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“God, this is unbelievable, this shit only happens in movies!” And to think only ten minutes before she’d insisted to Bryan that there was no way this would happen. “So much for credibility.” Lily rubbed at her face with both hands and pressed herself back against the wall, if Lucien or his boys came around the side of the house they would see her but from where they were right now there was no way they could see down the hallway. She had a few moments of respite to think, to plan, staying where she was not an option. “Think Lily, think,” she said making a fist and pounding it against her forehead. It didn’t help. “Damn, damn, damn,” she whispered to herself. In her gut she could feel her time running out and nothing, no plans formed in her head. Talking to Lucien wasn’t an option, Lucien didn’t talk. He did his job and that was that, and the jobs her father assigned to Lucien weren’t negotiations. Lucien kidnapped, broke legs and killed, that was it. Nausea roiled in Lily’s gut at the thought and any chance of putting together a coherent plan fled. At this point, she thought, her best option was just to run though where and how far she had no idea. There was no way of knowing exactly how many men Lucien had brought with him, she’d seen three but there could be dozens more depending on how angry Emmett was and Lily guessed that her father had to be very angry. He didn’t use Lucien unless he had to, and, as if to emphasize the point, all of Lucien’s minions looked like they might actually wrestle with the World Wrestling Federation. “Awesome.” She’d never seen these goons so before, though, so they to be German; tall, blonde, pale-skinned and built like fireplugs they looked the model of Nazi thugs. “Bet they have blue eyes too,” she muttered, “but please God never let me get close enough to find out!” Leaning forward again, hands on the cold tile floor, Lily chanced another peek around the corner. Relief made her limbs shake when she saw that they were still clustered on the deck talking. Lucien as pale as his minions but standing a full head shorter than any of them and with neatly coiffed brown hair instead of blonde. Lily shuddered, “Ugh, he’s creepy.” Classically handsome, Lily had always found Lucien to be smarmy, oily, fully aware of his power and too highly convinced of his charm. “Well, thank god it looks like that hasn’t changed,” she muttered dryly as she watched him throw a hand up, and point it down the street, towards the corner. One of the thugs, a brunette like Lucien, whose broad build towered over his boss’s and who appeared to think that tattoos were acceptable replacements for clothing, nodded and trotted off in the specified direction. Lily’s eyebrows rose in question. If Lucien was directing his men to the corners of the street maybe he wasn’t sure she was home. They hadn’t seen her and with her car in the garage, all he could do was post lookouts and loiter around waiting for her to show up. “Well that’s a win for garages with no windows!” she whispered to the hallway and watching as another of the thugs, this time one of the blondes, moved off in the opposite direction from his buddy, towards the other end of her street. Lucien was covering all of his bases. “Of course, that’s what I’d do too I suppose but one more gone means one less here and that’s good for me.” And I’m talking to myself, lovely. But her nerves felt torn, jagged and talking out loud made her feel less vulnerable and afraid. She watched a moment more as Lucien continued to speak intently to his remaining man. He had a plan, and Lily knew her time had run out. Turning, ideas finally forming in her head, she scurried back, still on hands and knees, to her bedroom. As plans went it wasn’t a very good one and Bryan certainly wouldn’t approve but it was all she had at the moment. Moving as fast as she could, like a crab scuttling for the safety of the water, Lily raced to gain the cover of the far corner of her room. She grabbed at the receiver, and tucked herself back into the tiny space, her belly raw with urgency. “Bryan, I have a plan,” she hissed, keeping her voice low. As predicted Bryan was not pleased. “No, no, no and again no,” he said, his voice rife with frustration, “You stay put, you hear me? We’re almost there. Just stay down and out of sight…” “I can’t Bryan. I can’t JUST stay here. He sent Lucien, you know what that means. He’s not fucking around. You were right, ok, you were right and I’m sorry, but I have to get outta here.” Outside heavy boots could be heard stomping past her window, a shadow darkened the light and the glass rattled as someone tried to open it. Lily pushed herself deeper into the corner, holding her breath, her heart pounding fast and hard enough for her to hear it in her ears. The glass rattled again with more force this time and Lily squeezed her