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dog posting -- neighbors across the street got a doberman puppy the same time we got ramona but never walked or trained it so now its only purpose in life is to stare at our house and bark like a lunatic when it sees any glimpse of us through the windows. at least they didn't crop its ears.

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realizing again how it all comes down to HIM. if we could choose our muses, I'd rid the earth of him myself. instead I'm stuck carrying his weight. I don't want it to be the rest of my life. he's humiliated but also too pleased with how it's turned out, my glory still all wrapped up in him. the uncle's smiling in the rearview mirror at the end of how I learned to drive. my eternal passenger, number flashing on the phone, ip address on the site log. maybe this book will kill him. or the next one, the next the next. it will happen. I want to say, so long as I outlive him, but I already have. girls reading my book after I'm dead--but then there he is, still beside me. because they'll read him, too.

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going back to steens in august with a campervan, will pull off into some grand isolated spot and lose my mind while gazing out at the high elevation high desert, dipping into the delusion it all belongs to me.

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not happening because of the fires 😭 foolish to plan on going in august. I feel a numb whatever this year rather than despair because an honest reaction is out of reach. I am grateful for what I get, which is plenty.

I just need to be reassured 😭 do you just deal it out or can you deal with all that I lay down??????

damaged my optic nerve from pressing on my eyelids too much 🫣 not exactly a mushroom shaped tumor but a warning nonetheless

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leave me alone

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communicating with the highest imaginable stakes, hiding meaning inside of meaning inside of meaning

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unfortunate visions of my life leading to a final showdown. me versus some male dominator minion, alone in a barren field with a th*el or v*nce with no weapon beyond wit and favor w/the mama alien godhead. obviously I'll win but the whole set up seems so unpleasant, needlessly fraught...

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field = blueberry barren? I'm annoying

unfortunate visions of my life leading to a final showdown. me versus some male dominator minion, alone in a barren field with a th*el or v*nce with no weapon beyond wit and favor w/the mama alien godhead. obviously I'll win but the whole set up seems so unpleasant, needlessly fraught...