I'm sure you won't read this. But if you did, I'm sure you would not care. But I will say it anyway. I am Charie and I have a world to discover. At the age of 16, I may be nothing but an ant. For now, I will remain an ant amidst colonies. But I assure you. I will make a difference. And when that difference sets things right, please do remember that I was once an ant who was capable of nothing but dreaming, hoping and having faith. I am living a life which is a vessel of sadness. I would rather have an eternity of contentment, even if that eternity were fixed and frozen, like a butterfly mounted in a case.
Learn the difference between a man who flatters you and a man who compliments you. A man who spends money on you and a man who invests in you. A man who views you as property and a man who views you properly. A man who lusts after you and a man who loves you.
when I asked why we are always on different pages,
why we can’t ever get it right at the same time
he said because we are like a comet
that comes by every six years.
when I asked why he put his arm around me
he said because it was comfortable,
because I looked cold.
when I asked why he kissed me in my bed
he said he was acting out of lust.
when I asked why he whispered the sweetest words I’ve ever heard
he said he was just confused.
when I asked why it wasn’t me
he said because it was her.
when he asked why I still want to stick around, why I don’t hate him.
I said because you are my best friend,
the only person I share my chocolates with,
the only person I let have the last sip of my strawberry milkshake.
but what I really wanted to say was
because I am falling in love with you, you idiot.
so deeply fucking in love with you.