#1 Darth Maul Apologist

I really love dad vader content. It's so deranged but in a wholesome way. Second most evil man alive is a good dad. He meets his son twice and thats enough for him to stop being evil. King of inverting his entire political and moral praxis for one (1) person

Obi-Wan and Yoda like omg we have to keep the twins away from palpatine ahhhh and then later omg wr have to keep the twins away from vader ahhhh except the second luke is in danger (from someone other than himself) vader decides to kill his evil boss he's always hated. Sounds like yall could have saved yourselves some trouble if he'd known he had children earlier.

Everything about Maul makes a lot more sense when you realize that despite being an extraordinarily powerful and deeply talented force user, he is still extremely insecure + fear motivated.

Not only is he from a culture that inherently devalues him, but he grew up being told he was good for very little. Maul, at his core, is unchanged from the little boy who was given away by his mother. How would that not inform a core aspect of your thought process? That you are worth less than ehat you were traded for even by your own mother? He spends a great deal of the series still trying to prove himself, to Sidious, to Talzin, even to Obi-Wan, that he is worth something (not that he believes that himself).

He expresses the fawn trauma response when Sidious comes to collect, saying that he did this for him, he built this empire for Sidious, and when that doesn't work, he finally gives in and defends himself. Crucially, this is not true. He built that empire to defend himself because Sidious frightens him so much. He uses the defensive Soresu. I know people say that his fight against Sidious is one of thr biggest beatdowns in the show and he spends the runtime getting mollywopped, but I disagree. He puts up (in my opinion) a damn good fight against Sidious. I don't think he loses because Sidious is necessarily the better duellist, I think he loses because ensured that Maul specifically would never be able to surpass him. Maul couldn't have won that fight, because he was terrified.

When he's captured by Ahsoka, him begging to die is one of his most enlightening scenes. Death is preferable to being handed over to his master - maybe because he knows nobody will be coming for him this time.

He is desperate for People, but the only metric by which he knows to have a relationship is through that of master and apprentice. Everything else is out of the question because he was repeatedly punished for having friendships. He doesn't know how to be anything else. Not a brother, not a son. Maybe an ally.

I don't actually think power is his biggest motivator. He already is powerful. From the moment he's introduced in TCW, he displays a masterful grasp of the Force. His manipulation and control of physic matter is probably among the most impressive out of all the characters. He builds his body and uses the Force to ambulate, he throws starships around without breaking a sweat, all that preeminent duelling talent comes out in full force even without a lightsaber, and he holds the record for the strongest Force push in the show. He's one of his generations premier duelists (even if his arrogance costs him). And what does he do with all that skill? Fucks off to work from the shadows. Lets Dryden Vos take most of the credit.

He's already learned what being too open about power will cost him, and he already knows that nothing he can throw at Sidious will stop him, but amassing power is literally all he knows. It's what he's been taught since he was a child, despite the fact that that philosophy is actually damaging to his needs and desires. He's just using power as security. He has bodies to throw at his problems. If he needs to make a quick getaway, he can send some goons out to take care of it and leave, biding his time until he gets lucky enough to die.

At his heart, Maul is still the scared boy being handed over to Sidious.

#self rb #how is this my most popular drawing ever lmao

very lazy doodle because my brainrot has become terminal

bro i dont think you need to hold his face that close when you're talking about how you've never stopped thinking about him and now you're going to ruin his life 🤨

there's also this thing which i very lazily rendered for like 20 minutes before deciding to quit lol

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wanted to draw my revan because i think they are a cute patoot

#self rb #hey its mermay!

an obi wan for mermay :3

wanted to draw an obi wan for my health and then had to add cody for his

homecoming

when ur both in your early 20s and in shitty situations so you get hit with the unwilling friendship beam ❗❗

#self rb #my skrunglyungus

DADDY LOVES YOU KITTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

timelapse of the obi portrait i painted for may 4th, the underpainting of which i posted a couple weeks ago. nfrotunately the first half is lost, but you can see the majority of my process.

saw a cool reference and wanted to make it maul