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[stollemyheart]

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i'm studying information tech. in college. i like reading, making art and true crime documentaries. come say hi!!

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TUESDAY, 31ST MARCH, 2026

today was a very slow day. we had the day off today, and i finally got a good nights sleep after days. i also did my entire hair care routine after ages, which felt great and organised my skincare tray. i was also expecting a package today, but it ended up getting cancelled :(

i’ve been reading we do not part by han kang recently. i read the vegetarian by her, and honestly, i did not understand much of it? i understood the plot, but i did not understand why anything was happening and what certain events signified. maybe that was the point? i’m hoping i have a better read this time, because i do find her writing captivating.

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MONDAY, 30TH MARCH, 2026

i feel like everytime i post here, i say i'm gonna do it more often and then just never do lol. but to be fair, life has been super hectic. living away from home is so liberating but also very tough. i got an internship. it's not paid, but i'm privileged enough to not have to wrroy about that yet.

i've also been trying to get more creative. i felt like i had consumed so much media recently but could never remember what i had read/ viewed. which is why i started a media journal. it's like a super simple template on notion, a place for me to just brain dump my thoughts about any interesting topics.

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monday, 3 february, 2026

happy february!! i can't belive the first month of the year is over already. 2026 has been off to a pretty good start. i turned 20 (which was quite an underwhelming event but oh well) i've found a pretty good groove with studying, and i'm really trying to keep the momentum going.

one thing i've been struggling with is trying to not compare myself with my peers. i feel like veryone around me is improving their skills, and moving on to bigger and better things, while i'm still stuck where i've always been. but i've been doing surprisingly better with these things, and reminding myself that everyone works at a different pace. just because i'm behind doesn't mean i'm out of the race.

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saturday, january 17th 2026

this semester has been off to a very slow start. eventhough we've had our classes for a couple of weeks, nothing much has happened in them. however, just a glance at the coursework is enough to tell me that this one's gonna be worse than the last one.

i've been away from this account for way too long. one of my new years goals is to create more than i consume, and that includes keeping the blog alive. so hopefully i'll keep my promise to myself this time <3

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favourite substack reads recently <3

the cult of the emotionally unavailable man

and the slow death of romance in a generation terrified of yearning

Miss your train or lose the love of your life

One of these days, I’ll miss my train.

the art of asking

on the beauty of deep conversations and a personal archive of questions

Fortunately, and unfortunately, you get used to it

How both comfort and chaos can sneak in and become “normal”

[keys-home]

some things i do daily that make my life WAY easier:

put a hook right next to my door handle and i ALWAYS put my keys there no matter what

when i get back from class i put my bag next to my desk (between my desk and bed actually, so if i sit or lay down i dont have to get up to pull out my laptop to work on stuff)

if i see im low on something (toilet paper, soap, shampoo, etc) i try to write it down ASAP on my list (i have a list i keep on my phone that i update and look at when i go to the store)

set up alarms for the entirety of the next day every night—this helps a LOT with my ADHD. if i see something due at 3:30PM i set an alarm for 3PM (so i have time to complete it), if i have an event i set an alarm for (transit time + 10 minutes) minutes before it starts

the night before if i have early classes or need to be up early i will pack my bag and set my clothes out because my brain is SUPER foggy if i don't sleep enough

when i need to take meds but i dont want to eat anything i literally just have a box of saltines in my room so i can eat then take them

i consistently try to put things in the same place + in clear boxes/visible so i can easily find important stuff

this isnt always daily but i try to do like 2-15 minutes clean up of my dorm at night

so yeah remember you gotta figure out what works for you and if shit isnt working, try a different strategy (especially if youre neurodivergent, chronically ill, disabled, etc.)

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34/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

SATURDAY, 4TH OCTOBER

today was one of the best days i've had in a while! i went out with my friends and ate so much good food. we walked around a lot and had so so much fun. the second half of the day was spent on council work, which sucked the life out of me. but i managed to get quite a bit of stuff done, so i'm proud of that. then i tried planning for the upcoming week, and once i saw all the dead lines i had, i got scared shitless. i can't wait for mid-sem break and go home and do absolutely nothing. additionally i have so much laundry to do, i hate it. anyways, sending lots of love to everyone!!

