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So sorry I didnāt post yesterday! I had the craziest weekend and even though I already had it in a draft I just didnāt even have the time and energy to come here and post it. I fell asleep as soon as I got home. But here it is now!
Request: I love your writing! Specially your imagines about jack j he is my fav, my request is where y/n is a youtuber and is quite known. And she is dating jj but they keep on fighting because they are both very busy and and they cant see each other and jack j gets effected by the hate comments the fans say to y/n about her being with him to gain followers. He starts doubting it and says are u with me for me or for the followers? And they fight really bad and makeup after x LOVE YOU
I scroll through the comments on my newest video which is about a shopping haul and Iām really trying to only focus on the positive comments, butā¦ the hate is much stronger this time. I know it is because this past week Iāve been out and about with Jack even more and people donāt seem to tolerate our relationship even though weāve been together for more than half a year now. Iām being called a fame whore and a slut in every second comment and it has been going like this for months now. Ever since we made our relationship official in the public. Neither of us thought we would receive so much backlash, but it happened and now Iām just learning to cope with it.
I shut my laptop down knowing an article will be up somewhere in no time talking about my pathetic attempt to gain fame through my alleged boyfriend. Nice, right?
I go to the kitchen to eat all the icecream I can find in my fridge when my phone buzzes. Itās a message from Jack.
āIāll be over in 10ā
From so little I canāt tell why he is coming. Did I say something upsetting in my video? Donāt think so, I only talked about clothes and didnāt even mention him or our relationship. Is he coming to cheer me up? Maybe, I donāt know. Weāve argued so much in the past two months since he is always away and we can barely meet and in addition, people seem to hate the thought of us together. These are not the best conditions to a relationship.
I type a quick okay and then settle on my couch with the icecream, listening to some relaxing music. This is something Iāve been doing a lot. Eating while listening to music and just ignoring the world. It calms my nerves.
Soon enough, Jack arrives and he lets himself in with the keys I gave her a few weeks ago. We spend a lot of time at each otherās place so it was kind of essential to change keys.
āHey babe,ā he greets me leaning down for a kiss.
āHow are you?ā
āOkay,ā I shrug my shoulder stuffing the spoon into my mouth once more.
āSaw your new video, I like the red dress, when can I see that in person?ā he asks smiling as he sits down on the couch.
āIf you take out for dinner sometime soon maybe,ā I smile at him tiredly. He scoots closer and starts massaging the back of my neck. His fingers work magic and I feel my muscles relax under his touch. āOh this feels nice,ā I moan with my eyes closed.
āYou read the comments, didnāt you?ā
āI did,ā I admit looking at him. āI just couldnāt resist.ā
āWe agreed we would skip doing that.ā He caresses my cheek as I shrug my shoulders. āI read them too to be honest.ā
āThey are awful. I just wish they would stop caring about the reason why we are together.ā
āA reason? Is there a reason why we are together?ā he asks with an awkward chuckle.
āYou know what I meant.ā I wave in dismiss, but apparently, Jack caught on this one fast.
āWas this a Freudian slip of the tongue? There is a reason why we are together other than loving each other?ā
āThat is the reason, Jack. Donāt act up, please.ā Iām really not having this conversation right now, Iāve had enough negativity for the day and I donāt need it from my own boyfriend too.
āIām not acting up, Iām just trying to have a conversation which you are totally ignoring.ā
āIām not ignoring! Iām justā¦ delaying this shit,ā I growl rolling my eyes.
āThis shit? So our relationship to you is shit?ā
āOh for fuckās sake, thatās not what I meant!ā
āWhatever,ā he mumbles jumping to his feet and going to the kitchen. I close my eyes as I feel myself getting annoyed. This is really the last thing I need right now. I stand up and go after him.
āDonāt whatever me. What is your problem right now exactly?ā I put my hands to my hips staring at him as he pours himself a glass of water and leans against the kitchen counter.
āJust forget about it.ā
āI canāt, because I donāt even know what it is!ā I raise my voice. I feel like Iām talking to a child right now and my anger is really building up.
āAre you with me for the fame?ā he suddenly snaps hitting the glass down at the counter and Iām surprised it didnāt break. I stare at him with my mouth hanging open and I just donāt want to believe he actually said that. āI-I justā¦ So many people are talking about it, maybe Iām doubting it too.ā
āThen fuck you, Jack.ā I say as calmly as possible as I turn around and try to walk away from you, but unfortunately, this is my place and he should be the one leaving. But he grabs my wrist and pulls me back.
āDonāt walk away, we have to talk!ā
āIām not talking about something so nonsense that I canāt even believe you even brought it up!ā I shout at him as I canāt hold myself back anymore.
āIām sorry if I doubt myself when you refuse to talk about it. If the answer to my question is so obvious and easy why canāt you just say it?ā
āBecause it hurts me that you even thought about it!ā
āWhy are you so defensive? Just tell me the answer!ā
āIām defensive because apparently I did many things wrong in our relationship if you are questioning my intentions. Iām with you because I love you and because you donāt see my videos in me, you donāt see the perfect girl from YouTube who seems to know everything and gives advice when in real life I have no idea what the fuck Iām doing!ā Iām shouting from the top of my lungs and when Iām not speaking Iām panting to get enough oxygen into my lungs. But then I continue. āI get so much shit because Iām with you, itās so fucking hard on me and I was expecting you to be my rock, to stand by me! But you are one of them. We fought so much lately but I was never expecting this from you.ā I lower my voice once the tears start rolling down on my face. āI took a lot of shit for us and gave up on the chance to be able to scroll through the internet without getting offended, and then you did this to me. Why Jack? Why?ā I cry out.
He rushes over to me when I break down and holds me in his arms. I try to push him away, but he is stronger than me and keeps me close. I give up after a while and just cry into his chest while he doesnāt say a word. We stay like this for a long time, until I stop crying and I can finally breathe properly.
āIām sorry baby. I donāt know what has gotten into me. I didnāt mean to upset you, baby.ā
āPlease donāt ask me that ever again,ā I whisper shaking my head.
āI wonāt. I promise I wonāt. Iām sorry I doubted you. I think I just miss the times when it has been only just the two of us.ā
I donāt say anything, just hug his waist tightly and listen to his steady breathing.
āI have an idea.ā He says pushing me away a bit so he can look at my messed up face. Iām sure my eyes are puffy, my cheeks are red and soaking wet, I canāt be a pleasant look.
āWhy donāt we take the weekend out for ourselves? No internet, no social media, no comments, no nothing. We can eat pizza and watch movies all day, anything we want.ā
I smile at him faintly. This is all I want and need right now.
āThat would be great.ā
āGood. I love you baby. Sorry for upsetting you,ā he says kissing my forehead.
āI love you too. But if you ever pull that shit on me again Iām gonna kill you.ā
He chuckles at me kissing my cheek gently.
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