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my knee has apparently decided that spontaneously subluxating is something it does now. I tried to tough it out at work for an hour or two (tbh, less toughing it out and more overwhelmed by pain to the point that i couldnt figure out how to leave and hoping it fixed itself which it did not). I am. Not happy about this

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My knee is out again and i still dont know what is causing it or what to do. Other than go home. Which is a bandaid solution.

#At least i went home faster this time #Waiting for the 2nd bus #It hurts. So bad.

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Eden Kalif, Good Cats

#Very chuckovian #Art #Cats

I threw something successfully !!! Finally !

This started out as about 1.5 pounds of clay that I kept fucking up and bits would come off and like half of it would still be on the wheel and I'd think well theres no need to center a new lump of clay I might as well just neaten this one up. That happened 4 times until I finally did it correctly

This is a terrible shape but that just means I can practice trying to trim a bad shape into a good shape

I actually made a second thing but after I took it off the wheel I poked it gingerly thinking Man this one is not gonna make it and immediately cracked. So... I was right lol.

Turns out I was not using nearly enough water and also because my hands are not strong anymore I really just need to practice doing smaller pieces that I can actually control. Good to know !

#I am very happy #Im really excited to finally get to try trimming #I fully expect to destroy this on accident bc so far i have proven to be a master of Gouging Shit Accidentally #But still !#Im actually pretty pleased with how thin the walls are :)#Also i am going to just make a pottery sideblog so that i no longer jumpscare people with my Extreme Beginner Pottery Skillz #Pottery

uuugh. accessibility button on the front door for my building is broken and due to the distance between the fob to unlock the door and the actual handle and my abilities and speed in my wheelchair, i literally cannot open the front door and have to just wait for a random passerby to open it for me which i hate doing. so naturally i submitted a maintenance request..... they fixed it temporarily and then it broke about 8 hours later, and now they are marking my additional maintenance requests as completed within like. 3 minutes. and not fixing it. and its still broken. and i had to wait ten minutes for someone walking by to help me. rent is about $3.25 per square foot by the way.

#im so mad. unfortunately for me the office hours for the property manager are 9-5 monday-friday which is when im at work #and they have never once answered the phone #i am considering not paying rent until its fixed but if that blows up in my face it would be real bad #on the other hand not being able to get into my building without someone else opening the door is also real bad #wheelchair user

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Carmen Maria Machado, In the Dream House

#I think about this so often #Poetry

Was able to get my wheelchair control readjusted so its almost flat rather than the extremely steep angle its been at and omg. I had not realized how much it was hurting my entire arm until now.

#The wheelchair clinic that occasionally comes into my clinic to help anyone with a minor repairs on a mobility aid is the singular thing #That employees can access and im very glad i can at least do that. Apparently most places around here if you work at a doctors office #They will also help you for acute needs and sometimes ongoing care but not here lol #But whatever . This is so much better than it was !#It was originally like a 45 degree angle which sucked and then i ran into a door and it wrenched it to basically straight up and down #Now its maybe 10 degrees #No wonder my whole right arm has been so fucked up #Wheelchair user #Powerchair user #One of these i will figure out how to actually contact kaisers dme to get real repairs....

At this point ive put a solid 8 hours into trying to figure out wheel throwing and i have gotten not quite nowhere but very close to nowhere. Im either fucking up centering or im fucking up pulling or both but i honestly cant tell which or whats wrong with it.

I WILL figure it out but its times like these that i remember i am the worlds slowest learner especially with no teacher and it is a frustrating process trying to crack anything with even a medium learning curve.

#At this point i do think im good enough at the skill of Learning New Skills #To know that i just need to keep trying and analyzing my mistakes as best i can and seeking different perspectives on how to do it #But in the meantime it is very frustrating #I have gotten to the stage of 'horrific wonky shapes but technically i did throw it' like maybe 5 times #And just failed well before that all the other times #The good news is im a lot better at wedging clay now. Because ive re-wedged this 5 pounds of earthenware about 20 times #The main slowdown is i dont have plaster or concrete or anything to dry it on so when i fail at the clay enough its too wet to use #And i have to just let it air dry a day or two until its useable again #Im making some valuable mistakes but thats not very rewarding in the moment lol #But yeah it is a little odd to be in a position where my hands have no idea what to do #Usually theyre the only ones who know whats going on lol.#Pottery

Supervisors love to say things like "what are you talking about, we've always done it this way" in regards to changes made 5 fucking minutes ago

#My supervisor is pissing me off :) again :)#She told me off in front of the whole team for following an old procedure that changed 3 business days ago WHEN I WAS OUT #I was not there for the change and nobody told me !!!#And then she quietly was like did i send the email saying we dont do x anymore #No she did not. And interesting use of 'anymore' i thought we never ever did x according to you just now #But whatever !!!#Its been some bullshit recently im not gonna lie #< it has never not been some bullshit #Work woes

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has anyone noticed recently that it's expensive

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times like these really make you appreciate pouring river water in your socks

#Im always saying this

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You have to be somewhere at 9:00am. It will take you approximately 30 minutes to get there, so you will need to leave by 8:30 to get there on time. About what time will you plan to wake up?

