I sit here in a WeWork booth alone right now typing this as Janice just left to go to her Freedom Session and Jordan is going to be soon on his way to pick me up.
Life's changed very significantly over the past several years. This year is going to be my 5th year now not working for somebody else. I admit that there's so many blessings and challenges that come with this different life.
Everything's on me. That's the truth. Every win, every loss, every opportunity, every threat; it's all on me. The truth is that I struggle sometimes because I'm such an all or nothing person. I wait for the conditions to be perfect before I feel like I can work. This can be a good or bad thing. It's good because it gives me the peace of mind to process what I need to process. Bad because sometimes I take more time than I need when I could've pushed myself to bounce back faster.
Regardless, everything is a learning lesson and I love my life the way it is. I can genuinely feel myself more youthful amongst my peers who are of the same age. Yes, people can see me as childish sure but the days of our youth are finite. I think the moment you lose your inner child is the moment you have sold yourself to the world.
The world is in a hurry to snap the youth to reality. Why? Because everyone at some point yearns for their youth. Out of salt, the world is quick to grow their numbers in suffering.
I'm going to do my best to figure out what it takes to maintain my inner child while also growing financially in this world. I don't have it all sorted yet, but I know I'll get it soon. Right now, I'm latching onto my parents and I'm very well aware of that. Perhaps I need to set myself free in order to truly realize who I am going to become.
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