Anya

follower of Jesus | John Walker's #1 Fan | I love to write | [do not reblog my posts w/ships]

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𝒜𝓃𝓎𝒶'𝓈 𝐿𝒾𝓉𝓉𝓁𝑒 𝐿𝒾𝒷𝓇𝒶𝓇𝓎‧ִֶָ𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ🐇་༘࿐𓂃 ࣪˖

hi hi sunshines <3 this is a masterlist for all of my writings, mostly fanfiction and media rambles, but I'll probably share some of my book excerpts and poetry as well.

| Anya | 22y/o | christian | "𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘧, 𝘪𝘧 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨?"

hashtags | #ྀིanyarambles | #wherethereareshadows | #whatif...theywerehappy?

ꜰᴀɴꜰɪᴄᴛɪᴏɴ​

˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗Marvel

Where There Are Shadows, There Must Be Light—Bob x OC Parts | Introduction | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 (cs)

What If... They Were Just Happy? A series of one-shots written by me and my best friends based on happy and silly What If prompts we've made up.

John Walker x Olivia Walker - John Walker realizes that if he wants his family back, he has to step up and do something about it. Inspired by the song Till The Last One Dies by Chris Young.

John Walker x Reader - John Walker still sees little reason to stick around

John Walker & Child!OC - When John Walker is assigned to a mission that goes horribly wrong, he finds himself tasked with caring for a grieving child who has just lost her sister. Though reluctant and not the best person suited for the task, he still tries his best, their unlikely relationship healing them both. Parts | One | Two | Three

˗ˏˋ ♡ ˎˊ˗Code Realize

Van Helsing x OC - When Van Helsing feels he should help a young girl who stood upon a bridge in the dead of night, he signs himself up for one heck of a ride. Can these two help each other heal from the emotional damage inflicted upon them by their past? (hiatus)

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John Walker & grief

"Don't leave me with a damn cat." - John Walker

Dustin, Steve, and Eddie's relationship - Stranger Things

John Walker x super nice reader that annoys him because she's nice

Father!John Walker x Daughter!Reader pls

Glenn (oc) and stealing Bucky & Walker's dog tags (lovingly)

John should stay off twitter

Alexei, Johnny, and cereal boxes

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John Walker & the super serum

John Walker is not abusive

John Walker & finally having a team

John Walker x Thomas by Chloe Ament

Evangaline Fox & strength in softness

The double standard people have with John Walker

Thunderbolts* Exclusive Regal Comic

Thunderbolts shelf

John Walker is a patriotic not obnoxious Republican

John Walker x Ishimo

All of the Thunderbolts willingly killed; they are still worthy of forgiveness and redemption

Stop putting ship content on my dash before I kill myself

If John dies I die

John Walker Analysis

John is the hero for the little guy

John Walker Merch

the cactus berries

John Walker protects

John Walker and his new lil sisters

the mcu and you hate Lemar Hoskins

what does the F in John F Walker stand for?

Walker in Squid Games...

rip Charlie

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coming soon

ʙᴏᴏᴋ ᴇxᴄᴇʀᴘᴛꜱ / ʟᴏʀᴇ

coming soon

ᴠɪᴅᴇᴏ / ᴘʜᴏᴛᴏ ᴇᴅɪᴛꜱ

John Walker comic dividers

John Walker x Plan B gifs

collage of my main characters

Naho Takamiya collage

Bob Reynolds Playlist

John Walker Playlist

John, Steve, Sam and Bucky - American Soldier

How I See John

John Walker Cat

"everybody's goy guns theses days" + "whats with all the knives?"

John Walker Edit - Laika

Alexei + Bob meme

me w loki and me w john

John Walker Edit - The Hand

Winter Soldier cosplay

U.S. Agent comic panels

Alpine comic panels

The Winter Soldier tweet

John and Bucky as Lampy and Radio

CLOC Crochet!

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You’re telling me to kms for liking the character that kept me from kms.

You’re a great person, I’m sure.

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Here is what people in the marvel MCU only fandom need to understand,

The “Thunderbolts” ARE The New Avengers. We call them the Thunderbolts because it’s easy and that’s what the movie is half called. But get this correct, they are The New Avengers.

