I miss Avid.
Not the person he really is but I miss the version of him I thought we had. I know that it was just a stupid mask to put on in front of us so we didn't know how truly horrible he is. I miss the quirky streamer that would giggle at things chat would say, I miss the whimsical guy who said that they're proud of their community and how much he advocated safety and love towards others.
Learning all of these things that he's said and done have been earth shattering to me.
No I didn't look up to him- hell we are very close in age so it would be kinda weird if I did. But I did consider them a person I could seek comfort from when I was having a bad day.
Similar to creators like Jacksepticeye, Vixella and SolidarityGaming.
I was determined to make every single of their streams and I succeeded. To the point where he recognized my username.
I've sent money their way, I've drawn fanart, I've told this horrible human being of how glad I was not to have another toxic person in the community.
I am disgusted. I am sad. I am extremely angry.
How fucking dare you do this to people, how dare you treat the most kindest people like you did.
I genuinely hope this is an eye opener and you get better. I hope you learn and never do this kind of shit again.
But I hope to never see you try to interact with this community again.
I miss the Avid I thought was real and I will always miss and grieve that person.
But it was never real. And that sucks.
