iRant

I can't always get what I want, but I can always write about it

[soumali]

iRant turned 4 today!

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let’s see if too many wrongs make a right!? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J7_1MU3gDk0

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4th November 2016.

Yesterday, Preeti, a colleague told me that i should laugh more often. I have never felt this way before, you know. To have a sense of belonging to a space that you can call your own. I am realising what HOME means. You look forward to coming back home. And you look forward to start another day. It is not that your past doesn't come back to haunt or greet you; it's just that you know that it's over and move on. I am enjoying the feeling called Home.

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A Makeshift Home

Sometimes, it's better that you never stay. Because you can always keep coming back and go away. Your absence gives me time to cope with reality. To gauge the distance between two people who were never meant to be. I can handle the distance of lightyears between us. Yet, one moment of you around is enough to self- destruct. I do not ever want to know how will it be to have you at 'home' with me. Because in my makeshift home that functions in my mind, you never leave the house.

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Goodbye

I have loved you so much that I could let you go. But not without having little parts of me, gone with you, forever.

Every time you said goodbye, or left without much of a farewell, I feared that this time, it will be for good.

Yet, every time, you came back like a wounded soldier, back from the war. I nursed you back, so that you could leave again.

Never did I notice that my supplies were dwindling. The courage to lose you, was almost over. The silence was giving way to my inner voice that wanted to tell you, Never leave me again. The patience to endure your fleeting cycles had reduced to the minimum.

Yet, I don’t know why I held back so much. You were never mine, yet I feared to lose you. We were never meant to be together, yet we still had a long way to go

For me it had always been you… Only that I never dared to ask, ….'And you?’

Leave when you will, the lost part of me traveling with you, will always remind me of the one I could never have……

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

Yes, it is not easy to love someone when they are all over the place at 2AM, when they are drowning themselves in their pain and sorrows. But to love someone when they are all sunshine and laughter while having thousands of needles in their heart, when they are too weak to break down, when they repeat the words ‘I’m fine’ like a broken record… That’s the most difficult part of love.

L.W. // When they won’t let you in (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

Not that I don't want to let you in, but I fear that the day you leave, the void left behind by you will never be filled again. Ever.

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Making love, count...

Have you ever thought that right at this very moment, someone is thankful for your existence... Beginning with parents to friends, lovers and soulmates, you are making a difference to someone's life... Because, the mere thought of you brought a smile on her/ his face.... It's a huge favour you are doing to the world, trust me... So before negativity cripples your thought, grab all the love you can, and make each moment, a lasting memory...