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22 | Bisexual | Taken | also known as ferbie { Links: ask | submit | selfies }

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[small-behr]

Lmao I love my coworker more than my boyfriend, someone just hit me with a semi truck pls

[small-behr]

I just really need a friend but I drove all of mine away due to at the time undiagnosed bipolar disorder ahahaha fuxk

[small-behr]

Damn got some pretty good news today from my boss but I don’t know if I have it in me to meet her expectations of me in less that a week and a half.

Rescued a new pibble and at no fault of his own, wakes me up daily between 3 and 4 am so i literally don’t have it in me to work harder than I already am at work.

But I need this promotion.

Can I just crawl under a bridge and die 🥲

[small-behr]

Fuck you for leaving me.

Fuck you for making me feel like the bad guy.

Fuck you. Lol.

[small-behr]

I just don’t care anymore honestly. I just have to find someone to take Charlie and I’m set to leave this world.

[small-behr]

I want to understand more than anything in the WORLD why the fuck a woman can have a child and look at her and think “I want you to have a worse life than I had, you don’t deserve to have a better life than me”. Even my coworkers are at their wits ends trying to figure it out and give me advice. My store manager cried today because she’s scared I’m going to end up killing myself like her son that I never knew existed because she lost him to a custody battle and she feels like I lost the custody battle of life. She can’t keep making excuses for me she said. I don’t know why the fuck to do. I don’t have anyone. I have no family. No friends. I have my dog and my boyfriend. That’s literally it and I’m freaking out.

[small-behr]

My mom physically abused me today.

She hasn’t done that in 5 years.

I.. I have no one to talk to about it and I don’t want to be here anymore.

Just gonna drink this bottle and knock myself out when it’s empty I guess.

[small-behr]

People who act JUST like the people they dislike crack me up. I literally cannot stand it. I’m surrounded by it online and in real life. But yanno. Whatever :)

[small-behr]

Just gonna keep swimming and hope everything sorts itself out.

[small-behr]

God I fucking hate my brain, why can’t I just be normal?

[small-behr]

I have no one to talk to and I’m stuck in this what feels like a drowning situation. I don’t want to be in a relationship anymore in general, but I love the guy I’m with now. That literally makes no sense typed out and idk what the fuck to do.

[small-behr]

God this fucking year is hitting so hard with missing my dad. 10 fucking years. Today I’m pretty sure august and I were denied for the house we applied for and overall just HASNT been my fucking day and I’m just so exhausted and I just don’t have words for how I feel anymore because they’re all blurring together

[small-behr]

I’m ready to die.

[small-behr]

Wow just wow

I don’t even have the energy to type out this shitty fucking situation.

I want to stab myself in the wrist for the first time in literal years. Great.

[small-behr]

He really went home after work cuz I didn’t like what his mom said to me. Okay. You know what, maybe I should just fucking hoe out. I’m fucking done.

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LMAOOOO SO YALL MY BOYFRIEND JUST CHOSE HIS KOMS SIDE OVER MINE. IIGHT LMAOOOOO OKAY IM DONE. I’ll work myself to literal death if that’s what it takes to move the fuck out of my abusive incubators house. Fuck my life. I literally wish I was a dead. Fuck everyone in my life LOLOLOLOL