What do you do if you don’t think you’re beautiful?
I know there are other more important factors to base your being and your worth on but it’s hard not to care
I know that the temporal world is vain and beauty is fleeting but I want to look at myself and be content
I wish I was born as naturally and undeniably lovely as others
Darling, it is very natural to care. U deserve to be content with your loveliness. It is your birth right.
My good sis Marly wrote a brilliant essay on beauty, I just wanna share some important fragments with you:
With all my heart, I want beauty to be a restful, organic state of being we are all already luxuriating in. It’s not, though. It’s anything but restful. In fact, to rest is to fall into the abyss once again. Because to rest is to be undone up. To rest is to be unconcerned with how you look. Maybe my favorite sweats fit me terribly and are stained with ketchup, maybe I haven't plucked my chin hairs in a week, and have a couple broken, chipped nails. Maybe I ran out of lotion and am hella ashy. Then what?
For me now, beauty is performance. It’s drag, baby. It rises from the inside out. It shifts with my mood, my frequency, the way I want to be felt in the world. To be sure, it is still also armor, yes. But armor spun with silk and cackles from femmes plotting in the night.
I regret the shame that made me hide her away for one, the delusion that made me lay her bare for the consumption of another. But I no longer mourn the thieves of my harvest. I celebrate this becoming. Beauty now is destined, inevitable, holy. The question is not: do others find me desirable? The question is: do I feel powerful, soft, possible, alive in my body today?
Me and Marly have spoken so much about beauty and becoming; beauty is ritual, ancient, ancestral n protective. it is liberatory when we destroy the white supremacist capitalist patriarchal perimeters that have come to cage the wor(l)d. We gotta take away all its meaning to give it our own. To become our own standard. Beauty is an everyday experiment, it could be the colors u wear, the scent of ur skin n the shine on ya face when it’s truly coming from a place of ur own self care. I haven’t felt beautiful in the recent weeks, but it’s cuz I fell outta pace with my rituals,,, the practice of beauty regulates my nervous system now, n that to me is most important - ur words carry an eloquence friend, u alrdy feel so lovely 222 me, wishing u all the best ❤️
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