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Very Important Announcement On This Blog's Future
I truly have sad news, everyone. It pains me to say this, but this will most likely be my last post on here. I know this is surprising to hear after my last announcement post, and I didn't think it would come to this, either. However, with my sharply declining mental health, hellish personal life, negative dashboard posts, and the people I hurt still being nearby, being here only makes me feel anxious and sad. So, I'll explain this all a bit right here.
I officially have quit writing and it makes me sad, to be honest. It was my passion for the longest time and a way to finally express myself without people trying to control my life and look down on my unsociable self. It felt like a dream come true having a community like this. However, I've come to realize that the way I write and interact with others about it is egotistical, selfish, and inaccessible to most people. This drives readers away from my works and makes me feel bad about expressing myself. So, I'll stop because of that, and the lack of engagement/support on them is another reason. It sucks, but I just don't have it in me anymore if people just ignore them. It's not like they were very good or added much on this platform, anyway...
hihihiii sam !!! thought i'd check up on you (^^;) of course, you can totally ignore this ask if you wish to ! no worries <3
i saw your posts T^T i don't want to offer words of comfort since i don't know if that's what you need right now but !!! reminding you that you're very much loved <3 and the new year's just starting so there will surely be brighter days to come for an amazing person like you. take care of yourself okay !!
Hi! I appreciate this, really. I honestly donāt know what I need either, since I feel so hopeless. I have trouble seeing that Iām loved at times, especially in times like these. Still, Iāll try to see that more often. Yeah, the New Yearās starting, so it will hopefully be better as time goes on. Iāll try to take care of myself, but itās getting hard. Sorry if this was too depressing, Iām very draining and miserable to be around. I donāt want to hurt you⦠Thanks anyway, though! I hope everything goes well for you too!
I also think thereās something really wrong with me. Like a lot of unknown mental health problems. My mood shifts through every emotion throughout the day and I feel so exhausted by it and canāt control it. My intense fears of abandonment and nonexistent self esteem are also a part of it. I shouldnāt be feeling this bad, but I do. I have no money or resources to look into it, though. Iām all on my own to figure it out, it seems. Iām also starting to lose the will to live⦠Thereās no point to keep on living like this and I donāt matter all that much. Not many would remember my presence on here, I think.
I hate myself so fucking much. Iām so helpless and canāt do anything right. My efforts to be genuine and honest and help others is something I try to do so I can give others the love and support I donāt have in my hellish home life and a way I can feel like Iām not useless. I wish I was truly selfless, but Iām not. Iām selfish in every sense of the word⦠I keep hurting everyone I care about and it sucks. It doesnāt matter if I didnāt intend to, Iām toxic and dangerous to be around. I donāt think Iām worthy of having friends or human connection if I canāt even change. Iām a lost cause and people shouldnāt get close to me, Iāll end up hurting and driving them away eventually, even when if I try my best not to and change very hard. I donāt want to make people feel bad. However, itās what I do best over the course of my pathetic little life. Iām no better than my piece of shit mother. Iām a monsterā¦
I don't eat or sleep much anymore. I don't have the motivation to. I'm starting to lose weight from it; a lot of my clothes don't fit me anymore... I just don't care, none of it matters. Feels like nothing will ever really change.
I really need to get out of here. I feel like a prisoner in my own home. I canāt leave or have anyone to help me. Iāll get insulted and screamed at no matter what I do or say⦠I donāt know why my mom hates me so much. She says I donāt deserve any rights and Iām her ālittle scapegoatā. What did I do to deserve this? It sucks, being afraid of your own home and not being fully loved by your family. I donāt feel real or that I matter. I donāt want to hurt others like she hurts me, but itās so difficult to change and be seen in an environment like mine. And it feels like Iām alone and no one fully understandsā¦
Iām thinking about going back to being a recluse and not trying too hard to put myself out there. I feel like Iām a danger to others and can never do anything right. I wish I could actually help people and not keep screwing up with everythingā¦
I'm genuinely sorry for not interacting with anybody on here lately. I'm worried that I'll make others feel bad and uncomfortable, and I don't want that. I'm annoying and draining to be around, since I feel like my attempts at being honest and supportive just feels like too much at times. I wish I didn't have so much self-doubt...
