Revel in the chaos.

Kaltoum // 21 years old Instagram: @kalvroom

[urada]

[simple-complexities]

i want my life back

[simple-complexities]

does living get easier? i really really really miss what my life was like a year ago, even though it was hard in so many ways, it’s never been THIS hard. it seems as though every time i get my chops up, some wild shit happens. in the past 6 months i’ve been dealing with a breakup, bike accident and car accident and the bills that follow those things, and now my mama’s house being bought out by a company in the area. i have little motivation beyond my days at work and seriously no capacity to maintain emotional intimacy with anyone at all, both romantically or platonically. this shit is seriously so hard and i haven’t been able to talk about it in any capacity but i just wish i could snap my fingers and disappear for a bit without having it affect my mama or her bills.

 i know things pass and will get better and all that jazz. but, today i am tired.

january 15th 2019

[simple-complexities]

i’m struggling with life more than i’d like to admit

i’ve been feeling really hopeless

i guess i’ve been “achieving” things but they don’t really matter to me at this point or carry any weight

i feel like i’m aimlessly floating 

and honestly i thought about being 40 today and the thought scared the shit out of me. 6 months ago I was excited about the future and now i dread it. i’m dreading how much i’ll be working to keep my brain busy. i’m dreading traveling alone, as much as i want to. i’m dreading having memories of what it feels like to be 23. i hope this shit passes. i feel real tired.

[spi-ltmilk]

[meanplastic]

NEVER FORGET

[simple-complexities]

high as hell n all i can think is that i could eat be between my babygirls thighs  forever and then some laaaaaaaaAAAAAaaaaAAAaaaaAaaaaAAAAaaawd have mercy

[comeplayandgoaway]

[ruinedchildhood]

This is adorable 😩

[simple-complexities]

2018 is gonna be my year

[cinemove]

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004) dir. Michel Gondry

[simple-complexities]

bumpy ass head// shoutout jay for the cut

[the-silmarellion]

[ryantippery]

Sketchbook Page, 2017 Ink on paper

[chandrilas-deactivated20180714]

Caleb McLaughlin photographed by Jason Barbagel for VMan

[sentimental-obsessions]

[jamaicanpassing]

i’m super nervous to even make a post like this but i am in need and i shouldn’t feel ashamed or guilty for asking for help. i would greatly appreciate any support you guys can give, whether by reblogging this or sharing the link in some way.

i’ve found a great space with amazing people and if all goes well, i could move in with them. any amount helps.

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