safe space :---))

coffee?

[stoicgirl]

loving someone secretly is hard. why? kasi di mo alam if someday u'll meet halfway or ikaw lang pala yung papunta sa gitna. my thoughts r killing me 🙃

[stoicgirl]

gumising akong naiiyak, y? :<<

[stoicgirl]

HEHEHEHE JUSKO YUNG PUSO KO SASABOG NA! DI KO ALAM BAT AKO NAIINIS HEHEHEHEHEHEHE BAKET KASI AKO PINANGANAK NA SELOSA??? HIHI I H8 THIS FEELING OPO YES PO :'>

[stoicgirl]

hehe >:(((

[stoicgirl]

as per google.. BEST FRIEND is an indie rock, dreamlike song, stimulating hope into someone who can be doubtful about loving someone ...

pakinggan nyo na lang :'>

[stoicgirl]

para kang multo!!!! kahit san ako tumingin, ikaw naaalala ko??? tama ba naman yon ha??? HAHAHAHAHA YAW Q NA :<<<

[stoicgirl]

i think i just miss you. i miss ur smile, ur smell, they way u look at me, talk to me, hand me things, tell me stuff.

SURE NA, GAYUMA TO! EMZ HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

this is simply because i like you. i like you more than u could ever imagine :'<

[stoicgirl]

i feel so attached & i don't like this feeling!!!! wala naman akong karapatan to demand or kahit to be attached wala. like, who am i??? ian moone :)

ian moone in her life & it sucks!!!! it sucks, opo yes po!!

sometimes, i feel like i'm too pushy & i don't want her to feel that. she doesn't deserve a love that is rushing her. and i feel like i'm rushing her.

worst part??? whenever i think of giving her space or giving her a break from me, i end up messaging her!!!! hayyy my life, i don't know what to do na :<

xori cactus, xori :((((

[stoicgirl]

stupor :----((( whuuuut? omkie bye.

[stoicgirl]

if u ever see this,,, pls reply with a playlist for a broken soul. thnx in advance :---))

[stoicgirl]

xori for flooding opo, but this is my safe space. wala naman atang nakakabasa nito na someone that knows me :/// ATA??? HEHE but ayun, if meron man, don't judge me. we all have our safe spaces :'> wag nyo ipagkait sakin to pls lang, yes po opo >:(((

[stoicgirl]

IF THIS WILL NEVER GET TO THE NEXT LEVEL, PLEASE KNOW THAT YOU'RE THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY....

In another life I would be your girl

We'd keep all our promises

Be us against the world

In another life I would make you stay

So I don't have to say you were

The one that got away

The one that got away

BAWI NA LANG BA TAYO NEXT LIFE??? :<

[stoicgirl]

ANG HIRAP HIRAP HIRAP!!!! Y CAN'T WE JUST TAKE IT TO THE NEXT LEVEL??? WHAT'S HOLDING US BACK??? HAYYYY LIFE!!! ARE WE JUST GONNA TELL OURSELVES NA LET'S JUST HOPE THAT THINGS ARE DIFFERENT FOR US IN THE PARELLEL UNIVERSE??? :'<<

[stoicgirl]

HAYYY I LIKE YOU :<

[stoicgirl]

one summer love <3

One summer, Kit went in a camp. She was heartbroken with her previous relationship with Benedict. She joined the summer camp to, at least try to heal, meet new people and start a new life without Ben. While in the camp, she joined different activities like bonfire where you can throw those things that someone gave you that keep you from moving on. Some physical activities like team building. While in the middle of game, she stumbled then a boy helped him up. He is Bernard. They became friends, they talked about the problems of each other and why did they come in this camp. Bernard was heartbroken as well with her ex-girlfriend, Abigail. It was 1 year ago since the break up but he thinks that he wasn’t fully recovered about Abi, while Kit and Ben broke up 3 months ago. They started to get to know each other, shared each other’s stories about life.

They go along well. They smile, laugh, eat, do things in the camp together. They sooner developed feelings for each other in that short time. Until the last day of the camp arrived. They are 3-hour drive to each other because they live in different towns. They exchanged numbers to get in touch because they are a thing now. After one week from the camp, Kit and Bernard are nonstop texting and calling each other. Until, Kit decided to surprise Bernard. She went from her town to Bern’s town, drove 3 hours and bought gifts for him. When she reached Bernard’s house, she saw Bernard and a girl kissing, from a window. She thought that maybe that’s Abigail, his ex-girlfriend. She was so hurt, she thinks that she is a fool for believing to a one-summer love story.

