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Vent, Express, Catalog. This, is the dump - Enjoy. 2025 Update: way too old for this shit and yet it continues. Feel free to comment, DM, or boo hoo.

[aloneandforsakenbyfateandbyman]

Hatchet for the Honeymoon (1970)

[thewindowofthesummerhouse]

Tito Lessi

[somecrazybitch]

I wish I was dead.

[somecrazybitch]

I hate him. Following me around like a lost puppy. Talking to me first thing in the morning. Being there. Making me his best friend. So he can send me pictures of girls he actually find attractive and tell me how much he misses his ex. Kys. Sigh.

Just blocked stalker guy and I feel like I have nothing. I hate my crush. He's muted and archived. I'm sad because I love his system and the one meant to be an option for me...he always ends up on his ex always. Whenever we have a moment, it's time to talk about her. Literally just go to her. Shut up. Go away. I hate you.

Trusts me so much, let's me help him in crazy intimate ways. Does not want me. Clearly. Clearly wants me as a friend. I hate him. I'm so sad and I feel so worthless and ugly and I think he only likes white girls. I hate racists who aren't Nazis. Fuck off with your alt bullshit fetishizing white girls with piercings. Actually get raped and bombed. I miss my Nazi boy. And I miss my psychopath. And I DON'T like you because you suck and you're mean and you don't like me first.

[thewindowofthesummerhouse]

Richard Tennant Cooper

[somecrazybitch]

His ex gf got raped so now he's dealing with the rapist and he's probably going to go be with her for a while.

Sigh.

It sounded really horrible tbf.

I hate being into someone who's brain is shattered into multiple people. I don't understand my attraction or feelings. I like V but D is the one who decided they're keeping me. When D isn't there, I have such a crush but when he's there idkk he's too mature for me. I get bored. He makes me feel secure and safe and he's so daddy but I want the others.

Doesn't matter anyway, I feel lucky to be in his orbit and kept for now. I'm definitely one of the main people he talks to, MAYBE top of the pile.

Whatever. It's just nice to have someone who makes me feel happy by being there when I wake up.

I technically am still dating that stalker guy, bless him. And I have a crush on this loser who makes me laugh and I feel happy when I talk to.

But ofc, system guy is the lead. He's handsome, talented, Aspd, observant, cool, financially free, fun, and has a sexy accent. Violence and being over 6ft don't hurt either.

I want to entrap and ensnare him. Make him mine. Make him need to keep me, not just choose to keep me. I need to tap into his obsessive tendencies and make me part of what he needs to activate his mental reward centers. I need to inject myself into his routines and his compulsive behaviour. I need to become completely negligible in my presence, yet unthinkable to operate without.

Like oxygen. Unobtrusive until it's absence.

Then, I will consider my feelings. Once I'm safe. Gosh I miss my psychopath man. Ugh.

[heartlessqueen]

[jinxproof]

Jenny Knight Vogue Italia (September 1997) ph. Ellen von Unwerth

[lamignonette]

[thewindowofthesummerhouse]

Jana Heidersdorf

[oldpaintings]

Still Life with Courgettes by Petrus van Schendel (Dutch, 1806–1870)

[somecrazybitch]

I can be so real with him.

He feels almost too real. In the numbing way that real life numbs. Liking him feels like hiding nothing. Like having to soberly face reality and life.

Pretending to be one person felt powerful and real but it's a fiction.

I want to kill myself.

I hate myself and the fucking world. I have no faith in me and him. I'll never be happy with anyone again because of stupid amazing R° kill me.

[nemfrog]

"Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky..." Physique sacrée, ou, Histoire-naturelle de la Bible. 1732.

Skeletons seem to mock an illustration of the creation myth from Genesis.

Internet Archive

[somecrazybitch]

I wanted to replace you so much I let a violent stalker near me. I would say you win the, "who has the most impact on who" game, but I guess that depends how your legal situation is doing. I miss you every day.

[requiem-on-water]

Agyness Deyn dances with death in ‘Spooky’ an evocative tale of love and lunacy by Tim Walker (2015)

[somecrazybitch]

I've been productive and felt way more stable today, not talking to him.

But just now unblocked him, justified in my head as, "de-esecalting so we're at a neutral point and there's no conflict hurdle he's thinking about overcoming"

I feel so much lighter having unblocked him though. Truly don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.

[anpiel]