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call me milo or jean or anders 16/agender/ace/aro this is a vent/personal blog read the 'before u follow' page and ask me before following don't ignore this

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Why do you have to ask to follow if you are cis/straight? I'm just curious because I've seen someone say that before, sorry for being nosy

holy shit i havent used this blog in ages. its bc im generally not comfortable around cishets esp cishet guys so id rather ppl ask before following. but like i also dont use this blog much anymore anyway so [shrug emoji]

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i kno i have friends i can talk to about this but? i feel like I'd sound like im trying to be something I can't be and I just Don't Know Man

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reminder to like my posts if u read them

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IDK MAN i rly have always thought oh im sort of Jewish bc my grandma has my fam over for holidays n stuff and I've always liked it n felt like that was a good place 4 me but I'd feel like an intruder trying to be something I don't have the time/energy/resources to devote myself to and like I can't actually call myself Jewish

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I'm having weird religion feels

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i f i say im in an attention-seeking mood the thing 2 do is not fukckgin ignore me

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i get so worked up over any change in my day 2 day routine 

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luv when sum1 i follo on my da Twitter makes a vague statement about da fans on Twitter saying "some of u guys r fucked up lol" luv how that psn follows me and that they're some1 I admire luv that im convinced they're directly talking about me

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gggghrhghhf

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ive kinf of forced myeself 2 just never talk or think abou t being misgendered bc its not like anybody irl wou ld understand anyway lol

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hhooo i jsut started thinking abou t the fac t that even when im in college an d not at home any more i'll probably stil have to go by my birth name  and she/her pronouns bc i'd b 2 fukkin afraid 2 tell teachers wha t my name and pronouns are

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*refuses 2 talk about my problems so much that i convince myself my problems aren't real*

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luvtheheaven unfollow me

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*points 2 myself* my bpd ass

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today was an infinitely better day than yesterday

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the only g ood thign abotu today is that my art didn't suck for ocne and i made a spaceship blanket but otherwise today was a Bad Day