Chingona Leal

A site of poems.

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To my Deep Rose

Deep rose,

You are my queen.

When I look in your eyes I see how

Deep the ocean stretches,

See how

Much it raises its arms out to me.

When you whisper in my ear

I hear the waves crashing on the shore

I hear the water ripple in and away.

Deep rose.

When I touch your skin I feel

The softness of your petals.

The strength in your roots.

The tension in your thorns.

Deep rose.

Allow me to move with you, by your side.

Moving with your strides in collaboration.

We are equals, yet I will hold you above me.

You are my queen.

Do you hear your worth?

Do you hear your

Inner beauty that reaches to my heart?

No, yes fully extended to my third eye.

Deep rose,

I do not request ownership

Only partnership.

Allow me to enter to hear your soul,

Allow me to feel your warmth.

[soilknowledge]

Hello! Thank you for visiting my site I hope you enjoyed some reading. I write poems and short blogs about things in my life, hopefully in some way they can relate to you as well. Cus you know, it’s all about connection. 

xo - Chingona Leal 

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Roots.

Push your roots into the hard wood floor.

Through this bed

To the concrete

To the soil.

So separated yet I feel the connection.

The roots digging down.

The need to be one.

Let’s fuse together, right here in this very moment.

Two bodies lay next to each other

Two spirits looking in the eye.

Both eyes closed with

The third eye wide open.

We spread our minds on each other.

Undress from the physical body

To meet in the metaphysical world.

The dream world.

Come rally around and make a sound

Loud enough to crack the shackles

Of reality.

Get free with me.

Enter yourself.

Enter me.

Welcome.

Enter the realm they tried to cut us off from.

Enter the true you

The true Leal Speak.

Welcome home.

XO

C.L

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Fleeting sensation.

A snort of cloud nine pushed to the back of

The throat.

My chakra gets clogged.

It’s filled with an element that makes me speak

Evil.

Speak no evil.

Erased.

Faded

And intoxicated.

Enticement for the moment to come back again.

Have me begging for more.

Empty.

Rage rises, this isn’t me.

Don’t yell at me.

Yell at the beast that has taken my place

Scream it back into the bag from which it came.

Cloud nine vanishes

Darkness rises and takes over.

It runs in the family.

xo

C.L

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What does love sound like to you?

What rings in your ear as the person you love lays on your chest? Heart beating with yours.

Does the world become white noise as you look into the depths of their pupils to discover the base of their warmth?

Do you begin to see with ears and hear with eyes as they speak your name?

Is it the most grounding, and rooting experience you could feel next to Mother Earth’s embrace?

Do you feel everything and nothing all at once when they hold you to their core? As if the universe is put on standby to allow you two just this split moment in the cosmos.

Allowing everything to become complete darkness in this time stamp of pure light.

One day I will hear it to, and I will relay it to your eyes of earth and ears of ancient to know what rings in my soul as you speak.

C.L

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Winds change, water pours

Deep into the ground. Greenery

Soaking it up: weeds, trees grass

Alike, flourish in the dark clouds.

A silent yet auditable shh hums over

The hills. As the nutrition passes,

The cool sets in. Leaving nothing

But remnants of what was and

Could be.

- ChingonaLeal

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I will never be ashamed of what I am.

I can only be what I am.

I could never be the things that turn you on.

I will only be the things that turn you off.

I look at you in awe,

I look at your beauty, your grace.

I look at your strong neck and how it holds your intelligent mind that is cradled in your shoulders.

I look at it and think if I could ever be cradled in your arms the way you do for your culture.

I look at your long strong legs and how they have carried you for so long,

And think if you could ever carry my love that way.

I look at your hands and think of all the work they have put in and if you would ever put it in to our love.

I look at you and wonder

if you could ever love me.

I already know the answer.

I could never be what you want me to be,

I could only ever be what I am,

Y soy como más pocho.

So apparently because of that,

I will never be what you need.

I then look back this sonnet and think, this is not love.

