I write for Creepypasta, EMH, and MH. I don't do smaus or smut. I will write x reader, reader insert-specific requests (ex. Black reader, trans reader, reader with a disability/disorder, reader with specific features), I will write character headcanons, escribiré en Español. There'll be more about this when I actually get some writing done.
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Kreepy anon,
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Radqueers, endogenics, pro-anorexia, transID users, TERFs, xenosatanists, cluster B abuse rhetoric believers, and anyone anti-recovery will be blocked on sight. Supporters of any of the above will be blocked on sight. I don't care about shipcourse.
you don’t have to respond to this but OUGH thank you so much for writing that 🥺 he was so sweet also sorry i didn’t specify osdd but it was still BEAUTIFUL omg thank you king
-kreepy
It's totally okay!! You're so welcome, I'm happy to write for my fellow systems 🙂↕️ I'll write for OSDD/DID reader in the future perchance. I'm super glad you enjoyed my writing so much.
OUGH only two works so far but im s excited for the rest holay molayyyyy...would you maybe wright toby and male or trans male reader with a dissacosiative disorder and also can i be kreepy anon pretty please with a cherry on top THANK YOU YOUR WRITING IS SO GOOD UGHHH
OH KREEPY ANON YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE YOUR LUCK. I am ABSOLUTELY the person to ask for this. (<- trans and DID system) Thank you so so so much for the request and compliments.
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》 TICCI-TOBY x TRANS MALE READER W/ DISSOCIATIVE DISORDER
》 INCLUDES: Grounding you during an episode, post-episode comfort, idk what else to tell you it's so fluffy. And short.
**NOTE: THIS IS NOT A HEADCANON POST, BUT A SHORTFIC!**
AN at end.
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You were out of it. Looking down at your hands, which hardly feel like they could be yours, you sigh and your eyes wander aimlessly. Your entire field of vision feels hazy and unfocused. It's almost as if there was a layer of static separating you from the real world. It's been hours, and you still aren't beginning to feel yourself come out of it. It's starting to get a bit late now. Your legs move without your permission, pacing in ungainly passes around your strangely unfamiliar living area while your mind stays in the depths of nothingness.
You had grown accustomed to this feeling of being in a limbo, somewhere between present and not. The blank spots where memories should be, the countless times you've forced out "Sorry, could you repeat yourself?" during conversations you weren't all there. You've dealt with years of it already. The only difference through those blurry years is that you didn't have Toby by your side yet.
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When your boyfriend returned from doing Slenderman's dirty work, covered in dark red splatters which soaked into the fibers of his striped hoodie and muddy jeans, he instantly notices the state you're in. Your stone-faced expression and tired eyes give you right away. He's learned to recognize your behaviors. With a low involuntary hum, Toby approaches you slowly.
"Hu-hey, let's sit down, 'kay? Come sit down w.... with me." he clicks his tongue twice before gently guiding you to the nearby sofa and sitting just far enough to let you breathe.
"You don't n-n-eed to talk. It's okay. Uh, here. What's that thh-th... ugh, what's that thing you're supposed to do...?" he trails off, clearly wracking his brain trying to remember something. You turn your head to him slowly, still in a dissociative haze, but curious about what he's trying to convey. Your boyfriend has his scarred hands on his knees, tapping each fingertip vigorously and cracking his head to the side.
"Oh! I know now! Okay, why don't 'cha gimme five things you can see. You don't n-need to tell me them, if you don't feel like talking yet. Just think. Sound good?" he waits for your little nod of acknowledgement, and watches as your eyes scan the room for various things. A glass of water. The worn-down sofa you and Toby sat on. Muddy shoe prints. Your hands, which feel a little more like they could be yours now. Toby's dark brown eyes.
"There you a...are. Feelin' a little bit better? Let's do another one, alright? Gimme four things you can touch." his voice is ever so calming right now, a stark contrast to the loud, adrenaline chasing man you normally know. He gives you a small grin of encouragement before scrunching his face and clicking his tongue twice.
You weakly curl your lips into a half-hearted smile while you regain some footing in reality. Four things you can touch. The stretchy fabric of your chest binder underneath your shirt, which you forgot to remove earlier due to your episode. You slowly, almost hesitantly move your hand toward Toby's. His face lights up as he catches the hint and intertwines his scarred fingers with yours. You're beginning to lose focus on the whole grounding technique thing now.
