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Change is innevitable, even when you dont want it to be.

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6th 5K in my lifetime and I'm loving it!! Being healthy is not a choice, it's a life style. (at Gold's Gym)

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I'm back, it's been a rough two weeks being off social media but I have decided to come back!! I've been focusing on my body a lot during those two weeks and have lost a lot of weight doing Herbalife!! Nothing like getting healthy, feeling happy, and looking good! Glad to be back!! #herbalife

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Be Happy!!

So I have been having a rough couple of days. I have to admit it is hard for me to see my ex already talking to other guys. Knowing that I am not doing the same thing on the other end. But I have to get over it, grow up, get over myself, stop acting like I'm the victim when I am the one who is guilty. She deserves to be happy, even if it is me not making her happy. So i am happy for you Jae, I am happy that you are making yourself happy! and to whoever may be talking to you now, i hope they realize how lucky they are to have such a loving, smart, beautiful, and so many more awesome words i can't think of right now lady. We had good times and I am going to miss you like crazy, I hope I run into you in the future to see how you are doing. Take care! 

P.S. shout out to my best friend Chris S. to talking some sense into me at Ihop. Love you man!

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People like you more when you're working towards something, not when you have it.

Drake

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Think for Myself..

Well, I guess its about that time again. Thinking for myself and only myself. No longer doing what others want me to do. So many times I have been taken advantage of in the past, but no its time to call it quits. Everything in my life is starting to frustrate me and I don’t like it. Off social media for another two weeks. After that two weeks is up ill be officially moving into my new home. Its going to be different but good. I can’t wait until my transformation of my body is to where I want it to be. Soon I will be back on social media once all of its over. I literally got off social media for myself and to show you that I don’t need social media to be happy, while you can’t help but be on it 25/8. But its cool, Its not my job to care what you do anymore. at all.. No point chasing something that isn't there..

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Run away

If there was a way I could just run away with you I would. We could just got to an island, just the two of us. Maybe bring the puppy(debatable). On this island technology wouldn't be needed cuz all I need to focus on is you... I know I shouldn't be talking like this to myself because I know nothing is going to change the fact that you're gone and not coming back. But it feels good to imagine, to a point.

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Too Late..

      The hardest thing about this situation is that I know I can change into the man she wants me to be. I can get all of that right, but I know I can't get her trust back. ever. Its gone and not coming back. and a relationship without trust isn't going to last. Im just too late..

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Lost in your feelings

How you feel about someone majority of the time is out of your control. Today just opened up some prospective of what should and shouldn't be happening. Yes I love you, yes I want to still be with you, and yes I get upset when I see that someone else is making you happy like I use to. This weekend and last night was all just a fantasy. We both felt the need to love again when we didn't have others to love us the way we wanted to be love. I'm pretty sure we used each other for the others gain. We knew it was wrong, but we went for it anyway. I honestly wouldn't have changed a thing, I'm glad it happen. And I know it won't happen again because you told me that you used me to make yourself feel better. That did hurt me and I am upset about it, but I shouldn't be. We aren't dating, it was just a couple of hook ups. The first night was emotional and great, the next/last night was just pure horniness. I hate that it's upsetting to be around you now. One day everything was good, now it's not. It sucks, it really does suck. I count down the days until I don't have to see you everyday and night. Let the countdown begin...

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Time

Things will get better, with time.

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I love you

The look that we give each other before you leave, knowing we both want to say "I love you". But also knowing that we have to move on from each other.

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Waiting..

It feels good to have conversations with you again. It honestly feels just like old times, but I can't be close to you. There was that small little time where you got so close because Demi( her dog) was giving me kisses. It's crazy how fast my heart starts racing the closer I get to you. I'm just waiting, waiting on the day where I get to touch you again. If that day ever comes...

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Shower..

So it's been awhile since I've been in my shower in my apartment! Oh how I've missed the feeling of actual hot water! Ha. I kind of made it miserable for myself because I saw your shampoo there. I know I shouldn't have touched it but I wanted to smell the scent of you. I honestly don't think I will ever get over you, the one that got away..

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Audition..

Norwegian cruise line audition is literally 1 month away, time to train like there is no tomorrow!

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New me coming soon...

There are a lot of changes happening in my life. I have to make the best of every situation. One thing I know I’m changing for sure is my image. I joined Herbalife on April 7th of this year and I officially start my diet tomorrow. I’m excited to see my transformation! I’m going to leave it a surprise to everyone whenever I join social media again. I’m only taking a day 1 and a day 30 picture to see the proof! Training to look the best I can look for myself!

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Social media cleanse

The title is self-explanatory!! I have deleted my Snapchat, Facebook, Groupme, and twitter(which I never get on anyways). This is going to help me focus on things I need to be focusing on to be a better me. Yes, I decided to keep Tumblr! Only because I'm conversing with myself and nobody else. This is basically my journal. I'm going to give this cleanse a full month!! Shouldn't be too hard right!!

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The Talk

Yesterday I was all over the place with emotions. I finally got to talk to you, even though it started off rocky, towards the end it got better. It felt really good to laugh with you again like old times. It sucks losing you, my best friend. Nobody knows me like you do and I want to keep it that way. I came to the conclusion that I don't want to let you go, I am here for you until I am no longer needed, it's going to be hard watching you fall out of love with me day by day, but it's what I deserve. You are going to make me more and more of a man everyday wether you see it or not. I'm going to be the best I can be for you, and if I don't get you back. The woman that gets me next will have to come shake your hand because you are training me very well. I thank you and I can't wait to watch you grow into the woman that I strive to marry one day, wherever she may be if it's not you.

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The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, & all they can do is stare blankly.