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“I admit, I really miss how things used to be. But I can also admit, that I’ve accepted the fact that things have changed.”

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I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE

Why

Why am I alive? I didn't ask for this. I didn't want it, I don't want it. Why was this forced on me? I just want to crawl into bed and never wake up. I start with one small thing and let my thoughts spiral down and down and downwards until there's nothing but self loathing, pity and disgust. What am I to you? Why won't you call me yours? Is it me, is it you or is it another person? What must I do to have you call me your boyfriend? You called that abusive piece of shit your boyfriend, and that guy you knew for a week, and I'm sure that guy you talked to online would have been no different. What did they do, say or act that I don't? Am I doing something wrong? Is there something that I'm missing?

It's been a long time since I've been this embarrassed. I just don't know what to do. The first time she wanted to have sex in a week, I cum so fast I don't even get her off. I'm so fucking embarrassed. I haven't gotten off that fast, ever and I don't know what happened. I need more control, but god am I embarrassed. I was just so fucking excited I guess. I wish I had controlled myself more. I need to work on that. I lasted for like 30 fucking seconds. I usually last for awhile. AHHHH

doll

weheartit

prevsad

I wish you felt as beautiful as I think you are.

(via thunder)

You re the only one I want to see. I just want more nights like that one.

Sad n lonely as duck tonight.

nakedly

I want you to drunk text me. I want you to think about me. Please fucking think about me sometimes because the only thing I do is think about you

(via nakedly)

snailfrick

Wish u were here kissin me and I was kissin u

I crave your attention. All the time. It's not healthy so can you stop fucking toying with me or using me or whatever the fuck you're doing.

I regret not saying yes the last night we spent together. I thought we wouls have one more night. I wanted to so badly. Do you really view me as a brother? When did you start to feel that way?

Why do I lay awake at night thinking about you? Missing holding you, missing kissing you.

tootsieboy-deactivated20171122

You ever look at a girl like “she can’t be real”

ssendasfonoics-blog

Every day with you. Every. Day.

Idk how i fucking feel right now

I dont know how I feel right now.

I liiiike yoooouuuu.

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