Men moaning, men whimpering, men crying, men growling, men groaning, men begging, men yearning, men pleading, men who are desperate, men who are givers, men who are touchy, men who are switchyβ¦the list goes on
Sukuna would definitely eat your corpse after you die. No, he's not desecrating you. He simply does not want your body to bear his burdens any longer. You did not need to share his burdens anymore as that is what had gotten you killed.
Burying you meant someone would defile you. Disturb you. Use your corpse against him because at the end of the day, humans and sorcerers alike would do anything to break the wretched four eyed demon that brings chaos and destruction where ever he went.
He doesn't cook you. Prefers to eat you raw to savor your exquisite taste. He would take his time to savor each bite. His mind replaying each and every memory he had spend with you as he chews on your flesh slowly. From the day he had met you to the day he had lost you.
He saves your heart for the last and when he sinks his teeth into the organ, he thinks back to the time you had taken his large hand into your smaller ones and placed it against your chest, showing him just how wildly your heart beats for him.
I love you. You had admitted to him shyly.
And then nothing but a deep pool of blood remains on the futon the two of you had shared together as Sukuna looks up and gazes at the forest from the parted shoji screen of his bedroom.
β§ warnings/content: miya osamu x fem!reader, sfw, fake dating au, angst to fluff,
β§ GUTS masterlist, regular masterlist
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It all started when Miya Atsumu said that you would never be able to find anyone who could put up with you. And you would have taken that with a grain of salt, if Miya Atsumu wasn't your ex who also happened to be a thorough asshole.
βWell you dated me didnβt you?!βΒ
βAnd we broke up, duh.β he says flippantly.Β
You clam up at that. You know heβs just saying things. He doesnβt mean it and heβs a complete moron. But itβs been almost a year since the break-up and not a single man has even offered to buy you a drink. Are you going to have to resort to making a Hinge profile?Β
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βI donβt know why ya let him get to ya. Heβs just a moron,β Osamu says.Β
βYou have to say that, heβs your brother,β you grumble.Β
βTrue. But he is an idiot.βΒ
You plop your face heavily into the elbow resting on the counter and blow raspberries in one big exhale.Β
βDonβt get yer spit all over where my customers eat.βΒ
You grunt, turning over to watch Osamu work behind the counter.Β
βDo you think Iβm unlovable?β you ask.
βHuh?βΒ
βThere must be a reason no oneβs asked me out on a date in the past 8 months, right?βΒ
Osamu sighs, dropping off a plate of food in front of you. βIβm not gonna answer that.β Then he turns with his back facing you to fiddle with something on the other side of the kitchen.Β
βWhy not?βΒ
He exhales through his nose, quiet, but you hear it.Β
He doesnβt get the chance to answer because the door swings open to reveal Osamuβs twin. You jolt up, fixing your posture, self-conscious about letting Atsumu think his words are getting to you.Β
And rightfully so because Atsumu acts like a shark that smells blood. His lips curl up into what he thinks is a smirk, but resembles much more of a snarl.Β
βWhatβs up with ya,β he asks oh-so-innocently.Β
You have no good response and feel your face heating up in embarrassment when Osamu swoops in.Β
βAre ya gonna sit down or just block my door? βCause I got people that actually pay to eat here.βΒ
Atsumu starts yelling something at Osamu but simmers down into the seat next to you and mumbles something to himself, no doubt some choice words for his brother. It gives you momentary reprieve from Atsumuβs provocation which is the last thing you need right now with your self-esteem in the dumps.Β
The break is temporary though, because like a true creature with short-term memory and a propensity for being a prick, Atsumu circles back to the topic when heβs done eating.Β
βSo, found a guy to take you out?βΒ
βWhat makes you think Iβd answer that question,β you bite back. Weak, but itβs all you have.Β
