The Skinny Space Cowboy Says Good Night and Be Content
Struggling to find my old writingĀ āflowā can be a little like losing weight. Well, kind of.
The good news is: I lost 5 pounds this week. Hey, cool, congratulations. Right? (Note to the nervous: No pounds were actually misplaced and forgotten.)
The bad news is: This is the same handful of pounds Iāve lost over and over again in recent years. And even earlier in my weight narrative. I just re-added those pounds in the last few weeks, so the overall result isnāt there for me yet.
So, I can be more satisfied with my weekās progress by look at the week in isolation from the weeks and months that came before it.
Now letās consider how Iāve been working on developing my writing habit .. and not yet finding theĀ āflowā or, really, not even finding time to pour into any writing project of scale.
If youāve glanced at my writing blog, youāve seen me mention my runs of consecutive writing days. Not writing of any quantity, but at least a few sentences every single day. Thatās the goal. Today: 137.
137 consecutive days gets me a self-pat on the back. Nice going, bud.
And at the same time, as Lennon would add a drop of acid to a McCartney tune, I wonder how Iāve wandered so far from my teenage manic typing self for whom stories just .. poured. What I have come to know asĀ āflow stateā and where I need to drive this progression back to my writing self. (Note to the anxious: I in no way referencedĀ ādropping acidā, happy to leave that activity to the Beatles.)
The journey Iām making back to that writing capability suddenly felt akin to the overall weight control journey. A long and winding road.
May your journey proceed apace. May your steps be mostly in the same, and correct, direction. May the distance of your goal not overwhelm the steps you were able to take today. Camp out tonight, heat some arbonaster and beans over the heatstim pack, scratch your scroungy pet zorniak on its neck before turning in for the night, and rest well for tomorrowās steps.