raison d'être

love all, trust a few, do wrong to none. -shakespeare be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle. -unknown we must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope. -martin luther king jr. -- of all our human resources, the most precious is the desire to improve. i love the person i’ve become because i fought to become her.

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how can i tell if i'm in the right relationship? aren't you s'posed to know that shit? feel it in your bones and own that shit? i don't know then i had this interaction i've been thinkin' bout for like five weeks wonder if he's thinkin' bout it too and smiling wonder if he knows that that's been what's inspiring me wonder if he's judging me like i am right now

i don't care i'd rather tell the truth than make it worse for you

if the sun refused to shine, baby, would i still be your lover? would you want me there if the moon went dark tonight? and if it all ended tomorrow, would i be the one on your mind? and if it all ended tomorrow, would you be the one on mine?

please, pay me no mind while i jump into your skin and change your eyes so you see things through mine can't you sense me? i've been right here all this time

would you still be here pretending you still like me? pretending you don't regret not thinking before asking now you're long gone in cali and me, i'm still unpacking why i even allowed you on the flight

i broke your heart because you broke mine so me, i am the bad guy 'cause i'd already grieved you and you started to realize i do need ya, i did i wish i could un-need ya, so i did

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!!! ariana.

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“She kept using the word fireworks.”

“Fireworks?”

“As in there aren’t any. Between us.”

“Ah. I see.” Ruth nodded. “We talked about this before. Haven’t we?”

“About fireworks?”

“About love. About how we often mistake love for fireworks- for drama and dysfunction. But real love is very quiet, very still. It’s boring, if seen from the perspective of high drama. Love is deep and calm- and constant. I imagine you do give Kathy love- in the true sense of the word. Whether or not she is capable of giving it back to you is another question… “

“I know how sad you feel. But I want you to consider the possibility that you felt this sadness long before you met Kathy. It’s a sadness you’ve been carrying around for many years. You know, Theo, one of the hardest things to admit is that we weren’t loved when we needed it the most. It’s a terrible feeling, the pain of not being loved.”

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unexpressed emotions will never die. they are buried alive, and will come forth later, in uglier ways. -sigmund freud

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and if it all ended tomorrow, would i be the one on your mind? if it all ended tomorrow, would you be the one on mine?

best song in her newest album. so happy for her.

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catch me singing this (terribly but with great passion) at a karaoke place and cracking my voice every time :D

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así es la vida.

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Why You Will Marry the Wrong Person

Embrace a philosophy of pessimism. Every human will disappoint you, and you’ll do the same to them.

Compatibility is an achievement of love; it must not be its precondition.

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my single past self bookmarked this for my future married self lol. thanks i guess.

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"You’re an animal, Sibling Dex. You are not separate or other. You’re an animal. And animals have no purpose. Nothing has a purpose. The world simply is. If you want to do things that are meaningful to others, fine! Good! So do I! But if I wanted to crawl into a cave and watch stalagmites with Frostfrog for the remainder of my days, that would also be both fine and good. You keep asking why your work is not enough, and I don’t know how to answer that, because it is enough to exist in the world and marvel at it. You don’t need to justify that, or earn it. You are allowed to just live. That is all most animals do." -Becky Chambers, A Psalm for the Wild-Built

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"Do you not find consciousness alone to be the most exhilarating thing? Here we are, in this incomprehensibly large universe, on this one tiny moon around this one incidental planet, and in all the time this entire scenario has existed, every component has been recycled over and over and over again into infinitely incredible configurations, and sometimes, those configurations are special enough to be able to see the world around them. You and I—we’re just atoms that arranged themselves the right way, and we can understand that about ourselves. Is that not amazing?" - Becky Chambers, A Psalm for the Wild-Built

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