βHah,β he scoffs. βI knew it. Ya canβt find anyone.βΒ
You feel the irritation boiling like a witchβs cauldron inside of you, brewing a mix of resentment, mortification, and the tiniest streak of competitiveness. Atsumu not shutting up for the rest of the night is the final ingredient that makes your red hot concoction boil over. It goes a bit like this:Β
βTell me if ya want me to set ya up with someone from the team. Might be the only chance ya get at this rate,β he teases.Β
βNo thanks,β you hiss. βIβll have you know that Iβm dating Osamu, widely known as the better Miya.β You point smugly at Osamu whose back is currently to you both.Β
βWhat!β Atsumu yells. βOsamu? And you?βΒ
With Osamuβs back to you, you canβt see his face, but all your fingers and toes are crossed that heβll play along so that you donβt burn up in a gas of complete humiliation.Β
When Osamu turns around, his eyes go to you first. They search yours for something β what, you donβt know. He apparently finds it because he blinks away and tells his brother to mind his own business, neither denying nor validating your claim.Β
It might as well be confirmation though, because Atsumu squawks in indignation, sputtering his disbelief. Osamu continues to bicker with his brother, keeping him occupied enough to not realize that he was slowly being backed out of the restaurant.Β
When Osamu slams the door on Atsumu and twists the lock in a dramaticized show of finality, Atsumu finally gives up, yelling a muffled βIβll be back.β through the windows. You could laugh at the duo if Osamu didnβt turn around and fix you with a look, similar to that of a responsible older brother scolding a child.Β
βNow yer turn. What was that about?β
βOsamu! You heard the way he was talking to me. I just canβt stand it!βΒ
βHave ya thought this through? Howβs this supposed to end, huh? We break up and Atsumu goes back to making fun of ya?β
You open your mouth to beg, because itβs always worked with Osamu. He always gives in. But heβs not done, apparently.Β
ββLeast ya couldβve done is ask me out, not use me to get through yer petty grudge with βTsumu.βΒ
That shuts you up. When you look at Osamu, heβs not looking at you. His eyes are downcast, distracting himself by wiping up the counter. Itβs so brief that you convince yourself that you imagined the hurt in his voice.Β
ββSamuβ¦βΒ
βForget it. Iβll do it, but ya better have it thought out because Iβm not helping ya anymore than this.βΒ
It should be a win and any other time, you would wrap him up in a bear hug and shower him with thanks, but the defeated way Osamu concedes makes you solemnly finish your meal. It feels unfitting to say thank you.Β
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Your first stint as Osamuβs girlfriend comes in the form of a friendβs dinner party. Since the night you forced Osamu to be your boyfriend, you have been back at Onigiri Miya to hang out, but have painfully tiptoed around the topic. The thought has occurred to you that you and Osamu should agree upon a backstory, but you havenβt had the courage to breach the topic after the way Osamu reacted.Β
He had just nodded when you asked him to attend this dinner party with you. And with that, he had dutifully picked you up at your apartment, perfectly on time. You had expected a stone-faced Osamu all night, but he had surprised you with a sweet smile, one that youβre used to being on the receiving end of. But it somehow feels different tonight. Maybe itβs the fact that heβs supposed to be smiling at you as your lover tonight. It was easy, the way he had held out his arm for you, no awkwardness in sight.Β
At dinner, Osamu makes no move to let go of your hand, going as far as to intertwine your fingers under the table. When any one asks how the two of you began dating, he squeezes to tell you heβll handle this. Youβre grateful and you feel undeservingly spoiled as you watch him. He looks around the room, drifts his gaze back to you where his lips flicker upwards for the tiniest second, then looks back at the crowd to flash a mysterious, close-lipped smile. You can barely hear the dinner table go wild with jeers and Atsumu squawking as you gawk at Osamuβs act.
