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All they want me to do is pretend

All they want me to do is to be fake happy

All they want is someone to use

All they want is someone to abuse

All I want is to be free

All I want is to be me

All they ever have seen was just my facade

All they ever had seen is just want they wanted to see

All I want to do is to feel like I’m not a failure

All I want is to know I’m honestly heard

All they do is blow smoke up my ass

All they do is lie and manipulate

All I ever needed was to be free

Free to be me, unapologetically me for once in my life

Free from the burdens I’ve felt since such a young age in life

For the freedom to just be me

#depression #stress #sad #my poerty #gif

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More like all the time

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Coming down off my amphetamine high that’s went on for a solid 2-3 months this time. It’s difficult to find it in me to do anything. Besides sleep, want to cry, and sleep. Being on it I don’t believe had me so messed up and then this all comes crashing down. Pretty sure my hookup got in trouble. Things have been crazy for those involved in any games where my hookup was living. Hope they are alright. Suffering through it cause I’m not ballsey enough to ask anyone else. Wish it didn’t have to end. I just wish I could function without it, thus the definition of addiction. I hadn’t exactly realized how dependent I had become to it being apart of my day to day routine. I know that it won’t be my relationship with amphetamine. But for now at lest I need to find out what is life being sober again.

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Дымным ветром тянуло с севера, Облака в пустоту проседью. Потерялись в траве забвения С виду взрослые дети осени. Исчезая с лучами заката, Забывая реальность, как сон, Становились самими собою - Изначальной вибрацией Ом. 2020