the pristine

growing up, I wish I hadn't tried so hard to fit in. I'd tell myself to just embrace what you were born with because it's beautiful and you were made like that for a reason. It's tough being a girl. I think we need all of the support we can get.

[stephanieblues]

ya’ll go follow https://meleenadiaz.tumblr.com/ :D 

[thelovejournals]

…And the two of them loved each other for a long time in silence without making love again.

Gabriel García Márquez, Love in the Time of Cholera (via insp0s)

[stephanieblues]

@ppayton

Stephanie had gotten dresses sketched up for Payton, though because she still was unsure of when the wedding was actually taken place, she spent her time perfecting five different designs, hoping that the girl actually liked at least one. She was super thankful and honoured that Payton had asked her to design her something, and so she definitely took that to heart and did all that she could do respect the girl, her style but still give her ideas that would flaunt her natural curves. Now, Stephanie wasn’t able to sit with her to discuss these designs, having her death come way too soon for her liking. Though, her stuff was with her assistant, who was meant to schedule a meeting with Payton. Seeing the sketches, the assistant put them in a folder, a portfolio of some sort, and dropped it off in front of Payton’s house in hopes of her using the sketches with someone else. 

[stephanieblues]

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[nxahwtf]

Old Times Sake // Steph

[stephanieblues]

nxahwtf:

“Come on, Alaska’s your friend. And your cousin’s here, isn’t he? Why don’t you ever hang out with him?” Noah questioned the dark haired girl in front of him. “So, is that what last night was? A co worker thing?” He knew it probably wasn’t his business but regardless of their relationship status, he still cared a lot about her. The blush on her face suggested that he might just get to kiss her again tonight and he wanted nothing more than to do that right now. “Because I still care a lot about you and I miss kissing you.” He stepped closing to her, his hands reaching out for hers. “Of course you are, Steph. I love being with you.” His eyes were searching for hers the entire time she fidgeted in front of him. “Yeah?” he smiled a little and closed the distance between them.

“I don’t think Romeo wants to spend time with me,” she stated with a shrug, looking at him, “Plus, as much as I love my friends, I never want to bother them with me, I’m not that important,” she admitted, before nodding her head a few times. “Yeah that’s what it was, a co-worker thing, they thought I needed to get out of the house, and frankly I did,” she admitted. The girl looked at him, surprised at his words, “Me? But I’m me, I’m nothing special,” she whispered as she watched him grab her hand, her hands shaking as she looked at him with a bite to her bottom lip. She nodded her head as she watched him step closer to her, her eyes scared as she looked at him.

[stephanieblues]

nxahwtf:

“Yeah, yeah. Of course I can.” Noah replied. He honestly already thought that he was staying for the night but he wouldn’t tell her that. The two of them were now just getting back to the place he wanted to get to. He pressed a kiss to her forehead. “Don’t worry, Stephanie. I’m not going anywhere. I’m here for you as long as you want me here.” Things didn’t go as well the first time as he hoped they would. At first, it was great but then he didn’t know what to do. She was always working and always tired so the only thing he knew to do was take her home instead of forcing her out with him and apparently, that’s not what she wanted and he knew that now. He wished he knew it before so they wouldn’t have lost the time that they lost.  “I know.” He sighed, rubbing his free hand over his face. He didn’t want Stan to think that he wasn’t there for him because he was but to Noah, he seemed like the worst friend once Stan ended up in the hospital. “I wish I could though. I feel awful.” He admitted. “I’d live through it.”

She nodded her head tiredly as she shut her eyes, her hand on his chest to remind herself that he was actually there. She nodded her head tiredly, feeling the kiss on her forehead to which Stephanie pushed herself closer to him. She felt like this was her fault, where they were, their relationship status - she was the one who picked a fight over something that didn’t even matter. It shouldn’t have mattered that they never went out, she should have been thankful they spent time together at all. She couldn’t help but feel like he was embarrassed to be with her, but she had to get that out of her head. She took a breath and shook her head, “I think Stan would have hated seeing you in the hospital.”

[stephanieblues]

persephoneleblanc:

“I can’t have a shot before work! That wouldn’t go well.” Sephy grinned at her friend. “Okay! Aww, thanks. I do try to be. “

Stephanie looked at the girl and shook her head, “Oh no, it’s always time for a shot,” she admitted, before smiling brightly. “Yes, I knew I liked you.”

