[starryheir]

pleaae just

stop hurting me 

stop hurting yourself

why cant we just talk

[starryheir]

why am i such a shitty boyfriend all the fucking time

why do you call me the light of your life if i only hurt you

why do you do this to yourself

[starryheir]

SHOW SOME EMOTION TOWARDS

ME

ANYTHING

DONT FAKE IT ANYMORE

[starryheir]

not to be dramatic but i honest to god feel like crying for the third time today and it hurts it hurts it hurts why wont you talk to me why do you keep pushing me away and then saying im the one who doesnt love you i know you love me why wont you just speak to me if im doing everything so wrong why dont you jsut go off on me PELASE

[starryheir]

wanna kms but whats new lawl

[starryheir]

WHY

WONT

YOU

JUST

TALK

TO

ME

LIKE

IM

A

PERSON

[starryheir]

i get vagued and vagued and vagued but god forbid i confront you and try and fix things

i just wanted you to be more honest with me

being told not to do something isnt the problem

being specifically not told what im doing wrong or being treated aggressively is

im not a mind reader, i only know so much

[starryheir]

i dotn get to vague or speak up for myself ever its not allowed i Guess

[starryheir]

if you want me dead just lmk! im always happy to please

[redportrait]

[oaksmoke]

[starryheir]

[himari-takakura-deactivated2016]

Just abuse things

- “IM SORRY IM SORRY IM SORRY!!” - “you arent mad at me right? Oh my god you are! IM SORRY” - “is this my for me? Can I use this? Can I drink this? Can I-” - “pls help me make this decision for me” - “do what you please!!!” “What if that makes everyone mad at me” -studying people intensely because you are afraid you might do something that will make them mad - Saying something in a tone louder than usual and feeling like this is your last day alive - low self stem - feeling mentally and emotionally exhausted after expressing any sort of feeling and crying right after that - when someone talks or does something in an attitude thats not usual from them and Knowing That It’s Your Fault - “i dont deserve this why are you doing this for me” - not knowing the difference between a joke, sarcasm, and passive aggressive speech - unhealthily clinging to anyone who’s remotely nice to you - not knowing what to say NEVER - not knowing how to react to compliments, nice words, genuine care or anything like that and feeling incredibly sick at the thought of someone genuinely loving you - Crying. - having to explain every single movement and word you do and say to literally anyone - being really good at lying and pretending as a survival strategy - Not living, surviving. - calculating and overthinking everything you do and say, the time you say it, how you say it, the expression you have when you say it, your voice tone…everything - getting panic attacks over the tiniest things - unhealthily clinging to fictional characters and shows - lack of energy to do anything because you use a lot of effort in every single movement you do - “im useless” - when someone compliments you on something and you needing to be Perfect at it because then you dont have any reason to live - intrusive thoughts - Perfectionism - Over sensitiveness - “It’s my fault.” - not knowing how to react about criticism - Isolation - getting startled when someone touches you - being hyperaware of your surroundings and at the same time having no time and space perception - believing everything everyone says - Feeling like any day is your last day

[utara-north-deactivated20200707]

Wow I… wow.

[thingsmyxxxsaid]

Things My Exes Said // #512 Submitted by (palek)

[traumathoughts]

[traumathoughts]

i am nothing without you i worship you

[traumathoughts]

I can feel myself blanking out, I don’t want this to happen again.