don't try to hate me because I am so popular

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James felt his heart jump to his throat. She had been engaged to Sirius? Sirius. His best freind? James brought his hand up to his hair and frantically mangled it up. He walked away from her and tried his best to calm himself down, but didnt seem to manage it. “What do you mean you were engaged to Sirius?” He said, his voice tight. He couldn’t believe that Sirius had never told him. Though, he could almost see the loathing in his eyes whenever Emma was mentioned so maybe that had something to do with it? James made a mental note to find Sirius later. He turned back towards her. “When was this?” James let out a frustrated sigh and rubbed the back of his neck. “There is so much that we still don’t know about each other, Emma. Why is this?” James nearly demanded. “We spend most of our time either arguing or shagging and, not that i mind the latter but we really need to actually get to know each other.” 

James waited and then grabbed her hand and started walking towards the door. “Fine, we don’t go to your dorm then.” He replied, his voice still tight. He opened the door and let her leave first and then he followed suit. He then stopped abruptly and took her hand. “I dont want to fight, okay. I dont want to be annoyed right now. Lets just, try to have a pleasant day out, okay?” He leaned forward and gave her a kiss. He wrapped his arms around her small waist and pull her body towards him. He then let go and then started walking back down the staircase, didnt bother to look at the bystanders in the common room and left with Emma through the fat lady’s portrait. 

[slytherin-vanity]

Fuck. How could she possibly have forgotten to tell James about Sirius? She swore she had mentioned it at least once before, if only briefly, but if she really hadn't, then it was only her fault. Everything was her fault, and she could only go so many feet with her thoughts churning like this. Grabbing James' hand, she pulled him to a halt in the middle of a hallway. 

"You want to know about me? Fine." Her voice was a bit louder than she intended for it to be, but she continued. "I was born on April 13th, my family all loathes me and most of it is my sister's fault, when I was growing up my best friend is now your best friend. The only reason that he even tolerated me was because his little brother made him, and I hated you for all these years because I blamed you for taking him away from me. I have a Siamese cat, my favorite food is Pumpkin Pasties because I have a terrible sweet tooth, and my favorite color is green even though it's terribly cliché. When I grow up, I want four children because I'm hoping my attitude towards babies and small children will change when I become a mother, and I'd really like them to have blue eyes because -- "

She stopped, suddenly unsure of whatever nonsense she had been blabbering on about as other students stared. "Because you have blue eyes and I think they're really nice and you're the first person besides Sirius that makes me want to do things for someone other than myself." Emma chuckled bitterly and ran her hand through her hair. "And I have absolutely no idea why I just said that, but there it is, okay? I don't want to fight either. I hate fighting with you, James, and I especially hate when it's my fault. So just..." she paused, shifting her weight, scared to approach him, "Say you forgive me please? It wasn't even like he proposed or anything -- he's never been able to stand me. I didn't even know until this summer, and by then it was already off." Thousands of different ways to tell James that she loved him spun through her mind, but she doubted he wanted to hear any of them, and questioned if she herself even meant a single one.

[animaguspotter]

James felt his face falter at her response to Sirius, though it was expected. “I know you don’t like him, but he’s honestly not that bad.” As she kissed him, he felt a bit betrayed. It as almost like she was trying to distract him from the subject. James didn’t mention that though, he waited and hen resisted the urge to roll his eyes. “Whatever, fine. Wear my shirt.” James replied, ” We could look through Remus’ pants or we can just make a detour to your room. Its honestly not a bother.” He said earnestly.

James waited and then pulled her into a tight hug. He buried his face into her hair and kissed her. “I’m sorry. I think im trying to force them on you and thats not fair.” James admitted. He pulled away and leaned down to look her in the eyes, “Remus is skinny. Well find his pants and then while we’re in Hogsmead i’ll buy you a new dress. You’re going to need it if we’re going to dinner afterwards.” He winks and grinned at her. He had planned on surprising her while they were out but seeing as how thy had just woken up and was starting to get on the rocky side of there relationship, he figured it wouldn’t hurt to tell her now. He smile didn’t falter but he did walk away and thew open Remus’s trunk. After a  few moments of searching he brought out the pants that looked the smallest. It was a pale beige color, with holes in the knees. James made a mental note to get Remus some clothes for Christmas. “Here” He tossed them at her. “You can just tuck in that shirt so its not down to your knees and wear a jacket over it and i think you’ll be almost decent.” James joked.

[slytherin-vanity]

Emma sighed deeply and abandoned buttoning up his too-big shirt for a moment to look at him. "James, it's not that I don't like him, because that's not true. We used to be best friends, we-we used to be engaged!" She searched for the right words for a moment, then realized it might be a bit easier if she hadn't just told her boyfriend that she used to be engaged to his best friend. "Whatever, just forget it," she mumbled, aggravated with the whole situation, and turned back to buttoning up the shirt.

