I keep falling over

♱ Black ༺♰༻ 24 ♱ A very tragic retelling of my life

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I'm glad too🌹

How are you doing?

I’m doing okay! Just looking forward to winter break :)

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Congratulations on your work and your growth 🌹

tyyy <333 glad I logged back in to see this!

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I will probably never post here again bcs I no longer have the desire to kill myself with drugs i guess therapy works!! :3

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It’s def a weird feeling, I tried just doing it casually like a few weeks ago when I last posted but it’s not rly fun anymore just kinda bland. At least my septum survived!

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I will probably never post here again bcs I no longer have the desire to kill myself with drugs i guess therapy works!! :3

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Celebrating 1 year clean!!

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actually I might retire this account I want a new vibe… hm…

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it’s been a year since I last got high, but I’m thinking I might pick up in like two weeks… should I do something special if I do pick up or???

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You fuck on the first date

I did one time, but I wasn’t conscious lmfao

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Boobah you’re too young and too beautiful to destroy your life with blow. Believe me. I been doing it for over 30 years. It ruins everything. Please don’t do that to yourself. You can do a lot better! Trust me. If you want an advice or have any questions or just want to have a honest respectful chat I can dm you

awww ty! I haven’t gotten high in a little over a year now, I just queued a bunch of posts to keep the blog alive. I had some stuff to work through, but I’m in a better place now. I even managed to get prescribed stims again for my adhd LMFAO so I guess things are better! I’m going to grad school soon so if I do decide to partake, I can’t do as much as I used to anymore :) but feel free to dm whether it’s just to chat casually or talk abt your experiences!

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can i dm?

ya

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someone texted me out of the blue from an unsaved number saying they missed me and all this emotional shit but wouldn’t tell me who they were because they didn’t want to mess things up I don’t understand what is happening LMFAO this is so dramatic and for what

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I guess it’s just hard to understand someone being that invested in me that they’re scared of losing me

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someone texted me out of the blue from an unsaved number saying they missed me and all this emotional shit but wouldn’t tell me who they were because they didn’t want to mess things up I don’t understand what is happening LMFAO this is so dramatic and for what

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I was cutting myself and my mom left me my favorite chocolate at my bedroom door thank you black Jesus amen

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My dad told me I have to have more self control but I exercise self control every day by not killing myself. When I wake up in the morning I think about falling out the window. When I drive to work I think about driving on the wrong side of the road. When I’m hiding in the bathroom at work trying to vape without mixing the smell of someone’s shit and mango strawberry I think about hanging myself on the stall door. I think about shooting myself in front of customers when they make me mad. I think about swallowing all the pills I have before I go to sleep every night. I’m not even sad I’m just angry. I’m angry I can’t hurt people so instead I just want to hurt myself. It’s more righteous to kill yourself instead of another person.

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just got my nipples pierced :3