Fvcking for money

[sierramillion]

Hey, how are you? Miss your posts. ✨

This must be really old

But I'm OK.

I'm going to post something soon that will include sort of a life update.

Hope all the girlies are doing well and are taking good care of themselves ❤️

[sierramillion]

The worst advice I've read on here (I think, it's been ages) is getting condoms in 100 pack for cheap for appointments. Talking about higher end work here ofc

It really doesn't matter if the condom costs 10 cents or 2 euro when you charge clients hundreds per hour. The clients CAN tell the difference and it's just silly to save on that. I had two incidents of a condom breaking/slipping off with one of the big packs and the scaries were NOT worth the savings.

I'm out of the industry for a bit but it just came to my mind because I still find single condoms stashed away in old handbags all the time.

[lacetulle]

Paolo Sebastian | Moonlight Serenade

[sierramillion]

If you got a job in a luxury setting where you can potentially meet rich men, how would you “give off” vibes that you’re available/open for something more?

Not any differently than regular dating. Be flirty and see what happens 🤷🏽‍♀️ it's not like most rich men would need any particular encouragement to go for it if they like you.

[sierramillion]

In hindsight, thinking small is the thing that limited me the most in life, and probably still does to an extent

[sierramillion]

This year has been really great for me so far! Much much better than the last, traveling a lot, mentally mostly stable 😅

Something I have noticed though that my relationship with my friends has slowly but steadily changed. I barely hang out with them any more! And when I do I sometimes struggle to relate to them. When I was still escorting I had a lot of things to hide from my vanilla friends but I didn't have this feeling. I think I'm about to face the fact that it's really hard once you "level up" (for the lack of a better term) to stay friends with people you met at a point in life where your lives were much more alike. My friends are all really nice people but spending time with people when you can't relate to each other feels super draining. I'm playing a role and I'm tired of it.

So I really have to make it my mission to find new friends that are more fitting with my current lifestyle because otherwise the only person I can hang out and be myself with is my bf and that's probably not the best long-term 🤐

Writing this out feels horrible. I never wanted to be this person that ditches her friends and in a way it grounds me to talk with people that I have shared a part of a simpler, different life with. So hopefully I can keep the old friendships while making new, fulfilling ones.

[xaumo-iconographie]

Gjon Mili | Nude Descending Staircase (Variant) (1942)

[traplikebossy]

You know a pimp wrote this dumb ass shit because a smart, SEASONED hoe would never entertain a struggling man😂No fee = NO ME!

[sierramillion]

I try to be very tolerant about all types and ways of doing SW, but I will never get behind women who let broke guys leech off of their SW income. If they need money they should go suck some D too 🤷🏽‍♀️

[sierramillion]

So glad I am back to letting my guy spoil me 💅

A generous man not only wants to give you everything you desire and more, it makes him feel amazing, too.

[sierramillion]

This time last year I was convinced I was going to be this jetsetting party girl. Somehow I ended up a vegetarian church mouse who only listens to classical music and goes to bed at 11pm max

[sierramillion]

I sometimes wonder how after all I have seen I still have sexual fantasies about men 🤔

[sierramillion]

For a while I felt as if I had lost my ability to ask for stuff. I have always preferred escorting to sugaring because you never need to ask and scheme and sugarcoat. You have your set rate and anything else is a bonus. You put a wishlist on your website or socials and generous clients get the hint. Probably I was being neglectful not gaming the paying clients more, but at least I got my expectations met without any mental acrobatics involved. I'm lazy af 😅

A few months into the spoiled GF situation something weird happened. I was unable to communicate my wants and expectations properly for what seemed like months and it really messed with me. I became frustrated with myself and also with my SBF for not reading my mind. It was completely unfounded, too. I guess a mix of bad emotions and some severe disappointments made me so closed off and retract into a false "pride" of pretending to not need anyone. This is so unhealthy and especially in my situation it was a really pointless coping mechanism and I'm glad I seem to have fully overcome it.

I really hate when situations like this prove to me that my therapist was quite right about some uncomfortable truths 😐 and the sooner I fully accept them I hopefully can spot myself slipping into an unhealthy defensive mindset before it becomes an issue.

[sierramillion]

Happy international women's day 💕🎉

I am so glad I had this community when starting out my level up/sw journey. So many bright, successful, kind women 🙏

I'm quite sad that a lot of my mutual have deactivated since. I wish them well, and all of you who stick around too 💕😘

[sierramillion]

I made a huge, dumb, stupid mistake of helping out a friend I met through SW.

It started out harmless, she sometimes borrowed money and repaid me within a week or two usually.

Then covid hit and she got lucky with a lump sum that kept her afloat during the lock down months. But in Europe even after lock down hoeing was super dead, so she decided to move to my city where it's cheaper to live and more clients. I helped her find a place and paid the deposit - never should have done that.

In fact, take this as a warning to never, ever "lend" a friend money that you're not willing to lose forever. Second lock down came and lasted 6 months where she had no way of making money except random deposits from her ex bf, she kept asking me for support and it turned into a whole mess where I feel almost forced to continue providing for her so she doesn't lose the roof over her head and with it the last chance to at some point get on her feet financially. She makes promises every time we meet how her situation is about to change, that her thoughts and prayers will be answered by God because he wouldn't punish a "good person" which makes me so so angry to hear.

I realized instead of sucking it up and finding a way to make her own money she prefers waiting for a miracle while relying on me, she constantly screws up, loses or breaks things and I feel just burned out.

Even if she ever managed to pay me back this "friendship" has been one of the worst experiences of my life and going forward I will probably never help out a friend again even if it sounds harsh. It doesn't help that another friend borrowed 1.5k from me last year "for a week" and still hasn't paid me back.

All my life I was this ride or die friend but I now realize that most people don't deserve friends like that, instead just taking advantage of the kindness of others. Though if I'm honest, it's probably not even kindness, I'm just too insecure to say no and stand my ground

[kafkasdiariies]

Villa del Balbianello, Lenno, Lombardia, Italia | Comoinstyle

[lais-noire-deactivated20260601]

Love this place!

[hoedl]

LOL !

what in the pick me hell is this

[sierramillion]

Reminds me of the client who wanted to book me but I was away, so I sent him links to a few other girls in the city. He later emailed me complaining that the girl he booked didn't show "and the champagne he bought was wasted". Lmaooo as if I'm supposed to do something about it, can't believe how entitled these guys are.

[sierramillion]

These days I only login to Tumblr every few days to check on my favs and block any porn blogs who followed me 🤮

I miss the old Tumblr days but I shouldn't complain as I have not much myself to contribute. Just riding the pandemic out and stopped giving a f@€& about anything really