"I don't want to go to my room, James, I already said so," she snapped, grabbing the trousers from him and yanking them on over his shirt, holding them up at the waist while she rummaged around in James' trunk for a belt. "Merlin's saggy left -- why the fuck is everyone taller than me?" Once a belt was secured and everything was held in place, Emma made her way back over to the bed and sunk onto it, burying her face in her hands for a moment. 

She looked up at him from between her fingers and smiled half-heartedly, reaching out for him. "I -- " she had been about to tell him she loved him, growing so accustomed to how it sounded the last few weeks, but stopped herself and changed her words before it was too late, "I'm sorry. Dinner sounds great, but you really don't have to buy me a dress. Getting to be with you is enough, Jamie, as pathetic as that sounds."

[adreamthatshalfawake]

[animaguspotter]

James grinned shamelessly down at her. He brought his hand up and stroked a few strands of her hair, “Yes, one of us. Its too early in this relationship to tell you my dark secret but just know, i will not look cute with a huge belly.” James winked and kissed her back. After a moment James sighed and looked down at his appearance. “I feel like you could have mentioned that before i got dressed.” James mocked pouted and he crossed his arms dramatically. James shook his head and glanced down at what she was wearing and he frowned.

"I’m not letting you go out in public like that. I’d have to hex any guy that even glanced at you.” He watched as she surveyed his room and James decided to follow her lead. “You know,” He said casually, “Sirius has some small shirts, and in my opinion they are fairly girly.” James paused and waited for her reaction. He knew she hated Sirius, but its better then going on his his huge clothes and way better then going out in what she was wearing.”Or” He started to add on, “I’ll walk you to your dorms, i’ll come back here and take a shower and meet you at the great hall?”

[slytherin-vanity]

Emma laughed again and caught his hand, pressing it to her cheek and nuzzling into his palm for a moment. "You would look cute no matter what," she crooned playfully, her other hand going to pat his stomach, which certainly wasn't huge -- rather quite nicely toned from Quidditch and one reason that Emma could see him walk around shirtless all the time if it were up to her.

At the mention of Sirius, Emma's face fell. "No, no it's fine. I'd rather wear something of yours, Jamie." She grimaced and looked away, tucking a stray lock of hair behind her ear. "He would probably burn the shirt after I was done wearing it. Does, uhm, does anyone have some tights or jeans I could borrow? Really, I'll just wear one of your shirts."

She stretched up and gave James a quick peck on the lips, then took off last night's crumpled mini dress, throwing over the bed and leaving her in just a bra and panties. "Or," she suggested, starting towards his trunk, "I could go like this and we could really see how many guys you'd have to hex." Glancing over her shoulder, Emma winked and pulled out one of James' button down shirts, slipping it on and watching it fall to her knees. "Merlin, you are tall," she mumbled, smoothing it out and fixing the sleeves.

[animaguspotter]

"They were sticky? Why didn’t you come to me, i would’ve helped you out." James gave her a sly smile and winked at her. He waited and watched her do up his tie. As she continued talking his smile grew and he shook his head in amusement. "Hmm, well that does sound lovely." He leaned his head down and started leaving a trail of kisses staring with her cheek and moving down to her neck. "Positively. lovely." He said slowly. "I’ve got brand new clean sheets that need to smell like your perfume anyways."

He pulled away from her neck but stayed just above eye level. “You know if we start, i’m not going to want to stop. Which means you’re going to be trapped in my bed, all day and night. As good as that sounds, we both will starve or one of us could get pregnant.” He kissed her cheek and moves his hands to her waist and started tugged on the hem. “Is that a risk you’re willing to take?”

[slytherin-vanity]

"Well, you know, treacle tart tastes absolutely revolting and I... I didn't want to make you suffer such torture." As James began kissing her neck, Emma closed her eyes and let her head fall back, throwing her arms around his neck and stretching up on her tip toes, pushing herself as close to him as she could get. He began talking again and Emma opened her eyes. "One of us could get pregnant? James, is there something I should know about you?"

She giggled and turned her head, stealing a kiss on his lips. Still smiling at him, she continued, "No, we really should go out. You've already dressed and I've already gone through the trouble of doing your tie for you." Emma giggled again and gently removed his hands from her waist before searching for any article of clothing she had hopefully left behind in James' room in the past -- what she was currently wearing had been slept in and smelled of alcohol, and that absolutely wouldn't do, but she didn't want to have to drag James down to the dungeons either.

[animaguspotter]

James watched her with clear amusement on his face. In all honesty, he did feel bad that his two best friends were so harsh to her but the child in him adored a good prank on someone. He cleared his throat and tried to hide his smile before she noticed. “I’m sorry they did that to you, love.” He said carefully. “In all honesty, that’s not nearly as bad as getting hexed nearly in half by your friends though.” James immediately shook his head and when she put her head on his chest he began to absentmindedly play with her long dark hair. “Never mind. That might be a dangerous subject.” James muttered quickly. James mentally cursed himself, he was supposed to be trying to patch things up, not ridicule her friends.

