TW : Kitten with lemon

TW : ED, depression. An adult. Please do not follow me if you are a minor. I apologise if I've followed you and you are a minor - I'm still learning this platform. I do not wish my demons on anyone else and I do not want to be an enabler. This is just a space for me to express my struggles and feelings. I always find myself back here. I see Insta and Reddit communities are gone. This seems like the only one left?

[skinnylemonkitten]

Daily Calorie Count

Fail = days I went over 1200

X = days with no exercising

Tracker - MyFitness Pal

12/04 - 736 X

11/04 - 693

10/4 - 1135 X

09/04 - FAIL (Easter)

08/04 - 1176

07/04 - FAIL (Restaurant)

06/04 - 1005

05/04 - 911

04/04 - 1063

[skinnylemonkitten]

What is your thinspo.

Something you watch/do/see/read that keeps you focused on your goal

Mine :

Videos and pictures of celerbrities

Runway shows

Fashion catalogs

Tumblr

Calorie apps

[shrria]

[skinnylemonkitten]

Fell off the wagon.. scared to stand on the scale.

Back to the beginning .. here we go again

Current goals

○ drink black coffee, water and green tea

○ exercise every day

○ skip breakfast

○ stay under 1200 calories

[skinnylemonkitten]

I finally have a phone! Mine broke and I lost all motivation.

I need Tumblr. I need music. I need Pinterest. I need to be able to Google!! No idea how much it all motivated me

All is right in the world again

[skinnylemonkitten]

I hate my arms. My upper arms disgust me. I cannot stand them.

How do I get them lean? Pinterest has all sorts of ideas but what actually works?

[skinnylemonkitten]

Breakfast : 1/2 cup Muesli. 1/2 cup milk. (???)

Lunch : sushi (332)

Dinner : peppered beef slices with gherkins, baby tomatoes and cheese. (218)

Staying under 1200 is getting easier

[skinnylemonkitten]

My boyfriend bought me a food scale today.

Now I feel unstoppable. I've got MyFitness Pal, my food scale, my exercise bike, awesome music and healthy goodies to stay within my goals.

Restricting is going well. And I feel light and great. I think the healthy food choices have played a part in feeling so good.

[skinnylemonkitten]

I've created a Discord. I've heard about severs a couple of times now.

If you have anywhere for me to join please let me know 💜

Im 18+ so anywhere adult appropriate.

[skinnylemonkitten]

Today was a really good day

Today was a good day (calorie wise)

The double cream yoghurt has way too many calories. I'll skip that as a breakfast option in the future. Or make the portion smaller...

[pukingcals]

35 Excuses to Not Eat

you just ate

you ate at school/work/club

you're about to eat/going out to eat

you're stressed and can't stomach food

you just got your braces tightened

you're vegan/vegetarian and can't eat it

your stomach is upset/sick

you just brushed your teeth

you're fasting (religious or health reasons)

you'll be busy during lunch (school)

you'll eat later

(afab) you're on your period and can't stomach food

you're taking a nap (most people won't wake you up to eat)

you're having a big dinner later

ask people if they've eaten first, people normally automatically assume it means you've eaten

you're allergic to the food

you don't like the food

you have a dentist appointment later

you're avoiding (gluten/fat/chocolate, etc.)

you're getting blood drawn later

you're picky with that texture of food

you're bloated

the food "tastes funny/bad" (especially at a restaurant and when trying new food)

you're throat hurts

you'll eat it in your room (if you have a trash can in your room)

you have a toothache

you had a lot of snacks between meals

you're on a new diet

the food makes you sick

you just saw something gross and lost your appetite

you don't like eating around people

you're lactose intolerant

you're in a rush

change the subject, move on from the food quickly

nothing looks good

[skinnylemonkitten]

Breakfast : 343

Lunch : 269

Dinner : 278

My best day so far. Need to work on breakfast.

[skinnylemonkitten]

Wow... The internets really have censored thinspo. I'm managing to come right on :

Twitter

Pinterest

Tumblr (here)

Anywhere else I could go to check out pictures/videos/articles?

Please and thank you

[skinnylemonkitten]

I'm one of those people that do not want to be here but stay because if I were to end it all I'd shatter and forever alter two small lives.

[skinnylemonkitten]

Life busy turning into shit

Optimism : I'm eating less. Score.

[skinnylemonkitten]

Nina Dobrev 💜

[skinnylemonkitten]

Me : I'm going to eat clean and healthy and workout.

Also me : I wonder if I could just get apples and just eat small slices through out the day.

All aboard the Yoyo Rollercoaster Express!