zerp zerp

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inner monolog won't shut up and its now becoming really draining, it is nit picking every little thing I do!!!!! JUST SHUT UP ALREADY

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Today I learned I have no empathy, only sympathy. That is something I want to work on greatly.

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mwah is a very important word

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I will always feel fat.

[sidfeelzsick]

If I could eliminate one human emotion it would be greed, I think it is the ugliest emotion and mindset to have. Greed is for people who have too much but don't need it. Secretly I'm greedy.

- If you could eliminate one human emotion what would it be -

[sidfeelzsick]

I have such a long future

ahead of me,

and i could do so many things

but for some reason

the only thing I can think of is

doing nothing.

I don't want to do anything.