[somedyayy]

Update no one asked for:

People always think that something is black and something is white. They don't want to see the grey. Its pretty simple, when you are a light hearted person people think that you will take everything that is happening to you very light heartedly. They think that talking can solve problems, it surely will. But everything needs time. You can just switch on and off things! And if you do, give the other person time to just retrieve from the trauma that you have caused.

Understand there is a difference you are vulnerable and so is the other person, you can't just take anyone for granted. Everything that has happened or is happening is according to your will, let the other person listen to their choices, wills for once! It might heal their wound.

[somedyayy]

Ok, I don't know if i should be writing this here or no.

Today I had an abrupt video call with few of my friends and some classmates. And the fact that a lot of things have changed since i had last met them. I felt a certain toxicity when i spoke to them.

It felt that something was just not right.

No one gives a fuck about me. I literally felt this! Basically, the context is not about people not liking me, its just that i am a person who likes to have a lot of friends a lot of attention and when your OWN friends(its fucking killing me to write friends the whole word everytime) don't give you that. ( People say there is *nothing like toppers and average everyone is better at something* believe me this only *sounds* good. Everything is toxic out there everything is competitive out there. People *choose* to hangout with cool people) ( now don't send me sympathetic private messages or comments)

People make friends based on marks. And groups are created within the groups based on marks.( I can literally draw a venn diagram to explain this)

Toppers like toppers. Average stay with average. No one cares about anyone.

I feel there exists nothing like friendship anymore it is just people competing with each other to reach nowhere. It gives me serial chills thinking that at the end i will end up with only 1 college friend!

I have started hating everything and everyone since Monday.

[somedyayy]

I turned 20 on the 11th of this month and when i wondered about the rollercoaster decade that i had, the teenage decade to be precise, i was flabbergasted. So for starters let's consider the past 5 years, they were hell of a ride! I went through 2 major exams, the never ending admission processes, the major turning point in you carrer years, the sweet teenage years that i am missing already! Life is such a bitch! The years that you like the most pass by to quickly!

There were so many transitions in my life in the past decade. I went from a child to teenager to a grown up adult now!

From school to junior college to degree college! From a nasty kid to a mad for love teenager to a responsible Adult!

Like it's not that i miss these 10 years because everything went well.. yess there were bad times but those bad times were not that bad as they would be in the coming future. What was 'the bad' that i faced? Failing exams, getting punished. Man all these things were so sweet! But now that i am an adult what will the 'possible bad', earning money, paying taxes, and so much more.

The next decade is so much more challenging! Graduating! Post graduation! Job! Business! Family! Society! Holy shit these are a lot of things right?

But yeah i am pretty sure the teenage me will be proud of the adult me. Because i know that i have transformed into a very intellectual, practical human being :)

But yeah deep down i still wish i could go back to when i turned thirTeen and possibly complete that teenage love story <3

[kayleerowena]

haunted house roundup!!

for a small fee i'll haunt your house, too

[somedyayy]

Architecture!

This term felt pretty simple to me, when in the high school I had decided to become an Architect :) Life was simple back then.. Everyone applauded me for having made a career choice which usually teenagers are not able to make. Little did I know until I entered this course that it is going to be a nerve wracking career. A lot of efforts are needed, zero social life, 1000s of Sheets, 100s of Redos camouflaged with the phrase Stages of Design.

Architecture is a very versatile career, in a way that we can choose anything related to it after graduating. But graduating itself is hard. To complete one Design we require numerous Nights, Days, weeks, months. But people around think that it is the easiest of all.. That it is just sketching..

It is not just sketching! Thinking of concepts, design approaches; calculating the tensile stresses; thinking of an engaging form; numerous case studies; being aesthetic; balancing personal, academic and social life is really not easy for and Architecture student!

PS: Architecture students are going to be Architects and not Architecture!! :')

[somedyayy]

There's this essence in the streets, that throws your mind back in nostalgia. Where you see innocence hitting puberty, the old flowers falling in love again, the Pomeranian's and the strays..

The typical aroma that reminds you of the past, of the days that you thought were better than today, and that you want to relive them again. The stories get vibrant with as the streets.. some may remind you of the past and some may make you dream about the future. They slip away to pump us.. They unite two souls and even part them. They make us cross paths with people whom we might never encounter. 

Sometimes some streets also hold a special place in your heart, which remind you of your toddler years, the teenage times, times when you met your first love, the times when you were hurt.. And the same streets motivated you too move on.. 

There are streets where you would've experienced your life's firsts! may it be driving, smoking, or your life's first booze! 

They have stories that may leave you in fear, the stories that would make you fall in love with them, the stories that you never thought would've existed and the stories you would want to hear over and over again.. And the streets have stories to tell that never unwind..

[somedyayy]

[somedyayy]

Being born and brought up in an Indian household is a great adventure! One such great adventure is visiting the local markets.

Right from childhood I have been accompanying my mother to the local markets, and every time I visit any even now, there are a series of memories that pass by. Every time I am stuck in a Deja-Vu moment!

The markets have a typical aroma, the breeze flowing, people bargaining endlessly, vendors selling with full boost to earn for their family's well being, claustrophobic toddlers crying, the evening sun, and you feel lost in the moment.

This is where you exactly find people that you know but haven't met for years, the people who have thousands of thoughts in their mind, people who actually have evening walks in these markets, people ranting about the growing prices and gossiping about the who's who family issues. The vibe is insane. If you happen to visit the market often you will soon find the vendors giving a bright smile and that moment is when you realize after all these little things matter.