a collection of observations

Photos of everything I find beautiful or interesting. Photos all by Alisa Sadilek (amss). If you have any questions, or would like to purchase a print, feel free to ask.

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I lost today it was like I gave it away and I'm left feeling hopeless helpless worthless a mess, and my emotions hold me hostage

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I am somehow living, but without a single feeling the numbness echoes as it ebbs into my soul

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there could be passion but I lost it somewhere the echoes of it haunt me running circles without care

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this change in me is scary a new version of myself will I hate them more and am I left to dwell? on who I thought I could be instead of who I am either way its pointless I exist as one can

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wide awake and waiting for what? I couldn't say but I'm alive and I am breathing just as well, one could say

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I can't hide it from my face this hollow ache that takes away this weariness that seeps inside all I'm left with is a sigh

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I forgot I could feel and that blinded me to the pain it kept me going but lost all the same

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barely holding on to a weight I cannot bear it hurts me to push forward but somehow I am here

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swirling emotions poison me from within I can't fight this feeling that I'm drowning while I swim

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who I am and who I was will never be the same I'm not entirely new but I'm incapable of being who I once was I am forever changed.

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what words could be said that I haven't already uttered they pierce at me and painfully push me to speak more

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I used to have hope, I think in the hopeless mire I found myself I used to think, maybe but then let myself be swallowed by rage and now I think impossible why bother, nothing changes. and yet it never the same

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I wish I had the energy I once did to push back and fight against whatever it was that I fought I'm not sure who I was or what I was doing but now, I wonder what have I lost?

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my soul it aches endlessly every thought that leads to you is kept alive with me and yet you're not

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can I find my voice as an anchor giving breath to meaning and regard towards choice I hold purpose and consequence as though they have weight this heaviness it burdens but is needed all the same

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I feel my sanity fading like tenterhooks coming undone and all that's left is this sense of loss