what could be worse

than having to decide between two evils

[silnaryba]

sooooo.... for the first time in years, last night, i stayed up until 2am binge watching anime. i have been having so much trouble mentally with accepting who i want to be versus my fears of judgement and abandonment. today is one of those really hard days that i just fight myself tooth and nail to conform into what society deems as “normal mid-20′s adult” and just being happy enjoying things i enjoy. mental illness sucks. it fucking sucks.

i’ve also been down rabbit holes of entire cosplay ti/kt/ok accounts and been so enamoured and proud and the respect i have for those people is insurmountable (this is kinda what spurred on my interest to actually watch the anime) and i’m sitting here like man that would be so cool if i could do that too. bietch you CAN just do it like ug h the every day battle with myself is so fucking exhausting.

anyways, i’m ranting. it all just made me miss writing and being part of a fandom and/or community that appreciates me - the REAL me - my brain just doesn’t wanna accept that as truth. like damn i’ve been role-playing and writing since elementary school aka the majority of my life and i still sit in fear... of what?? exactly???

i just miss feeling like i have real friends.

[silnaryba]

it has come to my attention that the FIVE YEAR anniversary is quickly approaching us. i forgot it’s just a few days after my birthday. i still crave to write, be here and enjoy time with everyone but it’s not a good time for me right now which is such a bummer. times are crazy so i hope we can all celebrate a game that brought us all together to build friendships and special connections even if it is just a brief moment of reflection and joy. ♡ take care of yourselves and stay safe ♡♡♡

[silnaryba]

it has come to my attention that the FIVE YEAR anniversary is quickly approaching us. i forgot it’s just a few days after my birthday. i still crave to write, be here and enjoy time with everyone but it’s not a good time for me right now which is such a bummer. times are crazy so i hope we can all celebrate a game that brought us all together to build friendships and special connections even if it is just a brief moment of reflection and joy. ♡ take care of yourselves and stay safe ♡♡♡

[silnaryba]

h e l l o - me again, sky, that one hoe who always comes back for 3 days then vanishes again. life has been absolutely bonkers between a car accident and health issue, dw i’m doing better. tbh the person who had started playing ut with me and got all my excite juices flowing kinda peeved me off so i haven’t been talking to him lately... he expresses that he still won’t play it unless i’m there but idk about it fam. so hey, sorry for being a butt and i hope you’re all taking EXTRA care of yourselves and supporting those u love. ♡

[silnaryba]

hey friends! i hope you’ve all been doing super well and staying safe ♡ life has been absolutely bonkers but things seem to be ironing out into more of a smooth routine. i am going through a couple v stressful things at the moment but i’m gonna be doing my best to set some time aside you spend with you peeps!

[indori]

anime～

[lmaruchartista]

[silnaryba]

lmaruchartista​:

Pencil test for an undyne animation. Keyframes still need work and I plan to add inbetweens.

[silnaryba]

birds-multimuse‌ ‌ ⤸⤵

Oh she’s actually talking to him oh shit-

“I’m doing good!” “Today has been going delightfully well.”

Hollow Knight you fool! Today hasn’t been okay in the slightest! Just earlier you were tumbling in the snow having been ambushed by the youngsters of Snowdin. You, a proper Knight with a Reputation was duped by a bunch of teenagers! They caught you off guard, there were so many snowballs. They ran into your legs behind you to make you fall over, you never stood a chance. They built a snowman ontop of you, a notorious sign of victory for those who have bested you, and an embarrassing sign of defeat for the one who’s been bested. Such shame that’s been brought upon you, you’ll never be able to live it down.

“I hope I’m right in assuming it’s been the same for you?”

          ‘  ah , well sure i guess .  ’   the days seem to have started blurring together and although she loves and takes pride in her position the mundane tasks of loitering WAITING for something to happen have been particularly draining the past while .   ‘  guess i’m a little tired lately . i’m glad we’re picking up new people to join the guard i need a freakin’ vacation or something !  ’

          she laughs , a hand moving to rub gently against her patch .   ‘  speaking of all the NEW recruits . i’m sorry , i’ve forgotten you’re name , the king likes to throw around a lot of those at me so i’m not really sure who is who sometimes .  ’   it feels silly to ask but she’ll have to get the names down eventually and attaching them to a face is always helpful . . . at the very least she should TRY but it’s tough to make the effort when most barely last a week or two .

