It’s like we are playing a poker game where I’m all in and you’re just the dealer. You make me want to play another round even though I have nothing left. I still play though, betting on my heart because you are priceless, because without you I can’t even function. I still play to simply feel your presence with me at the table. Doesn’t matter if you’re ripping my heart out because I just lost another round, I’d have butterflies and a glimmer in my eyes at the mere inches between us. But the butterflies turned to moths and the spark in my eyes started to fade because you turned what once was the love of a lifetime into a bitter drug that slowly intoxicates me more and more each day. You are my biggest regret and my biggest what if. You’re my biggest joy and my darkest sorrow. I love you with all my being yet I hate you from the depth of my soul. I want to give you everything yet leave you starving with nothing at all. You’re my best story and my saddest one. You’re it for me but I’ll never be enough for you. You’re the paradox of my life and I’m nothing but a chapter in yours.Â