Because not once did it start with us or we, so therefore:

We could never be.

Never be, D. Diaz

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Pisces Horoscope

June is coming to an end. Time is flying by you Pisces. Are you being active? Lazy? Do you feel blocked? Release your energy in the ways you know how. Through poetry, through painting, through crafting, you heart centers art, so explore your hidden artist and bring it out of retirement. Summer is a time to bring in new energy and light in your life. Let the heat warm your soul and mind to bring about creativity. Get out of the house, do not be a hermit in the warm times, cold times are for that. Learn to be comfortable by yourself and do things for you. Spa day, walk by a body of water, etc. 

Also, very important to think about the future you. They are coming and very soon. Be quick to understand what future you will want and need. Live in both present and future to be most successful in the warming of days. What is it that has constantly been fueling your soul? Master that craft and own it as yours. Future you will thank you for your dedication to yourself.

Tid bit of homework! Read a book that teaches you something, life, ways of living, learn to be truly human. Also, look up your Natal Chart, could be fun to learn how you operate. 

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To be there with you.

I wish I could be there with you. 

Where ever that may be. 

I wish to speak about the things on my mind, about the cruelties of the world, about the happiness found within it. 

Or about how your childhood heroes/heroines play a role in your being to this day. 

Even about the flaws you bury inside, trying to kick under the rug. Let’s take a look into each other to see what we find. Dirt and purity is what I seek.

There could never be such a love as strong.

Except for the rest of the world loving as passionately. 

Imagine a world whole heartedly loving you. I’m here to tell you that they do. Because you would not be here without the love and might of your world surrounding you. 

Now think of me by your side to keep you warm at all times. 

This is my scrambled love letter to you because I can’t yet put in words my honor towards you. I can’t yet put in description my level of care and tenderness for you. 

Just know, that I wish I could be there with you, discussing our next political moves to change the pendulum swing in all of our favor.  

Sleep tight at night knowing that you have yet to shake my hand, to meet your match. Sleep with the intent of meeting one day. 

-ChingonaLeal

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I love you.

I love you, even if I have never met you nor will I ever. I love you. Beautiful words spoken by Madame Maya Angelou, something I will never forget. I love you regardless. Love conquers all, and spits out the spite. 

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I wish I could create temples

For you to visit. Bear witness to

The odes I pay to you.

Red roses laid in homage,

For the love you have taught me.

Shrines rimmed with lavender

To bring ease to the eye of the storm.

Pay tribute to your humanness,

Because you have shown your Divinity

To me and I fell to my knees to worship.

Nothing more humbling than being told

Your worth in someone else’s life.

We don’t mean shit,

But your shit meant everything to me.

Xo

C.L

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I couldn’t think of a

Worst way to lose sleep.

The two of you chopping it up.

Fueled by my humiliation

That one night I asked you out

And she was there.

I could hardly compare,

She hasn’t seen the worst of you.

So I guess it’s not my lost.

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Beckon and call.

I’m your every desire.

What you demand is what i will.

Your wish is beyond my command.

It is the will of the universe.

I take in the powers to bring you a head.

I take in the powers to make you smile.

That look on your face is the motivation.

Your sentiments go beyond my existence.

My existence does not compare to your smile alone.

How could a worm compare to a goddess if it is not in her creation?

I am but a worm to your being,

Stomp me out of existence.

And carry on as if it never happened.

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The cosmic search.

I want that timeless love.

Where a world would not be sufficient enough to contain it.

Our love would be like waterfalls,

Gushing over the edges of the world

Falling into the rest of the universe.

From which we came.

Star dust to star dust.

We reach everlasting within our arms.

C.L

[soilknowledge]

It comes down.

Not with force not with vengeance.

It comes with peace.

It comes for a cleansing.

Tickling your face,

Making you aware of each step.

Be careful she says.

The birds stay nestled,

Waiting.

They begin to chirp,

They know she is leaving soon.

Songs grow louder and stronger.

Their excitement builds.

The peace lingers.

Xo

Leal