"Getting away from everyone and some fresh air will do us good, you’ll see." James stood up and let his hand out so she could grab it. When she did, he pulled her up to her feet and then let go. He walked over to his trunk and started pulling out clothes. "Today will be a fresh start." He stated firmly. James pulled a nice button up shirt over his arms and began buttoning them. "Here" He said quickly as he threw a black tie at her. "Help a poor bloke out." He said with a warm smile on his face.

[slytherin-vanity]

"My tits were sticky for a week. It was hell." Emma propped herself up and grumbled to herself, her eyes securely focused on James' lips. When he mentioned being hexed, though, she made a face, narrowed her eyes, and stuck her tongue out. "Not all my friends would hex someone in half, you know. Only a few, or if you caught Andy on a bad day." It was a little irritating hearing him constantly bring up how horrible he thought her friends were when she thought exactly the same of his. 

Emma watched as he got dressed, a half smile playing at her lips, the tip of her thumb between her teeth. "Are you sure we can't just stay in bed all day? Because I'm pretty sure I would prefer that," she said, a seductive tone creeping into her voice, as she walked over to him and took the tie from him, "Nice and private. Lots of things we could do..." she suggested, her smile growing wider as she slid the tie into the collar of his shirt and began tying it for him.

[animaguspotter]

James kissed her again but didn’t comment on her tears. He knew he should comfort her, its not like he enjoyed seeing her cry but no words could really make his previous statement better. He listened to her and nodded idly to her words. James thought he knew what love felt like but given his past history of hurting people he rather doubted that he actually did. As he listened his mouth began to frown. “I might be able to buy us some alone time.” He started cautiously. “Eventually, you know, that we will have to get used to hanging out with people we dislike.” James mind automatically drifted towards the company she keeps and decided it might be best if he didn’t say anything. After all he really needed to work on being such a hypocrite. Emma hanging out with Marlene was probably the equivalent of James hanging out with Sniv. He shook his head quickly and forced a smile on his face. “We have time right now.” He pointed out quickly. “Why not go into Hogsmead. Would you like to go shopping and have lunch, love?”

[slytherin-vanity]

At the suggestion of going into Hogsmeade, Emma nodded silently and sat up, tugging herself out of James' embrace. "It's not that I don't like them, you know," she said finally, a noticeable edge to her tone, "I'm perfectly fine with both of them, they just hate me -- I mean, who puts treacle tart in someone's bra? That's just inhumane!"

As she spoke, Emma got increasingly louder and faster until she finally finished her thought and whipped her head around to look at James, a decidedly indignant look gracing her features. She sniffled and sunk back into the bed, burying her face in James' chest. "Shopping and lunch sounds brilliant," she said after a moment, her voice muffled.

[mondler-lovers]

82/100 photos of Lea Michele

[slytherin-vanity]

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James smiled as she lightly kissed his knuckles and nodded slightly. “I don’t want to lie to you. I don’t love you, at least not yet. I care for you, so much and that i can say with full honesty.” James pushed his body towards her and pressed his chest against hers. He lazily draped his arm over her side and ran little circles on her back. “Of course we can, i could never say no to you. We will work, we just both need to try hard to not be our usual fuck-ups.” James chuckled slightly at his own joke and then leaned forward and kissed her forehead. His lips lingered and he pulled away slightly, only to leave his cheek resting on the top of her head. “We can make this work.” He said softly. “Perhaps maybe having more alone time to get to know each other?”

Even though she was expecting it and she had brought up the subject in the first place, hearing James tell her that he didn’t love her stung and the tears started flowing once more. “No, I-I get that,” she said, nodding enthusiastically, voice cracking and brow furrowed as she tried to stop herself from crying, “I don’t even know for sure what love feels like, so I guess we’ll figure this out together.” She slid her arm around him, her fingers playing idly under the hem of his shirt as she listened to him speak. With a bitter chuckle, Emma sniffled and shook her head. “Jamie, if you can get Sirius and Marlene to leave us alone long enough to actually give us alone time in the first place, that would be a miracle.”

[animaguspotter]

James shifted and slowly lowered both of their bodies onto his bed. Turning towards her, he wiped away some of the tears that were still wet on her cheeks. “I want this- us to work out so bad.” James leaned forward and kissed her lips softly. “I do care about you. I know it doesn’t seem like it, because i’m an idiot sometimes, but i honestly do, Emma.” 

[slytherin-vanity]

Emma grabbed a handful of James' shirt and held on tightly, pulling herself to him, just happy to be this close to him again. She could barely look him in the eyes, though, and her eyes stayed closed even after he pulled away from the kiss. "So no more fake 'I love you's, then?" she said quietly, only half joking, "Now it's just caring?" She chuckled and shook her head, opening her eyes finally and tilting her head back to look at him. "I want to be with you, James. More than anything. I-I want to prove to everyone that this is gonna last, and I know I didn't do a very good job of it at the party, but... I get scared sometimes." Emma smiled weakly and took James' hand, brushing his knuckles across her lips. "Can we try again, please?"