And it goes on.Β
As you eat, he keeps your fingers clasped between his, laid on his lap. Atsumu gives you two the stink-eye, questioning why Osamu was eating with his left hand. Youβre pretty sure your eyes are bulging out of your head at this point, because Osamu flushes. Osamu is blushing as he reluctantly lets go of your hand, making a show out of placing your hand back on your own lap and mumbling a heavily-accented apology at no one in particular.Β
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When dinner finally ends, the party migrates to the living room. Osamu doesnβt need to ask, perfectly picking your favorite after-dinner drink of choice as he chooses a beer for himself. He has once again claimed your hand in his. His grip is tight and when you try to slip your hand out to get some space, he holds tighter.Β
You lean up to whisper in his ear, βOsamu, my hands are sweaty.βΒ
He leans down to hear you better, but stands back up when he registers your comment. He ignores you, only squeezing twice, as if telling you to behave for him. Your head spins; youβve never dated like this before.Β
Being with Atsumu was like living in a comically unrealistic sit-com, like you were constantly finding yourself in situations and having conversations that belong in a Tom and Jerry episode. He argued with you about everything, had an ego, and a temper. A particularly memorable moment was when he was still courting you, trying to convince you to date him by saying, βIβm six foot two.βΒ
βDude, nice try,β you had said.Β
But somehow, right now, with Osamu standing by your side and towering over you, you think that if this younger twin used that line on you right now, youβd fold in half for him. As if you wouldnβt with all the sweet nothings heβs lavished on you in this one night.Β
He only lets you get away when you embarrassingly whisper to him that you need a bathroom break.Β
βIβll walk with ya.βΒ
βNo!β you exclaim. You lower your voice when he stares at you. βItβs okay, βSamu. Iβll be right back, okay?βΒ
He backs off and you finally get away from his orbit.Β
Finally alone, you barely pull yourself together. You stare at your reflection in the mirror, slapping your cheeks lightly to pry the strange daze from your eyes. You canβt get carried away here. Osamu is doing you a favor, one he isnβt fond of. You canβt get used to Osamu treating you like this. Itβs borrowed time.Β
You splash water onto your face, waiting until the chill seeps into your cheeks that have been painfully hot since Osamu picked you up tonight.Β
As you exit the bathroom, Atsumu is there waiting for you in the hallway.Β
βIβm onto ya,β he starts.Β
You scoff, immediately putting your facade back on. Itβs easy with Atsumu. βOh please, Atsumu. Youβre just jealous.βΒ
It doesn't phase Atsumu the way you hope. βSuch a weak comeback. Sounds like something youβd say to disguise the fact that yer playinβ my brother.β
Your brother is the one playing me.
βWhatever, Atsumu,β you say, walking away, taking Osamuβs advice to not let Atsumu get to you.Β
βI bet ya forced my brother to pretend to be yer boyfriend. I know my brother and I know you. Just admit it.β He smirks. βItβs okay that no one wants to date ya. Nothinβ to be ashamed of.βΒ
The fact that even Atsumu, even all of his stupidity, sees right through you makes you feel hot. Youβre grateful that youβve already turned away from him because you could not take much more damage tonight. Nothing would end you in a worse way than Atsumu seeing that he could make you cry.Β Β
Or maybe itβs the fact that Atsumu doesnβt, for one second, believe that someone like his brother could fall for someone like you. Maybe no one does. Maybe everyone here just thinks that youβre making this up and theyβre playing along to help you save face.Β
It takes everything in you to keep your steps and breathing even as you take the walk back to Osamu to compose yourself.Β
Itβs useless apparently because Osamu seems right through you. He immediately offers to take you to the balcony, explaining to everyone that you need some fresh air to cut through the alcohol youβve had.Β
His silent understanding makes it worse because it makes it clear that youβre an open book. The act you put on is completely pointless because no one believes you anyway.Β
Osamu guides you to the balcony and shuts the door behind him, leaving the two of you alone.Β
He joins you at the railing, draping his jacket over you. You know he knows that you want to avoid looking into his eyes, just as much as he knows you want to avoid having this conversation altogether. He sighs.Β
βWhy do ya let him get to you like that?βΒ
You look back at him, eyes widening at the tone he rarely takes with you. His eyes are fixed forward, arms still dutifully wrapped around you, ever the dedicated boyfriend. But as his gaze flickers to you momentarily, you catch the weight of his question in his eyes.Β
βWho?β you mumble.Β
But Osamuβs not in the mood. He stays silent, letting the question hang in the air.Β
βI donβt knowβ¦ I justβ¦βΒ
βAre ya still in love with my brother?βΒ
βNo,β you answer honestly.Β
Osamu raises his brows.Β
βNo, but Iβve known him for so long now.β You feel the need to explain. βHe just gets under my skin. You of all people should understand β heβs your brother! You guys fight all day long.βΒ
βHeβs my brother. We shared a womb. We were born to fight.β Osamu sighs. βYou, though... Why canβt ya just let it go?βΒ
βI donβt know! I justβ¦β you trail off.Β
He continues to stare at you, not even knowing the effect he has on you. His earnest gaze pulls the truth out from under your skin.Β
βI wanna get him back,β you admit.Β
Osamuβs eyes go dark at that statement. His expression shutters.
