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Alex 🏳️‍⚧️

[lizclimo]

[evelily7023-deactivated20230824]

[spaceknox2]

So excited about this weekend. Seeing Elton John on Friday, axe throwing on Saturday and topping the weekend off with RHCP on the Sunday 👌🏼

Got Victorious Fest, Derren Brown and Biffy Clyro booked as well. Hopefully will have no reason to kms until Christmas

[spaceknox2]

honestly booking festivals and gigs makes me feel like I can finally breathe

[spaceknox2]

TW

Left the house today with every intention of killing myself, left a note which I know my mum read whilst I was out, was out for 4 hours and not once did my mum contact me to see if I was okay. Regretting not taking my chance

[spaceknox2]

I just want to fucking die

[spaceknox2]

Can’t explain how much I loved this scene in the DLC

[spaceknox2]

I need a Marvel Spider-Man game with just SM and black cat

[spaceknox2]

So my dad called today after he found out that I had a condition that led to a few TIAs a few years back, not to check if I was okay or recovering well but to ask if he needs to be tested. What parent hears their child has a serious medical condition and their first thought is “shit hope I don’t have it”

[spaceknox2]

I want to kick the shit outta myself

[rbhvleo]

[juno-infernal]

i hate oversharing on this blue hellsite but like. what’s my alternative? talking to someone? another human? with words? i don’t fucking think so

[spaceknox2]

Well shit, it turns out I do have a type

[traumaeyed-deactivated20210519]

bpd things

money? yeah, you’re gonna spend it all on useless things like excessive amounts of food and clothes in hope of making yourself feel better. then you’ll regret it five minutes later

 you hate yet love everyone and everything. hate. love. hate. love. it’s a never ending, exhausting cycle of intense emotions. there’s no in between

someone doesn’t respond to your message in ten minutes? it’s time to make dramatic assumptions. do they suddenly hate you? are they dead? 

you’re slightly inconvenienced? it’s time to commit suicide

all your relationships fail and you just can’t seem to figure out why

 you feel like everyone is the same. you see the same pattern over and over again in your relationships and your friends

you feel happy for once? well guess what, in about seven minutes you’ll feel like throwing yourself into traffic because Johnny didn’t want to share his pencil with you

nothing is worse than the overbearing feeling of emptiness that follows you daily and haunts you like a ghost

you’re constantly angry. just the idea of someone breathing in your vicinity is infuriating 

baths? did you mean: self-harm hours? 

everyone is against you including yourself

who is that in the mirror? is that me? Why do I look like that? I can’t recognize myself

 i’m sorry, what did you say? repeat yourself again. and again. sorry, i didn’t hear you. again. repeat yourself for the fifth time, i wasn’t paying attention i guess

you’re useless unless you’re perfect

therapy? no

 oh, is that a character I relate to? let me obsess over them for the next nine months

 you’re the most evil and horrible person you know, yet simultaneously the most pure and naïve person you know

you feel like the devil when you say no to someone

how about I split on my best friend for the eighth time today for absolutely no reason!

am I abusive? am I like my abusers?

 they said something that seemed weird to me… are they going to leave me? Is this the end? Is this all there is? Should I leave them? Maybe I’ll just disappear

you hardly remember anything from before the age of 10

nothing is real. we’re all going to die. nothing matters.

maybe if I get high I won’t overthink everything!

[spaceknox2]

Read a text that says they love me so why am I convinced they hate me?

[memewhore]

[dogs99999]

I literally love being at home! In my own space! Comfortable! Not surrounded by people!