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December 6, 2015 1:05am

You always mentioned how miserable I looked. You commented on how I don’t enjoy life and honestly you’re right, I don’t. The only time that I truly enjoyed it was when I was with you. I absolutely loved life but now I’m so miserable. I don’t want to pull anyone else down as I did with you. I’m sorry for that.

I won’t be your trigger anymore because I won’t be my own.

December 5,2015 10:49am

It’s not like I want to keep thinking about you but you’ve just left me with too many scars and too many memories. Even the most mundane reminds me of you. Yes, I wish I could come across your mind but now I feel as if you don’t remember since little things don’t remind you of me anymore.

You will forget me eventually and I feel as if i will be another girl who’s name you forget when asked to recall.

I will always be your 10th finger and I will mark the 22nd of each month.

December 5, 2015 10:37am

Just please don’t compare me to your new lover and think of the ways I fell off the pedestal to make room for her. I miss you so much.

November 28, 2015 6:17pm

I remember the first time we cuddled again after getting back together. It was after PAW and we were exhausted. You held me close that moment and as you closed your eyes I whispered “I missed you.” You told me that you missed me too and I began to cry on your chest because it felt surreal that I was able to see and feel you again.

I still miss you but unfortunately I’m beginning to forget what you exactly look like and what parts of your skin your moles mark. I no longer remember the sound of your voice.

I’ve forgotten how you felt a very long time ago.

November 24,2015 5:51pm

We really did love each other.

Please don’t forget that.

November 23, 2015 8:20am

Your “good morning” messages were no longer meant for me.

I wake up every morning thinking about how you used to send me those messages and how I would look forward to the morning the night before. I miss the emojis you used and how your messages would motivate me to start the day. I would wish you sunny days to come but then you stole those words.

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You love people. They disappoint you. But sometimes, they don’t. They just keep loving you, right through it all, waiting for you to wake up and appreciate them. To say, “I love you. I’ve always loved you back.

Courtney Maum, I Am Having So Much Fun Here Without You (via quoted-books)

November 22, 2015 8:42am

I remember that exactly one year ago was our one month anniversary. I remember scrambling through American Apparel to buy you a pair of underwear because of that 5 Seconds of Summer song we listened to on our first date. You rolled the windows down and sang from the top of your lungs. I wanted to buy you that pair of underwear to commemorate that moment. I also bought you some Pelligrino because I knew how much you indulge in sparkling water. That night, I panicked on what to wear and was unsure of what we were going to do as you kept our date a secret. When you approached the door to my floor, I fell hard because you looked great. I gave you your gifts and once again I witnessed that smile I oh so adored. You told me we were finally going to have our ikea date but unfortunately there was too much traffic. Instead, we opted for dinner and a movie. Looking back its funny to realize that we went to get pizza as that was our first date as well. We went for coffee afterwards and spoke how you wanted to take me out for coffee when you first met me. We saw Mockingjay that night and were in awe of how fantastic it was. We walked back to your room and I began to crave you but you were too tired. I understood because all I wanted was to be around you.That night, holding you under the dim lights of your room was definitely enough and I was satisfied all around.

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November 14, 2015 12:18 pm

You threw out our history this summer as if it all meant nothing to you. - a vagabond

November 12, 2015 5:48pm

What really upsets me is that I really don’t think you cared about me at all when you said you did. When we broke up you told me that you still did but your actions proved otherwise. If you did, you would have gotten the help you needed at the time you were hurting me and when I told you multiple times to seek counseling.

You shouldn’t have seeked help just for me, but for your friends and family as well. Did you ever think about what your parents would have thought at the time you were hitting me? Or even what your friends would have thought? Look at how you acted towards someone at the end of last winter.

You only got help because of a girl that you only knew for a week or two. Did you only think about treatment in order to look like a better person to her? Why didn’t you think about it when there were people who had known you for a year? Why weren’t those people worth it? They have seen you through your highest highs and your lowest lows. They were with you the entire time. This is why sentimentality is important.

-a vagabond

November 10, 2015 7:40am

Stay out of my dreams. Reality just shows me how much of a let down you really are. -a vagabond

November 9,2015 6:17am

Why do I even want to meet you in person so bad? We’re not getting back together and you would never forgive me for my actions. I won’t ever forgive you for lying and hurting me to such an extent.

We never started off as friends and that’s something that I still don’t think I want actually. Perhaps it is best we cut each other off entirely. I just can’t bare to see you with anyone else. I can’t be happy for you honestly if you were to meet someone new, especially by the way you left me to be with another. I don't forgive nor trust you.

We met on terms of serendipity and we fell hard and fast. We weren’t meant to be friends.

It’s been a month since I’ve seen your face.

-a vagabond

November 8, 2015 11:48am

You didn’t like me because I was broke and I came from a broken family.

You used every chance you could to use that against me.

I’m sure you liked her because she was everything I was not and compared all of my flaws thinking how terrible I am.

In the end, all I wanted was your time. You could’t give an ounce of it to me over the summer.

November 8, 2015 9:22am

To your friend, Thank you for being in the car when I told you she hits me. For all of the times I told her to stop, she finally stopped when she was called out in front of someone to save face. -a vagabond

November 8, 2015 1:12pm

Actually I am bitter that you're doing better than me because logistically I can't. Your life is stable compared to mine right now and it angers me that you did throw it in my face knowing how terrible mine is at the moment. You know my living situation and mental health isn't stable. I wasn't able to join orgs or activities that I wanted to do because you prevented me from doing them. I have to study for GRE and spend most of my day studying, avoiding hang outs with people. I have to think about graduate applications and the fees for those. Yeah I'm happy for you but don't shove that shit in my face when you know I'm doing terribly and have openly expressed that to you. I found your comment to be inconsiderate, rude, and immature.

This is my senior year and honestly, you ruined that for me.

-a vagabond

November 7,2015 9:32

You found a new girl,and you compared me to all of the things I wasn't.

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