These Things I'll Never Say

[poems-and-word]

[turing-tested]

i really am, from the bottom of my heart, an actual fucking idiot

[extramadness]

[somethingalltoofamiliar]

Forever in debt to your priceless advice

Nirvana, Heart Shaped Box

[qvotable]

“But I must admit I miss you terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby.”

— Lemony Snicket // The Beatrice Letters

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

[symfoniauczuc]

not mine.

[somethingalltoofamiliar]

You were whistling in your sleep tonight, a soft simple melody just loud enough to hear above the whirring of the fan.

The gentle innocence of it, the peace in your face, i was overwhelmed with emotion

I listened and couldn't help but laugh to the point where I thought I was sure to wake you.

You must have felt the silent shaking, of me trying to stifle my laughter, because you stirred and rolled away, but you didn't wake.

I felt lucky to be lying next to such a beautiful individual.

And then you kicked me really hard in the shin

And in that split second I knew I loved you.

[somethingalltoofamiliar]

I reacted badly to you telling me not to text you tonight, because I took it to heart thinking it was that you didn’t want to talk to me. I took it to mean that I’m an inconvenience and that I ruin your time with your friends simply by wanting to know how you are. I found it hard to accept that you/ your friends find my texting you annoying when i don’t exactly plague you with texts when you’re with them, but when we’re alone together you’re in constant contact with them.

I know we need to spend time away from each other sometimes ,to appreciate the friends we have, and not to push them away; but you handled it badly too.

You need to know that I take things to heart and if you don’t know that now then will you ever? I’m clinging on to whatever this ‘relationship’ is. If it is a relationship. I had a conversation tonight which resulted in my best mates laughing at me for not actually being able to define our 'relationship’.

Things have been going so well between us. I’ve been difficult to be with recently, I know this, and I truly and sincerely appreciate how you’ve supported me. But at the same time, tonight was a major setback.

I feel like I’m an inconvenience, that your friends hate me, and yet again I’m sat here feeling not good enough.

I read this back to myself and realise how pathetic this is. But the reality of it is, I’ve fallen hard into this, whatever this is. I need reassurance. I’m broken, like you said earlier. But you knew this.

Sometimes I just need you to tell me that you like me. To confirm I am what you want and that I’m not just an easy shag whenever you feel like it.

[slightdownpour-deactivated20170]

And when I’m alone, I think of how much I miss you.

(via slightdownpour)

[i-am-my-own-drugs-deactivated20]

[1-800-missingyou]

why don’t you love me anymore ?

[ihmxsiwxtd]

Shawn Mendes/Hold on

[apikaliaa]

He was like my favorite song stuck in my head; easy to remember, hard to forget.

a.a. (via apikaliaa)

[crashingwaves-burningsouls]

Here I am; writing about you again. I thought that after a year I would either be with you or over you. But here I am at the same place I was last year, school is coming to an end for the year and I’m stuck thinking about how much time is going to pass before I see you again.

You have somehow become a constant in my life, and you don’t  even know it.  (via crashingwaves-burningsouls)

[fxck-every-1]

I would still take you back, 8 months later and I will still fall to my knees in tears by your demand. I can not believe it, I can not make sense in my head of why I would do such a thing. I guess, I truly do love you, I want to be with you. I shouldn’t, but I do. You just seem to be right, you’re always there even when I can’t see you, I can feel you. So maybe that’s a sign, you know me, I’m always looking for signs and universal things but maybe the biggest sign is the one deep within.

hope (via fxck-every-1)

[crashingwaves-burningsouls]

What happens when your ‘forever’ walks out the door?

(via crashingwaves-burningsouls)