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Next thing you know, you're leaning lovingly against Toby's occasionally twitching shoulder, hand in hand. You're certain they're yours now as you feel his warm palm against your own.
"....Thank you, Tobes." you mumble against him, raising your head and looking back into the deep brown of his perpetually tired looking eyes with a thankful smile.
"A-anytime. You know you don't needa thank me, you c-c-can't help it. Uh, [name], do you know... why it happened?"
"...Just, um.." your smile fades ever so slightly. "Remembered some things. Y'know."
"Oh, I'm sorr-ry..." he sighs sorrowfully, wrapping an arm around your shoulder and holding you impossibly close. You rest your head on his shoulder, slithering your arm around his waist.
"I'm here now. Y-you won't get hurt again, 'kay? I won't let it happen." he reassures you with a low hum escaping his throat. You nod into his shoulder, closing your eyes with an unusual sense of safety lingering in your mind. You believe him.
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AUTHOR'S NOTES: AWWW. AWWWWWWW. HE'S A SWEETIE WHEN HE NEEDS TO BE. I didn't know which dissociative disorder you were wanting specifically, so I tried to keep it vague enough to carry over to a few of them. I hope it's what you like!! I had a good time writing this. My very first request 🤍 thank you! As always, cya next time,
If you bind, he's helping you get it on and off whenever you need. Tight binder fabric is no match for that proxy strength okayy 🙂↕️
He's also NOT letting you bind for longer than 8 hours. He's got a timer and everything, so you don't damage your ribs or breast tissue. There will be NO unsafe binding around these parts.
If you don't or can't bind for any reason, it doesn't change how he sees you at all.
If you're dysphoric from your body figure or curves, he lends you his clothes. Not because he can't keep his eyes off you in them, of course... just to help you feel better.....👀
If anyone misgenders you from your appearance, voice, literally anything, he's SO quick to correct them. He's glaring directly into their eyes, almost instantly telling them "He's a boy."
He will keep this up as long as he has to until nobody misgenders you.
If you have long hair for any reason, he loves to practice hairstyles on you. He's to embarassed to admit anything so he'll tell you it's for hand-eye coordination, but he just loves the feeling of your hair in his hands.
If you have short hair for any reason, he's grabbing your head and ruffling it up whenever he gets the chance. He thinks it's cute.
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》 POST-MEDICAL TRANSITION
Post-top surgery, he takes care of you for WEEKS. He's putting any and all cooking and baking skills he can remember to work and bringing you whatever food you need.
Pain medication is always on him somewhere just in case you're hurting during recovery. Sometimes multiple bottles because he forgets that he's already got one.
Once your chest is healed enough, he's all over you. He'll be tracing his rough fingertips over your incision scars as carefully as he can, admiring your new body, finding clothes he thinks you'll like to wear now.
He's a curious man, so he likes to sit and watch you do your testosterone shots or apply gel. He'll offer to do it for you just to see what it's like.
Hearing your voice get deeper and more like you is his favorite. He could listen to you talk about basically anything because he loves it so much.
Painful/sensitive bottom growth also has him keeping those painkillers in his pockets all day.
He'll try his best to help. He doesn't have much understanding of pain itself, so he hates seeing you uncomfortable even more since he can't grasp how bad it is for you.
If you choose to grow your facial hair, he's feeling it 24/7. Cupping your face, rubbing it, kissing it.
Still loves seeing you in his clothes.
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》 GENDER DYSPHORIA COMFORT
Toby is constantly making an effort to make sure you know he sees you as male.
If you get your period, he's doing even more. Maybe a little too much, but he's got the right spirit.
"You're s-suh-still my boyfriend, d... don't be an idiot [name]. It's just a per-peri-period. A week isn't gonna change that you're a boy."
He'll encourage you to step out of your comfort zone too. If you enjoy something that makes you a bit dysphoric, he'll reassure you.
He makes sure to use masculine-leaning compliments or names for you.
Steals Buys men's clothing for you in whatever style you like most. He does a little digging to find out your favorites, what you've been wanting, what would make you less dysphoric.
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》 AUTHOR'S NOTES: 2nd post done! Idk how much of my audience is trans but there's a LACK of stuff with trans men in mind. I hope i could deliver 🫰🏻 As a side note, just because the reader in this suffers from gender dysphoria, that does NOT mean it's a requirement for being trans. Transmeds are not welcome here ever. Also I had to rewrite this like 3 times because it just wouldn't save to my drafts..... tumblr's out to get me. Anyway, enjoy. Cya next time,
Toby has a freckled face + sun spots and more freckles on his shoulders, back, arms, and legs.
