May 2024 Messing Challenge Update
I went out of town last week because I needed some time away from home to force a reset. Things havenāt been the best overall lately and I needed a fresh perspective; a change out of the ordinary. I found a decent hotel in the place I wanted to go to, and left the very next day.
Staying on top of the messy challenge while traveling was pretty hard. There were many factors I had to take into consideration but I think I handled it pretty well!
For starters, I wore white Trests the entire time. Since I didn't know where it would be safe to change my diapers, I erred on the side of caution and wore thicker diapers than I normally would wear in public.
Could I have worn a more discreet diaper? Of course, but then I would have had to change more often. That meant I would have to look for a safe space to change in public in a totally unfamiliar area. I figured it would be easier to just wear thicker diapers and risk someone noticing I was in a diaper, but you know what? I found some good clothes that almost completely conceals a diapered butt. Wearing those clothes gave me the confidence boost I needed to be myself in a new, fun place.
Naturally, everyone I met in the city I went to did not know me. If their first impression of me is that I was wearing a diaper, they would simply assume I need them for medical reasons (which I probably do at this point lol). Nobody made any sort of comment about my diapers. Not that anybody would, of course; I didnāt make it obvious.
I made a beeline for the hotel. I had stopped at chickfila for lunch, but for some reason, my tummy started feeling all gurgly. I think it was from all the salt from the food and caffeine from the soda. I had like, an hour or so left before I reached my hotel and I knew I wouldnāt make it. I knew my diaper was going to end up messy one way or another and figured that there was no point in trying to hold it to make it to a safer place to mess. I decreased my speed, lifted my butt off the seat, and pushed. I had to crack the windows a little bit, but I managed to navigate my way to a public rest stop. It was pretty funny to think that I was the only one on the road with such a dirty diaper. I remembered how stressful and painful it was to hold everything in as I struggled to find a bathroom in the past; now I just use my diaper and change when I need to.
I had prayed that it would be empty, but there were a couple people in there. I did my best to ignore them. I changed, wiped myself until I was clean, then threw everything in a plastic bag to throw away. Nobody asked about it. Nobody cared about what I was doing. Itās still a bit scary changing my diaper in public, especially messy ones, because Iām handling such an intimate and vulnerable part of myself, but itās something that has to be done. Did I want to sit in a messy diaper for another hour or so in the car and hope there would be nobody in the hotel? Lol no, of course not, so that meant I had to change before I got there. I had no choice in the matter.Ā
With my tummy feeling loads better, I hopped back in my car with a giddy excitement and got back to driving. Luckily for me, the hotel I was going to stay at had contactless check in. Since I had their app on my phone, I was able to check in through the app and not have to deal with the front desk. My phone was the key to my room. Loved that.
I had to find a way to dispose of my messy diapers before I had another one. I talked to the hotel's front desk and asked if I could throw away my trash in their dumpster. They didnāt care and said it was okay so long as I was a guest of the hotel.Ā
I stayed there for a couple of nights. The first night that I was there, I put on my headphones and listened to my favorite ABDL hypnosis file. I know youāre not supposed to fall asleep listening to them (because this lessens the impact), but I was exhausted from my night out on the town.
What surprised me was how the hypnosis influenced my dreams. I remember struggling to find a place to go #2 in my dreams; I was wearing a diaper (thankfully), but there were so many people around. I think it was some kind of fancy event because I was in a beautiful black dress. I kept hearing someone say in a very comforting voice to just relax and let go and that it was expected of me to use my diaper for everything.Ā
Surrounded by people, I stopped trying to find the probably non-existent bathroom and calmed myself as I just let it happen. I had this overwhelming urge to hold onto someone or at least hold onto someoneās hand as I messed my diaper, but there was nobody there for me. At least nobody looked my way or paid me any attention as I finished filling my diaper. Had a lot of conflicting emotions running through me.
I heard something pop or snap, startling me enough to wake me up. I woke up with the morningās sunlight streaming in through the windows. My ears felt sore from wearing my headphones all night, but I felt a familiar gurgle in my tummy that said I was about to go #2. Thinking back to my dream, I imagined myself back in that stunning dress surrounded by people, pushed, then went back to sleep for a little bit.
I kinda wish that I had been able to go in my sleep, but hey, I guess we'll get there one of these days, right?
Hope you enjoyed this update! I know it's been a little while since my last update so I put a little more effort into this one.
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