eyes shut tight biting down on her lower lip so hard she tasted blood. But the window held, the lock staying fast and the shadow vanished. Lily let the air out of her lungs in a whoosh. “There’s only two of them here at the house right now,” she told Bryan not bothering to elaborate further, she had no time and now, faintly she could hear someone rattling at the outer door, the one that led into the shared foyer of the house. “They’re trying to get in. I am gonna make a run for the forest. I’ll hide there and wait for your guy or gal or whatever…” The outside door gave way and thudded against the inside wall of the foyer. There was a pause, and a moment later a voice sounded, loud, outside in the garden again. Lucien. Calling for his backup. Footsteps pounded on the cement walkway and someone shouted again, in fast, unintelligible German. Lily spoke some German but not enough to understand what was being said, not when it was muffled and heard through a wall. “Time’s up,” she said, whispering into the phone, “I gotta go.” “God dammit…,” Bryan started to say but Lily hung up, cutting him off. She crawled over to the window so that she was directly under it and, taking a risk, popped her head up under the curtains, to get a quick scan of the back garden. It was empty and she could only guess that Lucien and his remaining thug were now at the inner door of the house, the one that led directly into her flat. Sweet mother of God, she prayed, please let me have locked it. Please, please, please. She heard the voices of Lucien and his remaining goon in the foyer, arguing from the sounds of it but in German so she had no idea what they were saying. Clearly, they were convinced they were alone in the three apartment flat because they made no effort to keep their voices down. Her inner door, made of thick glass and hardwood, rattled, just as her window had, and Lily winced slightly expecting to hear the sound of glass shattering. But the glass and the door held. The feeling of desperate urgency in her gut grew and keeping her eyes locked on her right, in the direction of her flat entry, Lily reached up and with shaking hands unlatched her window, pushing it open wide, careful that it didn’t bang against the outer wallTaking one more second to listen, making sure the two men were still occupied with her locked front door, Lily stood and risked a full look out of the window. Empty walkway greeted her and without further thought she scrambled and crawled out the window, her tennis shoes landing softly and silently in the snow beneath it. Once through the window, she ran, springing away from the house, and sprinting through the snow and tarp-covered space of her landlord’s garden. Her only thought at this point to reach the protection of the forest. The garden fence made of wood and barbed wire, a wire that sent cruel-looking barbs of metal up towards the sky, lay between her and her goal but Lily wouldn’t let herself consider it, she didn’t let herself stop. She raced towards it with no hesitation, grabbed the top of a post and pushed at it with all of her might, gaining height and using one foot on a taut strip of wire to aid her. The wire sagged but held and she let her momentum and the post push her up and forward. At the top, one of the spikes caught the material of her jeans in one knee and she almost tumbled back into the garden, on the wrong side of the fence. Panic gripped at her and she brought her other hand down on the top wire of the fence to push at it, to get her body over the top, to help her to the other side. It worked but her hand caught a barb, the same hand already injured by hot water. It came down hard on a spike, penetrating deep into her skin. The sudden pain produced an explosion of color that danced around her head, momentarily blinding her. She bit down hard on her lip hard to keep from crying out as she tumbled off the fence onto the meadow side blood flowing freely into the snow. Tears of pain welled and threatened to spill as she rolled to her feet clutching her wounded hand to her chest. The pain tore through her fear and she allowed herself one glance at the puncture to reassure herself that the barb from the fence wasn’t still lodged in her hand. It wasn’t and relief so strong it made her dizzy flooded through her. She pressed her hand against the soft material of her sweatshirt, to slow the flow of blood, and then turned to move as fast as she could towards the forest. A straight-out sprint was out of the question, her feet sank ankle-deep in the undisturbed snow hindering her progress pulling her back even as she tried to move forward and panic rose again making her heart thunder so hard she could barely breathe. She cursed the snow and her slow pace as she fumbled and stumbled across the field praying there were no deep ruts or holes hidden in her path. The last thing she needed right now was a