ooook wow hi. where do i start?Â
the last two years have been the two most interesting, fulfilling, challenging, fun, beautiful years of my life. i’m not really an astrology girl, but 27 to 29 is your saturn return, or so everyone keeps telling me. so it makes sense that the last two years have been such a whirlwind.
the album is finished, turned in, and ready to go. it took a long time to get it right because i was writing it in real time as i was experiencing the aforementioned saturn return. while i actually don’t think this particular season of my life is totally over, to be honest, this album feels right to me and where i stand right now in this moment.Â
when i started writing this record, it felt like i was living through the end of my life as i knew it. nothing about me or my life looked the same or felt the same. everyone in real life around me was saying i seemed like myself again for the first time in years. everyone on the internet was saying my team must’ve made me dye my hair red and that i seemed not myself at all. the truth is that in the last two years, i’ve felt less like myself than ever and also more like myself than i probably ever have before.Â
i got out of a longterm relationship and went off all of my medications and took real time away from touring and spent a lot of time alone with myself for the first time in my twenties and also spent a lot of sustained time at home with my loved ones for the first time in my twenties. i started taking a more proactive approach to my mental/physical health, tried lots of new things, got diagnosed with OCD, dated as an adult for the first time, said yes every chance i could, moved across the country for a bit to finish the record in california and then fell even more in love with new york from 3000 miles away.
when i think about making the first Brent EP with jeremy or SWR mixtapes or my debut album even, i think about a time when i lived so authentically to myself. i was 19, 20, 21, 22. fearless, infinite, so sure of it all. the last two years have been about navigating a season of life where i didn’t feel sure about anything at all. who i was, what i wanted, what my life and career would look like. call me cliche, but i think your late twenties are for deconstructing everything and rebuilding it all with more wisdom, patience, strength, and intention.
i just wanted to give you guys some context now that the album is finished because im so excited. it’s been two years of my life and now i just can’t wait for you guys to see the whole picture and get all of this music over the next couple months.Â
i’m so grateful for all that i’ve learned about myself and the world and how i want to move through it. and i’m so excited for all the seasons of growth and reinvention that i may be so lucky to experience throughout my life. it is a privilege to get to have so many different eras and chapters. if i have learned anything, it is that it’s never really the end. it’s just the start of the rest of your life.Â
and let the record state that i wanted red hair for years ;)Â
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