St4rl1ght3169

he/him :3, saw 🧩🌀🪚 16 🏳️‍⚧️ i luv my bf <3 ao3: St4rl1ght3169 (pls go read my fics...)

[st4rl1ght3169]

Fandoms im in because I said that I hoped people would post their fandoms before I followed them and realised I dont have mine posted...

saw: saw is my favourite film franchise, it has been since I was little and I love chainshipping. Saw 2004 is my favourite saw film hence chainshipping and im currently working on a saw fanfiction!

robots (2005): this was one of my favourite childhood films and I love the animation, the characters and the films plot! unfortunately it is quite a small fandom which has little fanfics 💔

modern baseball: Mobo is my favourite band and I love their music! my favourite song of theirs changes often but currently is Alpha Kappa Fall Of Troy the Movie Part Deux (long name i know...) bring back MoBo 2026 🙏

Scott pilgrim: I love Scott pilgrim, I think the film style for Scott Pilgrim vs the world is so cool and despite only reading the comics when I sit in the cafe at waterstones I would love to actually get them one day! Aswell, the anime style show is super cool

TADC: I recently watched the amazing digital circus, thanks to my lovely boyfriend! My absolute fav character is kinger bro is so kewl and i love him 🙏

I have more things that I am interested in but it would go on for ages if I listed all the films, shows and media I enjoyed this would go on for ages... okay byeee!!

song of the day: Asleep by The Smiths because it is a fire song to well fall asleep to 🙏

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So convinced ive failed my gcses its insane... okay not all of them which is good but right ill js go through my thought process. Maths i think ive failed I barely scrape 4s in maths in every exam ive done except for the one beautiful beam of hope which is the 5 i got once... but yeah i found the papers so bad and i think i either got a 4 or a 3 i wont have gotten a 2 but yeah its a 50/50. english lit which im devastated about if im honest, I hardly did one of the papers which i have never done before and with my usual grades of both the papers i think i will have gotten a 3 which is hilarious considering i almost picked it as an A-level when i thought i would do well. anywaysss I also think i will have gotten a 43 in science which annoys me because i worked so god damn hard to move to higher tier so hard since year 9 andddd i didn't do my bio paper or atleast one if them and 4/6 of the papers were an absolute guessing game for me!! idk about media and mandarin i mean ive failed mandarin before so that's lovely and media there is two papers, once i got a 3 on one paper and an 8 on the second one and it rounded to a low 4 🥰 currently practicing how i will tell my mum and dad this if it comes to it on results day because it's genuinely looking like i might have to. Im hoping i dont and im not gonna get pissy about my grades when i dont have them yet but lets just hold out hope. atleast my family kinda expect it i asked my mum for help revising maths and mandarin and she said not to bother because it's easier if i fail without revising than if i fail after putting work into it.

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Kinger plushie has officially been educated everyone congratulate him 🥹

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another post because it is 2am and i have woken up, ill try sleep again but i keep on thinking and its stopping me from sleeping. I also am an extremely jealous person. Im not tryna post all this shit in a pick me way i promise its just i keep thinkin and i can't sleep because of it. I would again hope people wouldn't know im a jealous person, i think i do a rather good job of hiding it because other ppl shouldn't have to put up with my bs if im jealous, plus it's usually not with people i know personally, because im quite happy they are happy! :3

its just for example, if i know someone but not well, and they do cool shit and go to parties and do fun things i get jealous, i think it largely stems from feeling left out, considering i would probably not enjoy parties or having loads of friends. for example idk oh yesh oksy so dude who does my piercings- obvs i dont know him that well- maybe a little but not much we ain't friends ofc. i do however follow him on instagram because he posts his piercing work and schedule on there, aswell as stuff he does idk life stuff. He does cool shit and idk i would like to go to concerts and be able to hike and do shit that requires money.

It makes me feel so silly being jealous of grown adults- we have COMPLETELY different lives, know completely different people but i still find a way to feel jealous of people i dont even know that well.

probably don't make sense as i am exhausted but i doubt people will see this, which im glad i dont really want them to im not bothered i just needed to get it out

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I actually think im quite a selfish person a lot of the time. I hope i dont come off this way to other people, but i feel selfish. I know its not possible to make everyone happy all at once whilst making myself happy but i do try and im trying to realise that its okay if i cannot do everything.

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I am so not excited to turn 17. Okay yeah my birthday is in like 2 months but my friend bought it up today how its almost our birthdays (hers is the day after mine) and how she is super excited and i am just not at all, infact im dreading it if im honest.

I dont want to be 17, I feel bad for turning 17. I dont have a job which kinda sucks i suppose. Feeling dysphoric makes me hate getting older, I used to imagine turning 18 and magically it would all be okay and I would get top surgery and go on testosterone and i dont think that will happen- definitely not at 18. I want to be able to drive but who knows when that will happen because there is no way in hell my parents or me can afford that- ive never been good at saving the money i do have. I sit on my ass all day smoking which i have taken up more than vaping now i think. My mum leaves cigarettes out, She knows i take em she just never asks. She keeps on asking if i have eating problems but i just don't feel hungry that often and when i do i feel sick when i eat so i just don't enjoy it really.

