maybe it'll be different this time

                 im struggling bigtime, maybe i can starve in a healthy way?                                                                           (she/her)| 5’8                                                                                                                                                               

[sortakindalost]

😗✌️

[sortakindalost]

hey guys!!

it’s been a hot minute since I’ve been on here. I’ve been doing a lot of therapy and as it turns out, it’s actually helpful💀 that being said, i am still massively massively overweight and while i would normally try to do this in a healthier way, im meeting my long-distance bf(kinda) in less than 6 weeks and i want to lose at least 15lbs by then. i know i can do it.

i guess im kinda coming back so i can keep myself accountable. I’ve been doing better at cooking my meals and working out but i need some fast results. i know i won’t be anywhere close to thin by the time i see him, but i want to feel more confident. I’ve lost about 9lbs since the ending December so that’s at least something. here are my stats, any encouragement is welcome :)

hw: 284lbs sw: 272lbs gw: 255lbs ugw: 180lbs

[prynceash]

LMFAO

[ricecak3]

thighs look fucking huge but me👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩morning skinny✨

[moonlightontheriver]

h-heyyyyhhh... *watches mukbang* *watches mukbang* *watches mukbang* *watches mukbang* *watches mukbang* *watches mukbang* *watches mukbang* *watches mukbang*

[am-i-thinspo-yet]

I have 99 problems but being skinny would fix 101 of them

[xanthomonus]

I swear I posted this when I made it, idk what happened

[sortakindalost]

WHERES THE LIEEE

[skinnydivine]

My ED rules

I only eat between 11 am and 7 pm

24 hour fast at least once a week

850 cal max daily

Keep a regulated sleep schedule (mines usually 11pm to 8am)

Drink 75 oz of water daily. (Take your weight divide it by 2 and that’s how many oz you should be drinking daily. I’m a whopping 150 so 75oz is what I need.)

Lax tea once a week

At least 20 minutes of thinspo daily

I drink a Beachbody protein shake which is 250 cal, daily. It does count towards the 850 max.

Take a Hair, Skin, and Nails vitamin daily to prevent breakage and looking weak.

Work out daily.

[sortakindalost]

AYOOOOOO

I thought I wouldn’t come back here but here I am!! I just got back from spending almost a month in a psych ward bc of depression n ed 🤪 and I thought I’d be fine but as soon as I got home my mom shamed me for eating and not working out enough so I’m back again lol

Anyway I’m an active blog as of Feb 24 2021 and if u r too interact w this post so I can follow other active blogs!

Stay safe!

[itsgreenteatime]

Gain control, lose weight.

[idfkxo]

[sortakindalost]

I’m supposed to smoke with a boy I rlly like on Saturday but I feel ✨massive✨ and I want to vomit and cry. Like literally take scissors and cut the fat off of my body 😜🤙 and I mean he knows what I look like, he’s seen my body, and he wanted to spend even more time with me but I still feel incredibly anxious😙😎 and I’m using awkwardly placed emojis as a coping mechanism but anyway imma fast tmrw and then have an apple Saturday bc I get sick if I smoke on an empty stomach. Yeehaw I literally don’t know what to do with myself. Kinda wanna cry, kinda wanna die. But like anyway my friends also found out about my ed and that’s making me also anxious. Like I’ve been on the verge of a panic atta k for a couple hours now and I’m about to go over the edge. Like fr fr. You know when your throat hurts and you can feel it in your eyes? Yeah. That’s what I’m feeling rn. And I feel nauseous as well. So that’s a fun combo. Ik this is v ramble but I am venting because I really don’t want to cry or shake or say anything else that’s weird. I would take a bunch of laxatives but I’m hanging out with my friend tomorrow and I can’t deal with a full day of stomach aches while dying his hair. Idk. Anyway. I feel sick, I feel like shit. I want to curl into a ball and never have to talk to anybody ever until I’m skinny. So yeehaw. Idk. I’m not tagging this bc I kinda just want my tumblr friends to see this. Nobody else, just like this safe lil bubble. Or I mean it’s safe for now. I think imma make a new blog though, idk. Maybe I’m overreacting. Peace my dude bros🌝✌️

[ariryyy]

[whitepeopletwitter]

[thindreams1985]

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[deadedatm-deactivated20220611]

that's so accurate welp