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Singing the same unsung song... almost a year later.

i’ve never been able to just let go

i hope one day i’ll be able to do it on my own

Ever catch yourself about to sneak a peek in someone’s social media and stopping yourself with a “don’t do that to yourself”.

“Stop. Stop it. Get some help.”

Don’t be looking for her.

Driving at night seems to trigger the memories. Cruising through the same streets we talked, held hands and BE reminds me of your face.

And how I miss those days. Nine months later and such a trigger still exists to remind me of you.

I miss you. I try not to. What can I do?

I came to a realization that I honestly don’t even miss the sex.

It’s just having it available or knowing that someone will be there in the spur of the moment...

#whatamisaying

Still missing you.

Me: sitting in a cafe

Recent heartbreaker: sitting in front of me

Crippling.

I felt upcoming onset as I was driving home from errands today. I am already tired as it is but this episode really set me up for an afternoon nap.

It is now 8:30pm and my thoughts and regrets are charging at me, taking full body tackles with separated intervals.

This sucks.

Swinging chandelier known as longing

When will these feelings fade...?

Coz when it hits you, it hits you.

Been to tired to think about you lately, but tonight everyone just ran through my mind.

I should sleep it off.

For all hells’ sake

Last week I told myself I’m going to move on. No more checking out their pictures, no more dwelling on that person , just move on.

Guess what? Ding ding mother fcker it’s Bullshit, here to mess with your feelings. Girl walks in while you’re drinking your drink. Sits on the table next to me.

Like... wtf you want me to do. This girl, fcking breaking my heart still. Breaking my heart in the past four months. And I finally had the fcking set to try to get over her. Not even a fcking week.

I was hurting. I wanted to say something. “I miss you”, “Are you happy?”, “Do you miss me?”, but I didn’t.

SHE WAS LESS THAN FIVE FEET AWAY.

Fcking hurts. And since I didn’t say anything... and I’m sure she didn’t hear my “bye” when I walked away.... I bet I look like I’m the bitter one. I may be but I harbor no ill feelings against her. Still feel the same. I’m trying and I can only hope the best for that girl. I really do.

Many days later...still not over SL.

#personal

That was then, this is now

For hours, I waited but you didn’t show,

Left me searching for answers that I already know.

Coz you walked away, and left out that door.

You will never come back, an “us” there’s no more.

Four months have passed, still you run through my mind.

Searching for an answer that I know I can’t find.

At one point we were happy, at one point we were fine.

At this point, I still love you, but you’re no longer mine.

Close my eyes, reminisce, rush of memories from then.