I am excited to turn 17 with my boyfriend- he is the one part of my future I am excited about!

I feel bad asking for things for my birthday because my parents can't afford it, even if there is stuff i want. If anything I just want to get more piercings really- they wont let me but I love getting piercings the make me feel better tbh.

Im not sad right now i dont think, i just like getting everything out into writing because it makes me feel a little more free of what i am feeling in a way, Ill go smoke and feel fine again!

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part 2 of my lovely little rant 🙏 im used to him sayin i look bad, Ive learned to take it as a compliment in all honesty or just ignore it because i can't remember the last time he said anything nice about my appearance and it dont bother me really, he hates my peircings and he makes it clear everytime i get them, he hates the way i dress, my hair, He didn't let me go to my grandmas birthday because i 'looked bad' and he didn't like my peircings and hair eventho i offered to hide them for her birthday. I have permission to post this rant but I will not give my sisters name- she doesn't feel confident in how she looks at all which I get. So when my dad says she looks bad it fucking gets to me like she was excited about dying her hair, she had wanted it for months now and to have my dad say it looks awful genuinely breaks my heart for her, I try to stand up for her and stuff but I tend to cry when Im being yelled at so it aint very intimidating. I just wish for once even if he didnt like it just say oh im glad you like it, HAIRDYE WASHES OUT. IT WILL GO AWAY IF U DONY LIKE IT...

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okay change of plans we are going on a walk 2 get out of the house 🙏🙏 yayyy! :3

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so um what episode does my dad fall into a deep dark abyss? no one gets to fucking say my sister looks like shit. "no one dyes their hair without me fucking saying next time" COMPLIMENT YOUR GOD DAMN CHILD WHO THOUGHT THEY LOOKED NICE FOR ONCE AS IF WE DIDNT TELL YOU IT WAS HAPPENING. dont storm off like the pussy you are because the first thing you yell at your kid in the morning is "what have you done to your hair it looks disgusting"- she thought it looked nice for the first time in ages. I made toast with her and my dad starts yelling "go clean up right now dont take a bite of that god damn food it can wait" YOU GO CLEAN UP IT IS YOUR MESS IN YOUR ROOM. I chucked the toast it got cold. Im gonna watch a show with her because i feel bad probably something funny to lighten the mood or something. avoiding him like the plague today untill my mum gets home 😭🙏

[bovanova]

hello! I want to thank you for single handedly holding up the entire robots fandom on ao3! I have read many of your robots fanfictions and they are super cool!! Thank you!! When I think of robots fanfiction on ao3 I think of your username and have been reading them for a while now!! :3 Not really an ask so I hope this is okay!!

Oh my goodness, thank you! This is so nice of you to say! I feel so flattered. It's funny because sometimes I feel silly for writing fanfic, but I always get super happy when people actually love my stories. 🥹 I can't believe that I've written 48 Robots fanfics already.

But really, thank you for reading my stories and loving them, it means so much to me. More Robots stories will definitely come. I'm also happy to know that I'm carrying the robots fandom with my stories. This movie deserves recognition and I'm glad I've delivered.

Once more, thank you 😊

[st4rl1ght3169]

Sometimes i genuinely miss being an alcoholic/drinking without a second thought until i remember shaking and thowing up all over my bed at 3 in the morning because i couldn't stand up to get to the bathroom and then spraying deodorant on the vomit and passing out on the floor next to my bed because i couldn't figure out how to get down the stairs and work the washing machine as well as bashing my head against the wall because i felt so ill and i was panicking that i couldn't see properly so i figured that it would make me throw up quicker. ANYWAYSSSS go find my ao3 guys its St4rl1ght3169 i promise i sometimes write good things!! (please go read my stuff and comment on it i only have one fic up it wont take long... gulp) (the fics are rather explicit please read the tags beforehand...)

song of the day is: Father by The Front Bottoms because well it is higkey relatable 4 some parts of it and if its not relatable then its just fire 🙏

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Found out this morning that my dad is a reform voter after I dyed my hair and he told me I look like one of them 'liberal activists' (I would vote green not liberal but wtv) and he said 'reform is the only way to support this country'. I hope he knows that he is voting away the rights of two of his children and many others. Can't wait till i can vote to cancel his out.

[faulkner-ihardlyknowher]

sometimes i'll watch a news story or stumble across an article about jigsaw and they'll call him john kramer. which is his name. but i can't fucking believe my torment stems from a guy named john.

[zomqiedog]

when i say “i don’t give a crap if you covered yourself in peanut butter and had a 15 hooker gangbang!” but nobody gets my reference.

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genuinely have the sweetest boyfriend ever like bro i opened a book that he brought me and it has a little note inside from when he bought it i genuinely almost had tears i am smiling so much rn i think its asleep rn but when i tell u that he is so sweet i mean it.

song of the day: class of 2013 by mitski because it is very beautiful :3

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i love my boyfriend so incredibly much like i will just sit on the phone with him whilst hes sleeping and its so nice to just be with it, i love just even being around him, i think its so caring and he actually takes an interest in me and my life, i love him so much

song of the day: My Love by modern baseball because its so fire 🙏

[daciancatamite]