twisted or broken ankle. Blood trickled down her palm, tickling her wrist and staining her shirt and she tried not to think about the lost blood or the fact that the wound needed to be bound. Passing out would be much worse than a broken ankle. A broken ankle she might be able to work with but if she passed out she was lost… she shuddered at the thought and pushed it away. “Come on Lily come on,” she gritted her teeth together and plowed on, tamping down the urge to look back over her shoulder, to check and see what exactly what was happening back at her flat. Shouts and curses rose on the air letting her know they’d discovered her escape, maybe even spotted her and she risked a glance over her shoulder. Two men struggled together at her open window, each one pointing at her, shouting and trying to climb through the window at the same time. Behind them, Lucien’s head popped into view every few seconds as if he had to jump up and down to see past his two companions. Lily choked on fear and something that might have been laughter. If the situation weren’t so scary it would be funny. She didn’t wait to see what happened next, didn’t wait to see if the men or Lucien would make it through her window. She knew they would it was only a matter of time. Frantic now with fear, Lily turned back towards the trees, working hard to move faster through the snow, legs burning with the effort. The raised shouts and yells of Lucien’s thugs reaching her across the meadow. She gained the trees and did not stop, plunging in amongst the birch and pine, not slowing but running blindly dodging and weaving through the trunks. She had to put as much distance between herself and Lucien as she could, it would not take long for Lucien and his minions to get out her window and follow her, to find her tracks, and the blood in the snow. The only thing she could hope to do was run until she lost them in the trees or until she found a good place to hide and wait them out, wait for help. She hoped Bryan was right and his people were on their way. Lucien, she knew, would never give up hunting her, he would never stop looking for her, returning to her father without the ordered prize in tow was tantamount to a death sentence. “Ok so I’m just gonna hide, I can do this, I can do this,” she told giving herself a little pep talk and bounding up a rise in the forest floor, still holding her injured hand up to her chest. She paused briefly at the top to get her bearings, panting hard, her breath coming in great puffs of white in the cold air. Though her body barely registered the frigid temperature, the injury in her hand was a different story and as she plunged down the other side of the rise, another wave of dizziness assailed her. The forest spun around her in a blur nearly bringing her to her knees, and she bit back nausea. She had to bind her hand now rather than later if she didn’t slow the bleeding she might as well just hand herself over to Lucien without a fight. Ducking behind the trunk of a large ash tree and ignoring the throbbing pain in her hand, Lily stripped her sweatshirt off over her head. Then tucking it between her knees, her teeth chattering loudly as the cold air bathed her suddenly bare skin, she pulled her arms through the sleeves of her red tee, her core warming her chilled arms enough so that they could slip off the black tank she wore underneath the t-shirt. The blood from her wrist trickled in a steady flow down her belly and she had to push back panic. She’d never been injured like this before, not when alone anyway – alone with no help. – and she had to work hard to push away An image of her unconscious body bleeding out in the snow rose unbidden and unwelcome – That helps nothing, Lily she told herself and shoved the image away focusing instead on quickly wrapping the thin material of her tank around her bloody hand and wrist, wincing at the sight of the jagged wound. It definitely looked like it was going to need stitches and possibly a tetanus booster. “If I get out of this alive and free,” She said to herself, the pressure of the makeshift bandage easing some of the pain and she drew in a deep breath, the oxygen clearing her head. Tucking the end of the wrap in on itself so it would not slip off her hand Lily clumsily pulled her sweatshirt out from between her knees and dragged the garment back over her head, not caring that it was now inside out, with the logo facing her chest. Leaning back against the rough bark of the tree Lily rested for a brief moment, she didn’t have much time she knew but the muscles in her legs appreciated the break. Suddenly the sound of a shout way too close to her for comfort brought her springing off her tree, head weaving back and forth as her eyes scanned the forest ahead of her, seeking a new path, another avenue of escape. Another shout sounded this time accompanied by the rush of running feet and