nearly found

chapter 29

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Love you boo

I love you too

[becherdireinen]

trust that everything will fall into place without you forcing it there.

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Mulligan <3

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[zippyzstuff]

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Do I quit my job and go back to school for 9 months, which would mean delaying moving out this year? Do I just find a new job so I can move out and save cost of school? Do I stay where I’m at even though I want to slam my face through a wall most times bc its the easiest?

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This being mindful non reactive shit is hard. I sat for a few with myself thinking about do I get more reactive when something specific is happening?

Things I KNOW that trigger my rage to the moon

Asking someone to do some thing and then they don’t do it/blatantly disregard

Unsafe/unaware drivers** /people in general

Someone talking to me like I’m an idiot/ an object

Being told to do something/about something I already know

Patterns: loss of control, personal morality

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Hi it’s me; I will be personal journaling here again

*as always content warning for trauma/mental illness*

NSFW/18+ ACCOUNTS DO NOT INTERACT, REBLOG, COMMENT, FOLLOW ETC

[medium-sudoku]

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if you were ever kind to me, thank you

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yearly update

I have lost myself. I am undiagnosed. I am living with chronic illness. I never knew who I was.

[naturaekos]

“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.”

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This post is from 2005. Normalize crying. Cry if you need to. Cry all you want. Cry all the time. Cry if it helps.

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I was reminiscing a lot today snd really hurt my own damn feelings but I do have a date next Saturday

[recoverystuff-deactivated202108]

6 ways to handle negative thoughts

1. Be concious of your thoughts. When you realise you are thinking about something negative, distract yourself.

2. Keep busy. Keeping your hands and mind occupied helps keep your mind off negative thoughts.

3. Avoid triggers. Avoiding negative things can help to keep you sane and positive.

4. Get rest. Lack of sleep really affects your mood and can cause your mind to wander back to those negative thoughts.

5. Listen to music. Listening to your favourite music for 30 minutes a day can have a positive effect on your health and day.

6. Talk about it. Sharing these thoughts with someone you trust can help prevent your mind from thinking about them.

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I just did this thing after I showered I had my hair up in a towel wearing a sweatshirt and I lifted it up to show my stomach yknow? And when my boob poked out I was genuinely confused like wtf I was expecting a peck? Idk

[sunlitnotes]

i tried today and i will try again tomorrow

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My question is are you a beach?

Yeah