8:30

8:00

7:30

7:00

Before 7:00

WAY before 7:00

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Voting ended onMay 27

Thanks, Anon!

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#Poll #Way before 7 #I need a minimum of 2 hours of not speaking or being around people in the morning before i am capable of peopleing #Ideally more like 3 #So like for work i need to leave the house a bit after 6 which means getting up at 4am is cutting it close #Also if i am going somewhere i dont often go (which is what the poll suggests imo) then i also factor in a minimum of 1/2 hour of Idiot Tim #Into my travel times in case i misunderstand the transit system like an idiot (which happens frequently)

I have gotten so much done in my apartment in the last week (ive improved my pacing significantly so im not spending 5 hours a day cleaning because that was a quick recipe for disaster) but i feel like either ive hit a wall or maybe i just need several break days.

Unfortunately for me, my mom is visiting and coming over tomorrow and i dont want to deal with her reaction to a messy apartment more than i want to lay down and not move. So... still cleaning

#I feel like im accomplishing things at the pace of a salted slug

I ended up buying some (extremely cheap) pottery supplies including a wheel that will, if im lucky, work well enough and long enough for me to determine if this is a physically viable hobby for me and also if i enjoy it. Still waiting on the wheel but the clay arrived ! I practiced wedging half of it (hard to tell how i did without actually using it so i didnt spend that much time on it) and also made a Preliminary Guy.

Details are rough because he is approximately half of the size of a spice jar lid. And also because i dont know how to do what i wanted to. But here he is nonetheless.

#My plan basically is to throw the clay a few times and recycle everything i make until i feel like ive got some basics down #I definitely do not want to put bad stuff in a community kiln and ruin other peoples stuff from my own careless inexperience #But i have a list of small things i want to try making and am very excited #Wheel hopefully arrives this weekend !! Ordered it a couple weeks ago after calculating my 3 paycheck budget #'Cheap wheel' is probably an understatement so i am very hopeful it actually works well enough to use #Also i think its funny also being a spinner because im already accustomed to the concept #Of a Vital and Lovely Wheel

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yesterday i saw The clouds ever

#Those are some good clouds...#Photography #The mood in here

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This is borderline pornography for me the way I want all these in my mouth and body

#i am making more dumplings this weekend but it cant come soon enough

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self-awareness check, list five things you like that aren't media pieces in the tags now ‼️

#Fiber arts #Houseplants #Vegetables #My cat #Sunrises

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imagine if you hired a painter to paint your house and you tell them you want it blue and then you come back to see theyre in the middle of painting your house pink so you go hey stop. thats not what i asked for. and theyre like i just dont want to ruin your lovely house this color suits it so much better trust me. and you go No, i asked for blue give me blue??? and the painter is like alright alright. and then they paint your house purple and when you go this still isnt blue they say i simply cant paint your house blue. this is the compromise. and then you still have to pay them for their work even though you are now going to have to either hire another painter or just figure out how to paint ur own house to get it how you actually wanted. thatd be crazy right. so anyway i prefer to cut my own hair at home

#You try to get one haircut while transsexual and this is what happens #I havent had someone else cut my hair since i was like 14 or 15 #It helps that ive had a buzzcut for a lot of that but even if i wanted a complicated haircut no way !!#Also tbh everything else about it is the worst as well. Have to sit in front of a huge mirror. Stranger touching your head. No thank you !!

Flew too close to the sun with the chores this weekend--did very nearly all of them (28/31) and then woke up this morning feeling like id been hit by a bus.

Ive drawn the following conclusion from this: adderall makes me more efficient at everything by a factor of 10, which includes overworking myself and running my body into the ground. In that way it is kind of dangerous.

Called out from work due to the aforementioned 'feeling like i got hit by a bus' and also didnt take any adderall because i was worried id write a new to do list and make it even worse.

Difference is night and day. Took me 4 tries to put on a pair of socks because i kept getting distracted.

#I mean its good to know its working #But i gotta figure out how to not do this again because its not gonna go well for me

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