It's my 8 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳
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just got notified that this account is in fact 8 years old. i started this account back 2015. for someone. i was in my 2nd year of college, studying, i think, and of course, dodging my feelings to a certain someone.
she's so good with her words but i am bad at it. i hate confrontations and serious conversations. so i made this so i can pour anything - my thoughts, my happiness, my sadness, my annoyance, my feelings, and my heartbreak.
it's been 5 years since we broke up. decided to continue this but for another person but it just doesn't feel right. so like our feelings with each other, i abandoned this.
i hope she's okay. the first year we broke up was crazy. i got on with someone new. she did too. she kinda blamed me for everything. it hurts but at least i got the answer i needed for #the talk. just a few months late. then radio silence. we kinda talked again here and there; just hi hellos and nothing in between.
what i'm saying is: what we had was a whirlwind of mixed signals, emotions, and regrets. looking back, i think i loved her. wholeheartedly. that it became too much for the both of us. because she loved me too, wholeheartedly. we had too much love to offer that it overflowed, and we don't know what to do with it. i don't regret it though. she made me feel loved. and i thank her for that. i'm not sure if i directly said it to her but here it is. i'll never forget you, f.