I have panic attacks and cry every day now. I wake up and my whole body hurts, my heart rate is ridiculously high, and my thoughts are scary. I canāt stop it or have anything to treat it with. And having to deal with it all alone is so painful. Iām exhausted and wish things would just get better and calm downā¦
The thing that sucks the most about my depression is that I canāt really enjoy anything anymore. Things that used to make me feel fun and satisfied no longer do. It feels horrible, having nothing that makes you smileā¦
2025 was genuinely the worst year of my life. My home life reached a breaking point, I lost a parent unexpectedly, and my mental health issues have gotten the worst theyāve ever been. Iāve lost so much and it hurts so fucking badly. I canāt escape, either. It makes it so difficult to keep going when thereās no hope in sight and Iām all alone⦠I really fear that Iām going to lose everything and everyone I love and care about, by my own doing. I feel like Iām going to die a sad and lonely death. Iām so dysfunctional and fundamentally broken as a social human being that I donāt think I can be changed or helped. I drive people away and hurt them, even though I donāt want or intend to. I feel like I donāt deserve love or happiness. Iām so, so scared, and Iām trapped and powerless to stop my life and mental health from collapsing all around me. This all sucks so muchā¦
I canāt believe my mother is once again blaming my lack of a job on not saying āyes or no, sir/maāamā during interviews. That sounds ridiculous and I hate using honorifics like those. They feel outdated and assume peopleās genders. Why canāt I have sympathy for trying my best in a bad job market?
Important Announcement
I have fully returned early. I wish it were under happier circumstances, but if I'm being honest, I'm really sad and my mental health is at an all-time low. My life is completely falling apart and I'm pretty helpless to do anything about it. I'm trapped here and don't have anyone to really help me out. I've been so depressed, I don't eat or sleep much and can barely get up. I think I may have deeply unaddressed mental health issues. In fact, I thought about deleting everything in my online life and isolating myself forever... I don't want that, though, so that's why I wanted to address what can be expected from this blog going forward.
I have no idea when I'm going to write again, it won't be for a long time and I considered quitting altogether. A lack of passion from myself and support from others is a big factor. So, I have no idea what will be next. I'm sorry for this, I just don't know what to do anymore...
I'll still make posts, but the focus will shift to more vent and expressing the struggles I'm facing in my life. I understand this is a big change and will drive people away. Feel free to ignore me if they bother you, I understand. I can't think of much else to do, though. As for reblogging other people's stuff, I'll still do it, but perhaps reduce the frequency so I don't spam the dash and upset anyone.
In short, I'm not leaving, but will generally be inactive and open about what I'm going through. I appreciate everyone who supports me, you mean the world to me. I sincerely hope things get better for me and that I don't make anyone upset by my posts, I just don't know how to fix my life, if I even can...
Anyway, that's about it. I know this was a lot and I hope you can all understand. I'll still support people if they want my help, that will never change. If anyone wants to talk to me, you know where to find me. Have a great day and I'll try not to give up, I promise!
ANOTHER YEAR DONE AND DONE , HAPPY NEW YEAR HVNTERS !
hello hvnters !!! as 2025 draws to a close and 2026 opens its doors, the staff team would like to extend our most sincere gratitude to all of you who have made all of this possible. whether you are active or not, we love and appreciate each and every one of you for being alongside us during all this time. may this journey take us starward!
art by mod illu ( @milksnake-tea ) !
This absolutely incredible! The way everyone is drawn is true and accurate to the characters. I love the wine glass in Kafka's hand, Blade posing, Silver Wolf gaming, and Elio looking cute. I especially love Firefly's face smiling and the SAM suit soaring. The billboard angle is amazing as well. Overall, thanks to Illu for making this wonderful piece as a great way to start off the new year!
happy late new year, Sam!! welcome back, i missed you while you were gone. hereās to hoping 2026 treats you wellāyou deserve it! ā„ļøš
Happy late new year to you as well! I'm glad you missed me. I'm really hoping 2026 is better, since this last year and the last few months of it have been dire for me and I'm struggling to keep going at my lowest. I'll soon make an announcement on what I'm going to do online here going forward. Sorry I'm saying all this, I really appreciate you specifically for still caring about me. I hope things are better for you as well!
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Thanks for this, I appreciate it!