He seems skinny under his baggy clothes, but he's really lean muscle. He's stronger than he should be because of his abilities as a proxy.
That boy is not tall and nobody can tell me otherwise. 5'6" (167cm) max.
Because of the gash in his cheek, he's usually got some drool on his face when it's not covered by a bandage. He only makes an effort to wipe it off sometimes.
Eyebags + dark circles for days. This is canon, I know. Even on the rare occasion he sleeps a normal amount, he still looks like he's been awake since the Stone Age.
Self-inflicted scars on his upper arms. They're messy and don't look to be made with self-preservation in mind. He knows he can't feel it, it's just for the love of the game 😭
All his clothes are either cold neutrals, some shade of brown, or black. They're also all dirty with blood stains or mud and have weeds stuck into the fabric.
His fingertips are very uneven because they're made of scar tissue from his anxious habit of biting his hands. He has parts of fingernails missing too.
His skin is a bit tanned and always sort of clammy looking, even if he isn't physically feeling sick.
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》 PERSONALITY TRAITS + HABITS
He is SOO annoying omg. He loves to press people's buttons. If he knows what'll annoy someone, it's wraps. He's laughing about it all giddy too.
He's not keen on cleaning up after himself. That's not to say he's entirely unorganized, it's just a total mess that only he can work through.
Super curious about things. He wants to know stuff so bad.
Unfortunately, he's pretty forgetful. Sometimes it's just in one ear and out the other with him.
Absolutely despises being assumed to be idiotic or incapable in any way. Because of the memory loss, he doesn't know why and assumes it's just a natural pet peeve of his (it's because of the bullying.)
Soooo bad at masking his emotions. He's trying his best okay? 😓 When he's feeling something, EVERYONE will know about it whether he likes it or not. (He does not.) He feels things very strongly and will split on people when it's too intense for him.
Terrified of being vulnerable despite being the most vulnerable guy you'll ever meet. Those muscles aren't fixing that emotional trauma sorry bud.
Taps his fingers on everything he can. Tabletops, countertops, trees, himself, other people's shoulders, you name it he's tapping his fingers on it.
Doesn't sleep well. Whether it's his hyperactivity, mood swings, nightmares, or just him not wanting to sleep, he is staying UP.
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》 TICS
1. MOTOR TICS
Obviously he has a canon neck twitching tic. He twitches to the right side. It's harsh on his neck, and he can feel the pressure in his muscles and joints even if he can't feel the actual ache.
Another canon tic is bending backwards, but I raise you throwing his head back so hard that it just ends up making him bend back a bit. Again, this one gives him "aches" that he just feels as pressure in the back of his neck and upper back.
Two hard blinks in a row. That's it.
Lifting his left shoulder up to his ear.
Hard face scrunching.
2. VOCAL TICS
Low, short hum.
Tongue clicking.
Speech blocking tic (acts like a pause in his speech, usually followed by a motor tic.)
Long high-pitched whistle.
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》 INTERESTS
Hatchet-throwing. Come ONNNNNUHH. He LOVES practicing his technique. He's got specific trees he likes to practice on.
Cooking. He doesn't remember this, but he picked up cooking from Lyra. It feels special to him and he doesn't know why. He's not great, but it's calming for his overactive nerves.
Drumming. He doesn't know how to do it at all, but drums are his favorite part of music. He tries drumming on things with sticks privately (he's embarrassed.)
Experimental rock, alternative rock, glam rock. Anything with funky samples, a cool, groovy instrumental, surreal lyrics, he's into it.
He also likes emo. Because I said so.
Making fires. He likes being able to control them, and he's not scared of the heat, so it's just fun for him.
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》 AUTHOR'S NOTES: Yay!! First post! I feel really strongly about Toby's portrayal's accuracy ESPECIALLY his Tourette's as a Tourettic myself. Huge and gargantuan pet peeve of mine to see people butcher my man. I hope you enjoy my headcanons, and please keep in mind they are MY headcanons, so yours can be different and that's fine. Thanks for reading until here. Requests are OPEN and a pinned post is IN THE WORKS!!! Cya next time,
-PARIAH
Tagging mootie [ @citri-ismylemonad3 ] to feed our mutual Toby obsession 🫰🏻 Love ya Cami