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33/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

MONDAY, 29TH SEPTEMBER

…hello. i feel like an imposter lol. but life has changed drastically since the last time i posted. i moved out!! i live in a dorm with 2 other roommates now!!!! it’s honestly been really fun. second year of engineering finally feels like actual engineering. it’s kicking my ass but in the best way.

i’ve joined a council this year which has kept me super busy. and my mid terms got over last week, and now we’re drowning in internal assessments.

i sort of got lost in all the noise of uni, and forgot this blog exists. i don’t make any promises for being super active on here (because i know myself) but i’m gonna try my best to upload consistently, and finish this damn challenge <3

[whispers-inthelibrary]

my earphones are with me everywhere! my only birthday present i got for myself was a new paper republic grand voyager journal in the xl size. i had the small one for over a year now. i told myself that if its something that i actually use alot then i’ll gift myself the xl. I kept watching tiktoks of people buying multiple of these leather bound journals at once in various sizes (people can do whatever they like with their money but i am still a student with a part time salary sooo i couldnt). it got a bit overwhelming for my mind, watching alot of people buy 300$ worth of stationary because i couldn’t justify splurging so much all at once. even though deep down there was a violent itch in my brain to just purchase it.

in a time of extreme connivence and instant gratification i have been giving myself an intentional waiting periods before purchasing items. it has been extremely beneficially for my brain and for my pocket (hehe) and as a bonus i got a double discount because i had a discount code + the calendar bundle was on sale! i don’t want to associate getting dopamine from shopping anymore so just waiting months to a year to make certain purchases has decreased my desire to shop even for tiniest mundane things. anyways morale of the story is, take your time with your purchases. if its truly meant for you, it will be yours in the right time and you’ll have a better way of knowing how you want to intentionally use the items you’re collecting.

i see everything having energies, so i truly look and see whether or not this is the energy I want to bring to my personal space.

speaking of taking your time and planning things out, i am now reading count of monte cristo! the only book i think i want to take my time to read in july.

take care, i hope you all have a great weekend!

[stollemyheart]

32/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

WEDNESDAY, 9TH JULY

i'm trying my best to stay consistent with these posts, but i just forget to take pictures of what i do through out the day. this week hasn't been super productive learning wise, but i have been running a lot of errands and buying a lot of stuff, because i'm moving out this weekend!!!! i'm excited and scared shitless at the same time. i have been reading frankenstein recently, and surpisingly, i love it. i'm not a big fan of the classics, but this one is super interesting.

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31/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

SATURDAY, 5TH JULY

we got our results for sem-2 today, and i'm glad to inform that i scored the highest in my class :) it was quite a surprise because according to me most of my finals did not go well, however it seems it was the case for everyone. i spent the whole day doing a whole lot of nothing. i stepped out of the house for my keyboard exam, and went to the pharmacy to pick up some medicines. recently i've been having some trouble sleeping. by chance i stumbled upon the podcast "boring history for sleep" and i love it! it puts me to sleep and at the same time i learn and dream about interesting things.

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26th- 30th/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

WEDNESDAY, 2ND JULY

i didn't have the best couple of days over the last few days. i spent a lot of time doomscrolling and bed-rotting. but i did go out with friends over the weekend and we had a great time. i'm gonna be moving out of my parents house sometime this month, and i am nervous as shit. that's been on my mind for a while now and it's making me very anxious. ofcourse i'm excited, but i'm so so nervous too. anyways i made a cute cat bookmark to help myself feel better <3

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25/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

THURSDAY, 26TH JUNE

i did a lot of coding today!!! and some shopping too!! the weather has been pretty blegh recently which has affected my mood a lot. i got like no sleep last night, but for some reason i'm not tired at all today ?? hopefully by the time i have to go to bed i become dead tired and fall asleep immediately. i cannot do another sleepless night. also we're a quarter of the way through the challenge!!!

java videos completed: 5/5 !!

data analytics course: ✅

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24/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

WEDNESDAY, 25TH JUNE

i've been reading the selfish gene by richard dawkins recently, and despite the first few chapter of the book being a bit boring, the later half is super interseting. i've been writing some interesting facts from the book in my commonplace journal. i went on a walk today after ages, which felt amazing. i did not practice any java today, which means i need to work on my time management skills.

java videos completed: 0/5

data analytics course: ✅

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23/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

TUESDAY, 24TH JUNE

finally got a 50 day streak on duolingo (#proud). i also gave my driver's license test today, and it went pretty well i think. i'm just glad it's over now and pray to god that i never have to give it again. did quite a bit of coding and and walked a lot. overall, it was a good day <3

java videos completed: 4/5

data analytics course: ✅

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22/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

MONDAY, 23RD JUNE

i can't believe june went by so fast. summer holidays turned out to be a lot more hectic than i thought they would be. i had a really productive day today, finally started working on my data analytics course again and also did some java (not as much as i would've liked) also watched the first ep. of 'head over heels', and i love it so far. i've been trying to do a social media detox over the past few days, and since deleting insta i've found scrolling on other apps to fill the void and surprisingly, one of them is linkedin. i stalked my entire middle school class today, and turns out my 5th grade crush is doing pretty well in life. one of my goals this week is to practice java everyday and work on my data analytics course everyday, hence i shall hold myself accountable through this blog<3

java videos completed: 1.5/5

data analytics course: ✅