She get back in her car, start the car while crying and drive fast home. She doesn’t respond to Bernard’s texts and calls because she thinks that Bernard is just using her to fill in something in Bernard’s life. Since Kit is not responding to any of Bernard’s calls and messages, he decided to go to Kit’s house. He knocked in the door and when Kit opened the door, Bernard saw her with big black eye bags, messy hair in her pajamas. Kit was shocked that she slammed the door. Bernard was clueless, what is happening, he asked himself. So he kept on knocking until Kit opened the door again and let Bernard get in her house. She told everything she saw and Bernard was shocked.

Bernard explained himself that Abigail went to his house unexpectedly and telling Bernard that the wedding of Abigail and her fiancé was cancelled because Abi’s fiancé cheated. Abi went to Bern’s house and she said that she still love Bernard and tried to kiss him. That is the moment that Kit saw, but Bernard pushed Abi away and told her that he is with someone now.

Bernard apologized to Kit because she misunderstood the situation and apologized as well because Abi kissed him. Kit realized that she wrong as well because she doesn’t confront Bernard immediately to know his side about what she saw. They became okay and forgave each other. After two months, Bernard finally made his decision that he is moving in Kit’s town near her. Same building that Kit is staying. Then, everything got better.

We have to trust our partner every time. We have to listen first to anything they have to say and don’t decide when you’re angry and carries a heavy heart. We must not conclude. Having a healthy relationship is maintaining communication. You have to communicate to your partner about anything that is going on; how you feel, what you feel and why are you feeling that. Learn to listen, understand and trust your partner. Communication is always the key.

pseudonym: Jessica Harris

your girl with big dreams

[stoicgirl]

my first "not-so-hike" in Mt. Laiban (trilogy)

It was March 14, 2021 when my supposedly first hike was scheduled. Before I went there, it was a lot of research and preparing I did. I consulted different persons to help me have knowledge on how to hike, I even watched vlogs of different people. I was so excited because I really want to hike for a long time.

I left my house around 21:00 in the evening of March 13, 2021, saturday to go to my friend's house which is 15 minutes away from my house. We left our city around 01:30 in the morning of March 14, then arrived in Tanay, Rizal around 03:30 AM. Started hiking at 05:00.

I thought I can, I thought I would finish, but I didn't make it to the first peak. I was crying & ashamed at myself for not able to finish it. I even didn't start yet. I was so sad, ashamed & disappointed to myself but then the guide told me to do the back trail which I did.

I wasn't able to hike the three mountains but I was able to see the four falls. I was so happy that atleast I did that, cried on the falls while the water was falling down. Swam there & even threw something that I hold onto for a long time. It was a ring my ex gave me.

I even did rappelling to climb the rock formations to go the falls. It was a great experience for me. Even though I didn't make the three mountains, I am happy that I experienced this kind of adventure in my life. It inspired me to have a healthy living, exercise everyday, be more sporty, do cardio, lose weight. This adventure thought me that life is so much more. It thought me things that I never thought I'd realize.

The life of the locals there is so simple. No electricity, no laptops, no ipads, not all of them have television & cellphones but they are happy. Happy & contented that they don't need those materials things to be happy. They inspired me that living simple isn't boring. It's hard, yes but it will teach you the reality of life.

Most of their time is spent on the farm, milking cows, planting & harvesting crops, building their gardens - children are playing and making mudpies or even playing the feces of cows & carabaos. It was plain & simple.

I asked a girl who lives there. "If you'll be given a chance to pick the life you want, would you pick to live in the city or stay here?" I was shocked with what she answered, she told me "It may be hard to live here, but I would never exchange the life I have here for the convenient life you guys have there in the city because I would never exchange my peace to anything life can offer."

YES! IT IS THE PEACE THAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT IN EVERYONE'S LIFE!!!

To live there is hard. It is not convenient, it is not instant but to live there is peaceful - and she would never trade peace for an easy but disturbing, agitating life.

In conclusion, it was a very memorable experience for me. I learned a lot from this one. This kind of experience is the experience I will treasure forever 💛

Thank you for the KIDA (Keep Inspiring Different Adventure) Mountaineers team. Thank you to my friend, Allyson & to her family!

It was the experience I would never forget. :)

[sibyllebair]

[stoicgirl]

right!! hahahaha i look normal but i have so much things to say & you can see it in my tumblr or blogspot :---))