Lily pushed away at the despair that threatened to overwhelm her, forcing herself to spend an extra moment or two focusing on finding a way of escape instead of just rushing blindly through the forest again. After a few seconds of searching a path, slowly revealed itself as she studied her surroundings. Her eyes widening not only at its existence but at the sight of the footprints on it, the footprints and the packed snow. Snow that up to this point had been undisturbed and deep enough to make the going tough and exhausting. The path and the footprints disappeared deeper into the forest. At first, as she studied them Lily briefly thought that the footprints were her own, but then she realized that of course, those weren’t hers. They moved on away from her and she was still here at her tree. Quickly her fear scattered as her mind calculated the meaning of those footprints. Did this mean that others used this track? Or had Lucien’s people managed to slip around her unnoticed in the hopes that they might be able to cut off her escape? If those tracks did belong to people other than herself and Lucien and his thugs then these others might still be here in the forest. And those tracks looked relatively fresh and recent to Lily. Fresh at least since the last fall of snow. Other people meant help, she thought still staring at them, people that could help her, hide her. If she could find them. They couldn’t pose her more danger than what was closing in on her from behind. She pushed away from her tree and ran again, new hope giving her strength. But she’d waited too long, stayed still too long. Lucien and his men caught sight of her again and someone shouted, “There she is!” The crashing and pounding of solid footsteps increased behind her. With her hand now bound and the blood prevented from flowing freely, Lily was able to move faster and she stuck to the path, the compacted snow on the path assisting her speed. The late afternoon still held some lingering light and the heavy clouds overhead had not yet released their burden of new snow, a fact for which Lily felt extreme gratitude. The light illuminated the path enough so that she could see to leap over fallen tree trunks or dodge around exposed roots and low brush. She wouldn’t be able to keep this pace for long she admitted to herself as she stumbled up yet another rise, this one the steepest she’d climbed yet, her lungs screaming in pain, her legs burning, the injury in her palm throbbing. But she had few more good sprints in her, hopefully enough for her to find help. At the crest of the rise, she paused to check for the footprints and saw that they continued down the hill and around a bend in the path to the right. Where it went after that Lily could not tell, the trees ahead were too thick. Then just to her right, something whistled past her to slam into the trunk of a tree, bark exploding all around her and Lily screamed, high, shrill, and sustained the sound echoing through the forest. Bloody Hell! They’d shot at her! Looking over her shoulder she saw Lucien charge into view, not looking at her but shouting angrily at one of his companions, as he reached out to try to grab at the man’s weapon.
I survived Christmas...
Yay! @billyhargrovens had me watch The Witcher and I will forever be grateful - ‘cause where have you been all my life Geralt of Rivia?! :) Anyway, here’s a bit more of MY story. Thanks for reading!
So much prologue...
and really sometimes To Prologue or not to Prologue IS the question. I’m pretty sure they aren’t as popular today as they used to be and I think for this book the prologue is not necessary. Much of what is here could be worked into later parts of the story. I keep it here to honor the young 20 something writer who loved prologues and was going through a BIG James Michener phase when she wrote the first part of this novel. Which means she definitely thought - the longer the better! I’ve also included a bit of chapter one - just for something new!
Showing up again today
Still freaking out after putting my work up yesterday. Just showing up can be really scary but I’m here again today, so here’s more...
Showing up in the World
Have you ever been so scared to do something that you just kept putting it off - like forever? That’s been me. I’ve been a writer since I was a kid but have never been brave enough to put out in the world anything I’ve written. I’ve stopped myself over and over and over again, becoming my own worst enemy. Today I’m deciding that I’m tired of pretending that I don’t care about putting my voice out in the world. Because I do. We are writers simply because we engage in the act of writing but we become more substantive, more solid in that identity of Writer when we share what we create. Thank you to my daughter, KJ @billyhargrovens for showing me the way, for being so inspiring and supportive. I would not be here without her!