Something I don't think is brought up enough is just how comforting being fat is.
Firstly, there is the physical aspects. I literally have pillows built-in everywhere. Thighs? Soft and cushioned. Butt? Round and plump. Chest? Full and supple. Tummy? A huge, pillowy mountain of warmth and comfort. And even the bits that you wouldn't expect, like arms, side rolls, back, calves, neck. All of it has a wonderful layer of softness. I'm basically a big walking teddy bear at this point.
To add to this, the warmth of it all is such a boon in the winter. All the extra insulation and padding means I don't have to shiver as I run errands during the winter. Summer can get in the bin though. 24/7 sweaty is not it.
Also, just taking up more room is just such a confidence boost. I can't be a wallflower cause I'm just too big to just hide in the corner. I have to be this big, confident, jolly giant. I've literally gotten so big I've been forced into being more outgoing.
Which brings me onto more mental aspects. These are gonna be a lot more personal to me, but I hope others can relate. The first one is just simply comfortable with my own appearance. While I feel I can equate this to growing up as a person, and to this very blog, I think going from slim to fat definitely had a positive effect on it. It's hard to put an exact pin on, but I feel like more of me now. I feel I'm more of a man in some way, and in others I feel like I've got this big, soft protective armour.
The second one, and I'd argue the bigger one is finding community within this punk rock, anti-establishment kink. Like with people all around me IRL always on these new fad diets, bro-science workout plans and influencer grindset routines, just being comfortable, or even happy with being fat feels very non-comformist. Having people stare and make comments, as much as I try to tell myself about how much they're missing out, does still get to me, so having found community amongst my fellow fat and feedism freaks (complimentary) has been great. Like there are people out there who wanna squish tums, gain tons, and shout it from the rooftops that they love fat too.