No, Bullseye does not belong on what you think is the Thunderbolts. The “Thunderbolts” (New Avengers) are probably the lightest groups of people ever called that. Because they aren’t the Thunderbolts! (How many times can I say thunderbolts in this post)

Maybe in the MCU you’ve got tunnel vision that the only ones to ever exist are Tony, Steve, Natasha, Clint, and Thor but that’s not reality. Avengers status is owned by a LOT of characters, and there are a LOT of Avengers teams.

The Avengers, The New Avengers, The Young Avengers, The Dark Avengers, The Savage Avengers, The Mighty Avengers, for heavens sake.

What would be terrific for them to do now is have Valentina actually build an underground Thunderbolts team and you’ve got two members you can already throw on there being Bullseye and Mel, if she’s gonna be Songbird. Also two actual very og Thunderbolts.

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Only Wyatt Russell could act so well he scares the crap out of me

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My USAgent cosplay I did for LVCC :> I was trying to convey the United States of Captain America energy, creating a “suit” like the characters who looked up to their favorite Caps in those comics did (ie. Arielle with Bucky) well John didn’t have anyone so that’s me now.

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Jolivia prom pic!💚🪻

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walkers hourglass figure… i can’t decide if i’m mad or turned on

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I’m so deadass he’s literally a Disney princess here

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I wonder if every time John came close to dying he thought it’d finally be time to see his parents again.

I wonder if those moments when he was bleeding out or in comas if he was caught in endless thoughts and dreams of them.

I wonder if he thought that it was finally his time to rest from everything life has put him through.

And I wonder what he thought every time he recovered, every time God said “I’m not done with you yet”

And I do wonder if that’s why he always gave his best even when he continued to lose everything.

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Found this in my notes and am throwing up so here you go

“Well the girl wanted Captain America to do it, I couldn’t intervene.” Glenn said with a grin, poking fun at John.

“Why’d you lie to her?”

“I didn’t lie to her.”

He rolled his eyes, “no, you pretty much did.”

She turned to face him, a serious expression on her face, “Captain America is more than just a person. Steve made it a symbol. If you ask me, no one person could ever fill his shoes. And I think Captain America means more than just whoever carries that shield made 70 years ago.” Glenn looked him in the eyes, “that symbol is the person who would climb up a tree to get a scared kitten for a scared little girl.”

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The fact that John probably knew all his colleagues and “friends” wouldn’t take a second glance at the fact he was on Fisks Thunderbolts team so his cover would be easy is so freaking sad.

It’s so pathetic. And I say friends loosely, because his closest friend since Lemar (Clint) happily beats the crap out of him in public despite knowing he’s working undercover with the FBI. Luke Cage TOLD him that. And then he mocks John on the news when they ask him why he’d beat up a fellow hero.

Truly, all these “heroes” should be ashamed of themselves for the way they treat him. Clint, Steve, TONY! They are pathetic.

DONT get me started on Matt Murdock.

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So I somehow only just explained to myself John’s little self destructive tendency of jumping in front of people…

In the comics, he loses his parents in a hostage situation. In the MCU, he loses Lemar in a fight. He blames himself to no end for both failures.

So John probably throws himself in-front of people, never leaves someone behind, and is always the last person out, because he never wants to lose someone again.

In WCA when Cupid “kills” half the team while John is passed out, he has a mental breakdown. Crying to Tony and Clint that he “failed again” and got them killed because he failed to be there. He also breaks down when Bobbi is taken later on, saying he wished they’d have just killed him. I’m sure he blames her death later on himself too, since he couldn’t stop them from taking her.

In Thunderbolts John jumps infront of the bullets aimed at Bucky, he doesn’t want to leave Bob behind and only goes when Yelena tells him to, he inserts himself first when confronting Bobs father, he is always the last one to leave making sure everyone else gets through fist, he places himself against the concrete even though he knows he won’t be able to lift it (but he can hold it enough to let the woman escape).

It’s not just an offhand soldier thing, he’s constantly reminded of his own failure and he’ll do anything, even die, to keep from losing someone again.

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It just hit me.

I’d imagine that John and Olivia maybe put off having children because of his work, so when he lost his job and everything they finally could and they had their son. But he was so consumed by his loss and failure that he ended up not being there for them emotionally even though he was finally consistently around physically. I’m so ill.

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And while everyone else criticizes the heroes for the times they were a little too human and messed up, I'll be here to forgive them.