[6nan8-deactivated20240601]

寝起きダインちゃん

[silnaryba]

battleshell‌ ‌ ⤸⤵

@undyiinghero​ finally made it.

       * [ so! what do i call you from now on, eh? ]     he had put on a pot of his signature sea tea on the kettle, eyes lingering over the numerous cups in his shelf and wondering which one would be appropriate for such a special, notable, incredible occasion. his marred hand would soon follow, claws trailing around the lip of the glasses ornate with blown designs or plastered logos. all of his silverware was cleaned up from the dump and polished to a usable condition (no judging now, what’s a scavenger have else to do?) but he shuts the cabinet door with a scowl as he nervously turns to her with a grin - stalling.       * [ just saying 𝖴𝗇𝖽𝗒𝗇𝖾 is too simple now. ]       * [ have ya given it some thought? somethin’ like.. leader, boss, captain? ]       * [ harhar… ]     he shakes his head with a smile.      * [ or maybe ‘top dog’? ]             * [ because - wahaha - the other guards are dogs aren’t they?! ]

          ‘  VERY funny .  ’   her tone is sarcastic and harsh but she can’t seem to wipe the smile off her face . she missed him , missed waterfall , painfully missed this simple and SERENE life she once had . even so don’t be mistaken , her new environment and duties have challenged her and built more strength within than she ever knew was THERE .

           perhaps it’s just her own reflection but simple things have changed in her absence . while her posture has always been proud there’s an essence of command to it — this silent force that’s been nurtured in her SOUL . yet around gerson all those things aren’t so overwhelming and terrifying it truly has been a long time since she felt there is a place to feel so goofy and sincere .

          ‘  i guess they use captain but i’d actually rather if you didn’t , it’d just be strange coming from you .  ’   strange that someone she’s looked up to ALL her life suddenly looking up to her — difference in height particularly redundant in this case . she chuckles to herself before saying ,   ‘  at least the other guards aren’t CATS then i’d really be screwed !  ’   

[silnaryba]

HAHAHA oml u know you watch too much ti/kto/k when ur just chilling with the ut soundtrack in the bg but when ‘SHOP’ comes on the BWAHHHH version plays in your head

[silnaryba]

they’re being cute again?! | @staydetermined​ ; puts a flower in undyn/e's hair!

          the fish-monster doesn’t make any movement of OBJECTION or try to resist . at this point it’s better off that way — so shoulders relax and she allows the flower to be delicately placed between fiery strands of hair . she only caught a GLIMPSE at the fauna so undy/ne isn’t quite sure what fr/isk happen to pick for her . although , there’s enough confidence placed in the kid to even worry about some atrocious faux pas by the standard of a certain skeleton . 

          ‘  it’s nice , thanks punk .  ’   undy/ne sneaks an arm around the other for a quick and HUMAN strength appropriate hug as a show of affection before letting them go . truthfully , she wouldn’t be surprised if they happen to come back with more until her head is crowned in florals but she doesn’t seem to mind it that much .

[silnaryba]

muffled sky noises

[co0rnhub-blog]

[lightheartedsuggestion]

Be empathetic, be kind, be understanding. But be strong, be honest, be assertive.

[waxsnake]

Cooking lessons!

[silnaryba]

something admirable | @mmkqt​ ; ✿ fjdkla;fj;a

          it is no real secret that the fish monster seems to have an UNLIMITED supply of energy , enthusiasm , and mischievous adventuring . the things that are more hidden are those softer moments she shares with friends and family — allowing vulnerabilities , while RELUCTANTLY , to surface past all that extroversive power . others may say they can’t see it . . . the fact that the former royal scientist also holds these feeling inside her  but they simply shine in different ways , in different directions , in monstrous and AMAZING waves . perhaps she doesn’t say it enough or encourage the other to be proud of anything and everything she believes in or loves and to not be ashamed of that — still a work in progress . IT IS THERE . dyne knows it she sees it all the time and grows beyond elated to see alph express herself that way , truly , with all of her soul . . . there is nothing she ADMIRES more .