βNot like that!β you quickly amend. βNot like I want to get back with him, I mean like, his face just pisses me off!βΒ
βHuh?βΒ
βI just wanna punch him in the face but I donβt think anything would give me more satisfaction than proving him wrong you know. And honestly, Osamu, you-βΒ
βYa think that Iβm the perfect person to piss him off for ya. βCause Iβm his brother and thereβs no one else who would get under his skin more than if I replaced him.βΒ
You hear the disappointment heavy in his intonation.Β
βOsamuβ¦βΒ
βAm I wrong?βΒ
Heβs not wrong, but you feel an urge to tell him how he made you tingle at dinner. It was in the way he catered to your whims, covered for you, and held your hand in secret. It was in the way he, as your not-boyfriend, made you feel loved and desired much more so than any other boyfriend youβve ever had before.Β
But when you look at his side profile, face now turned away from you and hidden by the shadows of the night, it doesnβt feel right to say any of that. Even in your mind, it sounds like an excuse. Because the bottom line is that heβs right. Your original intentions had been to use Osamu. And the fact that you might have developed a slight crush on him in the process doesnβt make you feel any less shitty and certainly doesnβt make Osamu feel any less used.Β
His question goes unanswered.Β
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The rest of the week goes by uneventfully. Actually, it goes by too uneventfully because Osamu doesnβt call or text once. Not that youβve made an effort, but after how that last conversation with Osamu ended, you canβt find the courage to face Osamu.Β
It doesnβt make you miss him any less.Β
You canβt recall if you used to miss Osamu like this, think about him and wish heβd reach out even if itβs only been a couple of days since youβve last met. You only know that right now, you wish heβd make the first move because you canβt muster up the nerve to see him, even if itβs all you wanted. It also makes you realize that Osamu has been spoiling you long before that night and long before he agreed to be your fake boyfriend. The reason you never had to miss him is because he is always the one who makes the effort to call, text, bring you lunch, pick you up from work, drive you around.Β
The realization only made you feel worse about yourself.
And after days of mulling over realization after realization, each making you guiltier and guiltier, you made your decision.Β
Thatβs how you end up running to Osamuβs apartment, late on a Thursday evening. Without pausing to compose yourself, afraid youβll lose your momentum, you knock.Β
The door swings open to reveal a very tired-looking, very handsome Osamu. He has his cap off, but his hair is unruly, as if his fingers have just recently run through it. His eyes are slightly bloodshot and his t-shirt is wrinkled. The urge to rub your thumb over his eyelids and smooth your other hand over this shirt is a sudden one you shove down because Osamuβs opening his mouth.Β
βHey, whatβcha doing here so late?βΒ
Thereβs a momentary disappointment that strikes your gut. He asks you so normally, as if he isnβt plagued with thoughts of avoiding you. As if the couple of days that have gone by without any interaction between the two of you isnβt even a thought that occupies headspace.
βUh,β you stutter.Β
βActually,β he sighs and glances behind him. βNowβs not a good time. Can ya-βΒ
βI donβt care about Atsumu,β you cut him off. It sounds like heβs preparing a rejection. Or he just doesnβt want to talk. Neither of which are favorable outcomes, so you barrel through to say what you need to say.Β
βI donβt care about what he thinks. Not anymore and definitely not that night. I was actually thinking about you the entire time and Atsumu, well, heβs just-β
βJust wait a minute, okay-βΒ
βHe just gets under my nerves because of the shit he says and I know heβs just saying stuff to rile me up and Iβm a hothead, okay? He gets me because weβre like the same person sometimes, but Iβm not doing this to get back at him anymore. Itβs actually your fault because-β
βI knew it!β a voice yells from behind Osamu.Β
You crane your neck to see around Osamu and curse Osamuβs big frame for taking up the entire doorway and blocking your view of the apartment because there is the older twin, grinning widely and walking up to where youβre both standing.
You instantly feel the panic rise in your system.Β
βAtsumu,β Osamu begins in a warning tone.Β
Ignoring his brother, Atsumu continues on. βI knew it. I knew the two of ya couldnβt be dating just like that.βΒ
Your nervous system goes into overdrive. Even you know how this looks.Β
You barged into Osamuβs place randomly at night and picked the time when Atsumu coincidentally is here as well.