[stephanieblues]

nxahwtf:

“I know it does.” Noah spoke, his free hand coming up to play with her hair. “But maybe now that I am here you can fall asleep.” He pressed a kiss to her temple and looked at her adoringly. Nothing made him happier than laying here with her. It was moments like these that he missed the most. “I didn’t mean it like that.” He chuckled. “I just meant you look like you need the rest. You’ve been so busy with your show and everything that I doubt you’ve had the time to even think about sleeping.” His face fell slightly and he sighed. “I am. I feel awful. I should’ve been there for him, Steph.”

“Maybe,” she trailed, shutting her eyes as he brought her closer to him. “Can you stay for the night?” She asked, “I’m tired of not having your scent comfort me,” she admitted, her eyes still closed as she moved closer to him, her hand resting on his hip. She missed his warmth, his comfort, the way his fingers just moved across her body in a loving manner. “I haven’t been sleeping well. With the show and being alone and .. I’m just.. lonely and it’s having a toll on me. I’ve been spending most nights at the shop,” she admitted. She opened her eyes to look at him, bringing a hand to his face. “There’s nothing you could do to stop what had happened. He edged Wesley on Noah,” she whispered. “I’m sorry for holding you back, but he pushed Niall away, he broke Stan’s shoulder, what if he did something to you?”

[millionfanbase]

😍😍

[stephanieblues]

nxahwtf:

Noah was so happy that they were back together and maybe there wasn’t a label on it but it still meant a lot to him. Being with her was one of the best things in his life. A smile grew over his face when she patted the bed and he climbed in next to her, his arm snaking around her waist. It had been a while since he’d innocently held her. They had been together nights before but what they were doing was far from innocent and as nice as it was, he still missed being with her like this. Just holding her after a long day and resting together. “I thought you’d fall asleep before I got here.” He spoke, pressing a small kiss to her shoulder. “You sounded so tired over the phone and you look exhausted.” He pointed out, his thumb tracing circles on her clothed hip. “But I’m sure I look just as tired.” he chuckled, tiredly. 

Stephanie watched as he moved to lay down beside her, her eyes closing slightly at the contact she was receiving. It was innocent, held nothing sexual but was full of comfort and content. She let out a deep breath and shrugged, “I haven’t been sleeping properly, it takes me a while to actually sleep at night,” she whispered, her eyes closing as she moved closer to him, taking in his comfort. “Thanks for telling me I look bad,” she teased, looking at him and leaning to kiss his chin. “But I am exhausted, you just look like you’re upset for your best friend,” she said as she brought a hand to his neck, playing with his hair softly.

[stephanieblues]

austinlukah:

“ Oh right, ” he said, glancing up to take a proper look at her. Her jacket was zipped up, so he hadn’t a clue what she was actually wearing beneath. “ How’s work? ” He imagined she’d be busy, given that she was releasing a new line very soon.

She nodded and then looked down, “Right, and I’m zipped up, of course duh you couldn’t see,” she stated, hitting her head a little playfully. “It’s busy, there’s so much to do and not enough time and I don’t know how I’m going to get it all done,” she whispered, pushing her hair back. “But that doesn’t matter, how are you?”

[nxahwtf]

Old Times Sake // Steph

[stephanieblues]

nxahwtf:

Noah knew that what they had between them was the first real thing they both had in their lives. She meant more to him than he ever thought that she would and he had a hard time believing that what they had between them was really over. “Yeah,” Noah breathed out, a light laugh escaping his lips. He had never seen her so wasted and that’s why he knew nothing could happen last night. A part of him felt bad for even kissing her while she was so out of it but at the same time, it made his realize even more just how much he really missed her. “Really?” He asked, rocking on his heels a little. “You haven’t had any company?” he added, chewing on his bottom lip. He could still feel her lips against his last night and he wanted nothing more than to kiss her again in this moment. “Because we kissed.” He cleared his throat, “And I want to kiss you again.” He admitted. He swore he could hear his heart beating in his chest.  “I want to be with you again. I miss you.”

