i want to get into the mind of people who genuinely genuinely looove elias. like the people who call him bone daddy. i want to see the world through their eyes. because i googled elias today for reference and got so pissed off i felt almost lightheaded. i want to crush him like a bug. but i like him. yknow? its like im mad in a "get out of my school" way
thats how i know yamazaki is a master of character writing because my feelings about him are so complicated. he makes me so mad. i want to kill him. but god damn it he is so unbelievably compelling. if you dont want to harm him at least a little bit or perhaps put him in a snowglobe and shake the snowglobe really hard. if you dont want to watch him try and solve a saw trap. then whats that like
and i feel 100% vindicated in too because the author has my back on this. if no one else got me i know yamazaki got me
(Very personal post so I'm not gonna tag it AMB, I just wanna answer the question lol)
My attraction comes from his appearance and his aloofness towards humanity. How far from humanity he is really. I'm shallow, if he didn't look like a scary skull beast my lady boner would have never popped.
He's also so wonderfully fucked up as a character. I also had to deal with "learning" emotions and how to react to things after my childhood trauma (CSA) completely screwed me over + autism so when I was reading him I was just thinking "I know exactly how that feels". Feeling detached from humanity and knowing you will never be truly like people but still trying your best. I cherish him because the way he's written feels the closest to what I felt + cool-ass monster. Honestly, one of the biggest reasons I love Robinthorn so much is because I subconsciously see Chise as the fragile girly part of myself that made it out alive and Elias as the confused beast that no one else but the fragile part can understand. Sorry for the word vomit and if it makes no sense in the end, I tried my best to explain lol