Your wide eyes meet Osamu, willing him to believe that you didnβt come to make a scene for Atsumuβs viewing. You didnβt come to confess that you might have a crush on him with this exact timing so that Atsumu would fall for the act.Β
When Osamu refuses to meet your eyes, it brings your attention back to Atsumu, who continues to gloat about his victory.Β
Your face burns in mortification as you take slow steps away from the twins, making room for your getaway. As Atsumu gets closer and Osamu continues to avoid your gaze, your courage wanes and the last bit of pride youβre holding onto propels you to turn away instead of retorting as you always do.Β
βAww, really let my words get to ya, didnβt ya? I knew all along-βΒ
Before you can start running, Osamu grabs your arm and pulls you into the apartment, the other arm shoving Atsumu out.Β
βHey, βSamu!βΒ
βShut the fuck up, βTsumu. Now that my girlfriendβs here to spend the night, get out.β Osamu shuts the door in his face.Β
Atsumuβs protests fall on deaf ears, the sound of Osamu referring to you as his girlfriend echoing in your mind. He had taken your side, chosen to take the course of action that would embarrass you to least despite not having confirmed what your intentions were. The thought fills you with hope.Β
He pulls you further into the apartment, sitting you on the barstool. After situating you on the chair, he makes to step out of your personal space, but you lean forward, wrapping your arms around his neck to keep him close. Your eyes start to sting in frustration that Osamu could somehow believe that this was all just another incident you had orchestrated to get back at his brother. This has all gotten so hopelessly messy.Β
βOsamu,β you sniffle into his neck. βI didnβt come over here and say all that because I knew Atsumu was listening. I just-β missed you.Β
He rubs soothing circles into your back, gently enough to make you want to cry more because you donβt deserve this but want it so badly.Β
βYou justβ¦?β he prompts.Β
The words wonβt come out and your tears soak into his shirt. You want to tell him so badly that youβre not crying to garner his sympathy; youβre crying because youβre so angry with yourself.Β
Osamu patiently strokes your back, letting you cry before quietly telling you, βOh, baby. How long do ya think weβve known each other? I know yer not the type to set up this whole complicated scenario just to show up my stupid brother. I believe ya.βΒ
His other arm is now holding your head to his neck, fingers running lightly across your scalp. βSo can ya finish what you were about to say for me?βΒ
His words and his actions do what they always do to you. They fill you with so much hope that thereβs no room to mistaken his intentions. They fill you with the courage to tell him.Β
βMissed you,β you whisper.Β
Finally, both of his arms wrap around your back to push you tight into his chest. He squeezes, gentle enough to keep you safe but firm enough to tell you he wants you there. It pulls the confession out of you.Β
βAnd I like you so much, Osamu.βΒ
He chuckles lightly into your ear. You can feel the vibrations echo in his chest. When you squeeze back, he trails his arms down to your legs to guide them around his waist. He carries you with ease to the couch and sits you down to cry in his lap.Β
You donβt know how long the two of you sit like that for, but when you finally calm down, you keep your arms wrapped around him and quietly ask, βwhy did you do all this for someone like me?βΒ
He stops stroking your hair.Β
βWhat, ya donβt like it?βΒ
You pull away to protest, already too comfortable with him spoiling you again, only to find the corner of his lips quirked up in a smirk.Β
Heβs teasing, you realize.
You smack his face weakly and wind your arms back around him.Β
You snuggle back into his neck but heβs the one who pulls you back this time.Β
βHey, seriously though,β he says. βIs this okay?βΒ
You nod shyly.Β
βI need to hear it, sweetheart.βΒ
βI want it.βΒ
βAlright. Cβmere then.βΒ
You oblige.Β
βCan I tell ya a secret?β he murmurs into your neck.Β
You nod.Β
βThere isnβt a man out there whoβd do all that for someone he doesnβt love, ya know that?βΒ
It makes you flustered, but much of what Osamu does does that to you. His tenderness makes you want to try harder to meet him in the middle.Β
βCan I do something?β you ask, taking a leap. Your face is incredibly hot and your heart is beating embarrassingly loudly against his. βIs it okay if I kiss you?βΒ
Itβs easy when he responds, βYou can do anything ya want to me.βΒ
You intend for it to be an innocent peck, your form of an apology. But he holds the back of your neck, the other arm wrapped almost all the way around your torso and doesnβt let go until youβre panting against his open mouth.Β
Heβs nonchalant when he shrugs.Β
βYou can do anything ya want but Iβll be doing the same from now on.β