Stephanie looked at the boy with a small smile, laughing a little and nodding, a strand of hair falling to her eye causing her to move to push it back. “I don’t really have any friends to begin with - at least not ones that want to spend one on one time with me,” she admitted with a shrug. “So I’ve been at work and then back home, and occasionally going out with my co-workers,” she admitted with a shrug, looking at him and taking a deep breath. The girl blushed, looking at him with scared eyes. “I-w-why would you want to k-kiss me?” She asked with a questioning look. “I’m.. I-I’m not someone you want to be with...” she trailed, gulping and looking down, her fingers fiddling with each other. “I-if you want to...” she whispered, looking at him. “K-kiss me I mean.”

[stephanieblues]

legendofwednesday:

❝pretty sure big foot was originally canadian,❞ she offered that tid bit of information with an enticing smile on her mouth. 

“Yeah he could have been,” she laughed and crossed her arms. “Well that’s why I love Canada.”

[stephanieblues]

legendofwednesday:

wednesday crossed one arm over her chest, while her other pulled her phone out of her back pocket and scrolled through her notifications. ❝no thanks. i don’t want the ROH affecting my bloodstream like it has done to you already. yikes.❞

“Well you’re definitely not going to have anything affecting your bloodstream,” she giggled, before raising an eyebrow at her. “Yikes? what’s the yikes.”

[stephanieblues]

persephoneleblanc:

She smiled at Stephanie. “I mean, it can be inappropriate but not in this case. “ Persephone walked along with her friend, nodding at her question. “Of course! If that’s what you want.”

“It’s never inappropriate, this is like the best time,” she laughed, pulling her to her body. “Yes that’s what I want, you’re awesome.” 

[stephanieblues]

hannahpls:

“ Flannels and beanies and plum lipstick, ” Hannah listed aloud with a grin. She loved the change in seasons, the lead up to Winter and Christmas being her favourite time of year. “ I mean… I don’t like to discriminate, but I love Winter too. The cold kind of sucks, but snowboarding’s so much fun. Have you been skiiing? ” She was thankful that Stephanie hadn’t asked her for more details, she wasn’t particularly in the mood to talk about herself. “ Oh that’s right. I’ll check my diary, but I should be free. Did you end up getting the boys to model for you? ”

"Flannels and beanies definitely, that’s the best kind of weather,” The girl laughed and shook her head, “Girl you’re talking to a Canadian, Skiing is like a second hobby of mine,” she admitted, “But something about snowboarding is fun,”  she smiled, crossing her arms and then nodding her head a few times. “Yeah that’ll be awesome, let me know so I can put you on the list,” she smiled before laughing, “Niall did model for a few photos actually, he’s fun to work with.”

[stephanieblues]

nxahwtf:

Noah was exhausted but Stephanie had asked him to come over and this was his second chance. He was going to make sure that the both of them were happy and that he took her out until last time. And instead of complaining that she spent too much time at work, he’d be there with her. He’d watch her work on designs and he’d help her do anything else she needed to do. And it wasn’t because he was desperate. It was because Noah love Stephanie and their time apart made him realize that their fight was stupid. The things they fought about wasn’t worth the pain and heartbreak. A yawn escaped his lips as he drove toward her house. His hair was a mess. He was dressed in a hoodie and a pair of sweatpants, and he knew he wasn’t looking his best but he also knew that was the least of Stephanie’s worries. He was also sure that the girl would be asleep once he got there. He pulled into her driveway and climbed out  before grabbing the spare key from where she hid it and letting himself in. He moved up the familiar staircase and smiled when he saw Stephanie in bed. “You asleep?” he spoke, quietly.

@stephanieblues

Stephanie didn’t know what came over her - she knew that she shouldn’t have called Noah, but she missed him.  She missed his company, his smile, how he played with her hair to get her to sleep when she was exhausted. Steph knew that the second he finds out about what she had done he would leave, which is why she avoided the label. She didn’t want to be held accountable for anything, or anyone, she wanted to enjoy her time, well as much as she could with the memory of what had happened etched into her mind. She was laying down in bed, half asleep, and half awake, scrolling aimlessly through Instagram as she waited for Noah. Sure she should have gotten up to open the door - anyone could be coming in, but she was too tired, and far too lost in her thoughts to even realize the presence in her room. She turned at the voice, a smile on her face as she saw Noah. “No,” she whispered, patting the bed.